Back to work..

[jonmom2012]

My 4am work alarm woke me this morning.  My second thought.."PILL!"  Followed by a dose of self-pity.  I layed there thinking "how will I make it through the day".  Then I decided that I dont want to think about that bc it gives my anxiety.  I am going to keep myself in check, staying in the moment.  Its 4:43 am..Im just getting to 4:44.    

Hope today brings you all feelings of comfort and .  2013 better get ready for me, I am sober and kind of a bad*ss.

[luvabugga]

I'm also convinced all the vitamins and supplements help.  But, I took them everyday even when I was taking the Norco.  I'm sure the Norco probably cancelled them out!
P.S.  I need a trainer to get me to stop eating!  If it's not nailed down...I'm eating it!!

[YesLife4Me]

Yeah, I figured if I was popping pills all day long, why would I not want to pop something healthy in the morning?   :)    And may have to take you up on the personal trainer thing.   Between cutting pills and the holidays...I have added a few!  

[jonmom2012]

Lol, you are all making me laugh!!

If you need help losing the bad*ss pounds, let me know - I am a personal trainer : )

[jonmom2012]

I do the same thing with my supplements!  I have a routine down that I am convinced is helping, ritualistic like the pills, but healthy!!

[YesLife4Me]

LOL!  That's normal.  Our appetite comes raging back and we all put on a few bad a s s pounds!   Would rather have that problem than being a slave to pills!!  

[luvabugga]

lol...'Come'on Badass's'....that really made me laugh!  Funny thing is I can't stop eating now.  I feel like I always have to have something in my belly.  By next week I can see I'll be on the Weight Watchers forum!

[YesLife4Me]

It takes time to undo the patterns of behavior that became routine for us.  I remember waking up feeling awkward starting my day without a pill too.   Give your new routine a little bit to settle in and soon you find it isn't the first thing on your mind.  Then you will be glad that you are freed from feeling like you have to have one to get going.    I still occassionally get that thought, but it is usually only when I wake up stiff, sore or headachey now.    You will find staying busy at work passes time quickly and what you really can accomplish without the pills...so good job!   You are doing great!

[kmchristian]

Long story short... I've been addicted to tramadol for almost 4 years now and made the decision that enough is enough! After being on 15-20 pills a day for 3 years I have to taper off. Today is going to be the first day of work where I'm not going to take a pill to get me through the day. The thought makes me a little anxious but I am not letting it beat me! Stay busy! Picture your craving as it versus you. It WANTS to beat you but I know we are all stronger than it is!

[selfinduced]

Mommie is right. I would pretend my vitamins were my pills for a few months. I would wake up , make a protein shake and gulp down a multi vitamin, b6 and b12. I know it sounds lame, but this kinda fooled my brain. Stay busy. The anxiety is far worse if your idle. Also try to keep a small amount of food in your belly. It helps cravings and if your like most you would take your pills on an empty stomach to intensify the effect. If your full, your less incline to think about it. Come'on Badass's, YOU GOT THIS!!!!

[theirmommie72]

that feeling was the worst.  right when you wake up and realize you don't have anything to take.  what am i gonna do?  dread sets.  it gets easier.  my morning pill and coffee was a big part of who i was for a long time.  it's like saying goodbye to a friend who doesn't sleep over anymore. you miss it and that's okay.  there is a better friend waiting for you around the corner. life. good luck to you.  and it does get easier.  

[luvabugga]

Back to work for me too...and hardly slept....AGAIN!!!  Day 6 for me and feeling a little shakey, but otherwise not too bad.  From one 'Sober Badass' to another....Have a great day!  We will both get through it with flying colors!