she is lucky to not be an addict and sometimes i do forget this really is a disease. we beat ourselves up the most and that's the nature of the beast. how else can you explain doing the same thing over and over knowing it is destroying you. i wish you the best of luck and please don't be discouraged by the odd negative post. 95% of posts here are helpful and caring so stick around.
Thanks everybody for your comments and encouragement.
Since I room with my sister, I unfortunately have to be around the pain killers all the time. It would help if I could remove myself from the presence of them, but I can't. But with her locking them up, it will help. And she will be strict with doling any of them out to me. Interesting how some people become addicted and others don't... She's taken the hydro for about 4 years for chronic pain - various sources of pain - and she has always had extra left over at the end of the month. Sometimes she doesn't even take a whole pill.
That is so hard to admit something like that - it takes someone strong to do it...you are strong enough to get through it as well. Each day gets better...I have acted in ways not at all like myself, more like the addict I portrayed at times!
Best of luck to you. Perhaps you can check on natural remedies that will help.
Things happen for reasons - even if never revealed to us...hopefully this is the beginning of something wonderful for you.
Thanks... I must really be in an overly sensitive mood these past few days. You're right -- I'm sure no one intentionaly ignored my post. Guess I got a little paranoid!
Oh and panda. You did the right thing by posting a comment on this post. It brings it back to the top where others can see it. We don't purposefully ignore a post. Sometimes we won't answer because we don't have information, sometimes the forum is busy and a post gets missed.
you have taken the first step..you are on the road to recovery. it will be a long journey, but one that will set you free. i too am sorry about last nights fiasco, but we gotta move on. keep posting it will help you through all this.
cathy
i am proud of you for doing the right thing. that took a lot of courage and in a way surrendering to those pills. the guilt is normal, but will fade with the fact you came clean and that says something about you. glad to see you get this under control now.
I'm glad to hear that you came clean with your sis...that took bal:s... I'm ecstatic for you that she is going to help you ween off these to. You sound like your ready for the change. It can be done but it won't come easy. Just remember it's hard to hang out with monkeys and not eat bananas if ya know what I mean.
Good for you. Tapering is rough. But if sis is doling them out you can do this. You may still not feel too well but it should be better than going c/t.
Good luck and keep posting. I rather doubt any one is holding yesterdays post against you. I am sorry you saw that. It happens, though. There is a lot of good here. Keep hanging around.
Welcome to the forum.
didn't see that post last night and by the way it sounds i am glad i didn't. Like i say take in the good and look past the bad.
i am proud of you that you came clean to your sister. You two must be very close. Goo luck to you and if you ever need to chat send me a message
OK -- I know I posted last night on the post that got into a brawl, that I was not going to post on here anymore because I was upset at the antagonistic ways some people responded on that message. But thought I'd give it another shot tonight....I see there's lots of people out there posting. I won't bite!! :)