I understand you. Read my post. I finally admired I have a problem. I threw out all my pills. I'm scarred. It's awful. I feel everything you do.
hey you guys im hooked on lartab and being an x herion user ..im always getting hooked on soemthing..i dont know how to wean my self off..please somebody that did it please tell me how/ im taking 80 pi;;s within two weeks .. i take 2 in the morning because im already sweating than i can hang till about noon i will take 2 or one till about 8 pm.. than around 3 in morning 2 more and the hole thing starts all over again .. can someone help me tell me how to wean when i start sweating i start to trip and ill pop 2 right away just so i dont have to feel that feeling .. help me!!!!!
Thank you all so much. It amazes me that I am not the only one. I mean it is all over that people suffer, but reading what everyone has to say is like reading my own thoughts. I CAN DO THIS! I need to stay strong, fight the urges and read this daily and use the support that all of you share. I have spent my last dime on the pills, I have some to taper with. I am scared to do cold turkey b/c I have to go to work. But I know whatever I have to do I will. Thank you all so very much for the support! Best of luck to each and everyone of you.
zash,
Trust me I know how you feel...I'm currently suffering from codeine phosphate withdrawal symptoms...I feel so strange...and my memory has gone almost completely and I'm scared...I have been turning to friends in desperation and not all have been sympathetic...and several times I have broke down in tears...I live on my own so its even worse...and of course I am afraid I will end up in a mental home if I end up cracking up from the stress of the memory loss and confusion.
I really wish I could help you cope with your problem but I am suffering just like you.hang on in there zash.
very best wishes
Trevor
You CAN do this and it sounds like you want too. Most everyone here can totally relate. I tried so many times to taper but couldn't. Doesn't mean it can't be done. I was terrified to quit, WD etc..., all excuses. There are so many OTC things you can take to help with the physical. It's like having the flu. But then the mental kicks in and that's where aftercare comes in. Everyone here can relate. This forum showed me, if these people can do it, than so can I. I'm 13 days clean and by the grace of god, I'm still here. I don't want to live like a zombie either. It's not truly living. You have great support.
You can do this!!!
I would detox then I would get involved with a support group the meetings that goes on will help in your recovery from these meds. There is another way to see your Doc. tell him or her what is going on and you need help to kick the pain meds. You may be candidate for sub. even if you get this med you can still go to meetings and share your experience with the group. After a while you may be able to quit cold turkey. The support group will be of help to you I no I attended for 15 yrs and was affiliated with the department of corrections support group working with inmates to stay clean and sober. You can do it. Keep posting.
btw: Tapering is not a necessity...It doesn't work for many people, it even drags out the w/d's, less severe (it was better becuase of my health to taper) Cold turkey is I think by far more common. You just have all the supplements on hand. This forum is a treasure trove of info. and supportive people who understand all you are going through.
You sound like you really want this..a clean life. The use of the term Zombie really hit home for me. I have 41 days opiate free and only a short time ago...(I still have a long way to go) but I now have some hope that I no longer will be a walking zombie. That you have your husband to support you is pretty awesome. You have to get rid of your sources. If you hav eto..throw away your phone..get a new line. I tapered myself down to the lowest possible mg..I think 3.75 mg..then jumped. You have your husband to hold the pills..if you cant get into rehab. At the bottom of this page, right side see: Thomas's Recipe/Amino Acid Protocol..these supplements, vitamins and such will help with the w/d symptoms. As someone here say's, You have to be ok not being ok for awhile. That's it...for awhile..not the rest of your life..just for awhile...bad flu...take hot baths..drink lots of fluids...gets some immodium..its all in the Recipe. This is 2/3 mental and 1/3 physical. Keep posting and reading. This site has gotten me through some real rough times.
I hope for yourself first then for your family..that you make the right decision..and that is what it is: A decision.
Good Luck and God Bless You
Prayers being said on your behalf.