I just wanted to add a couple other things since reading your last post. First off, the best thing for you to do is start cutting off ties with your friends. I know its hard but it will make things a lot easier for you. When I first decided to get clean not having my friends around was probably the best thing for me. I found out quickly the only thing I had in common with them was the drugs.
Try to avoid the situations that you know make you want to use. Some people have family problems, some its the party scene, for others it can be money. No matter what it is just don't put yourself in situations where you know you are going to get yourself into trouble.
You need to get yourself some kind of support. Just knowing that there is someone there for you when you need it makes things so much easier. The hardest thing that I had to do was tell my grandmother about my addiction but I knew she would be right behind me to kick my a$$ if she found out that I was using again.
Just remember:
- Don't think you can or have to do this alone. Everyone needs someone to help them and there is someone that will be there for you.
- Don't put yourself in situations that would make using easy for you.
- The only people you need in your life at this point are the ones that also need you in theirs.
I really do wish you the best of luck!
Hi--Listen,the pain meds aren't your biggest problem in my opinion. The xanax and ambien are!! I'm guessing you took that combo and scared yourself...
Xanax must be tapered off. You can stop the opiates cold turkey ( like that's easy... )
but the abrupt withdrawal from the Xanax will make you feel horrible,anxious,and could cause you to have a seizure.
If this were me,knowing what I know now,I'd stop the opiates now. Then, after you've gotten over that,wean off the xanax and then the ambien.
All these meds suit a purpose and are fairly safe when taken correctly but tha't not what's happening with you!
Also,look into some kind of recovery plan to keep you clean. We all need support.
Good luck!
Thank you for posting that! I am also at that point where if i couldnt get Vics id try to find Percs if not then Roxies. All from friends of friends never a legit script. I know i have the power to stop, since i scared the **** out of myself. Until yesterday i was also taking 2 10mg ambian or to fall asleep & xanax for my panic attacks.
It did get me to fall asleep but never stayed asleep. Im scared im putting too much diff crap in my system and just want to get off these pain meds the right, safe and easiest way.
First off, the sooner you realize that you may not be able to do this on your own the better off you will be. Were you prescribed the pain meds for a legitimate medical condition? If you were you need to go to your doctor and talk to him/her about this. Stopping them cold turkey could be worse for your health then taking them at this point. Your Dr. could help you come up with a plan to slowly ween you off of them and get you on a more suitable medication to control your pain.
When I was in high school I was extremely addicted to vicodin but I would take anything that I could get my hands on if vics weren't available. I was in 7th grade the very first time I tried one and it only took a month or so before I wanted them everyday. I was 19 when I finally had enough. I was just slowly killing myself. I went to my local Drug and Alcohol and they totally changed my life. It was an outpatient treatment but every counselor there had been addicted to some sort of alcohol or drugs at some point in their lives. I didn't feel judged and it was a comfortable environment. I recommend doing that if it is available in your area.
No matter what you decide to do you are in for a very hard time in your life. It does get a lot easier though. I hope everything works out for you and that I was at least a little help.