Can I do this????? DETOX of Vicodine

[cc70]

Tuesday will be my first day with out any Vicodine....I have been to a specialist that is prescribing me a very small amount (3days worth) of celebrx, clonodine (0.1mg...TINY)  vistirl 25 mg and seroquil for sleep. Then she said she is putting me on a blocking agent (not Suboxone but I think that one that makes all narcotics leave your body) she said I have to take 2-3 days off work...I am still unsure if she means while I am stopped (t-w-th) or when she gives me the blocking agent? Anyhow...I leave for a business trip on the 20th for  2weeks of trade shows......I know i am in for it.....I have been taking 4-8 a day for a while......but can I make it...my flgihts are booked, hotels and I have no choice but to go..I am the only one represetning the company to go.....will be physically OK.....I may not feel welll.....anyone have any suggestons??? Or experience with this????
HELP....I have been so stressed out and don't wan to sayd F... this and get another script filled so I can work.

[cc70]

Thank you...I need to have possitive vibes these days. I am just trying not to phych myslef out to make this worse than it has to be......I can do this.....I am flushing them away.....not hiding them somewhere where i can find them later...just get them out my ability then 1/2 my battle is covered. I already told my Doctors I was trying to get off them and didn't want more. So closing the doors for a relapse....I gave up everything 13 (close to 14) years ago...Herion being my D.O.C and it wasn't pretty and also wasn't so voluntary....and after year and years in recovery I never ever thought I would be in this place again! I am happy that my mind never (I SAY THIS WITH A YET B/C WHO KNOWS IF I KEPT GOING) my mind never has gone to the F-it mode...where I say I already lost my clean time so lets really go out...it has NEVER been like that...I have a fairly normal stable life...I am mom...play soccer, snowbaord, work, travel.....and now i am strung out on Vicodines...Darn it ..how did it happen..OK enough on how it happned.....let me just work on fixing it and getting back to being clean and serene.....it is hard b/c i left CA and had this amazing network of people around me...all my friends were clean...there were so many meetings to choose from ...now I live on the opostit coast up in cold New England and meetings were just so different I never was able to connect (my own issues I know) but thought after 10+ year....I had a good thing going and never would use again. Darn medical stuff....and depression....makes a perfect storm for using.

[road2recovery]

THERE you go!!!!  Cry if need be, god knows we all have...I have seen grown men on here say they could not stop crying, and i realized this poison has no compassion on anyone..no matter who....You have made some great steps, you have a addiction doctor helping you....you have made the first step ...I will be praying for you...If you need a friend, I am here!!!

[refusingbondage]

Hang in there. Its can be very emotional but let it all out-crying is cleansing.  You really sound determined and that is so good to hear.  With strength and support from others, it is definitely possible to beat and you can do it..  One thing that will really help is exercise.. even if its a short walk or some mild exercise, it can help a lot. Even to just clear your mind.  Try the amino acid vitamins and hot baths and exercise and eating heallthy.  Our bodies are amazing at healing if given some proper TLC.  Best of luck to you and take care!

[onedaycloser]

cc,

Good for you! You sound as though you have made you decision to stop, all thats left to do is take it head on and move forward, it might not be easy, but you can do it. Each day you will get better, and within a week you should be feeling great! Keep posting we are all here for you!

[cc70]

Thank you ! I realize it is 30% body and 70% mind....so I just want to try to keep busy and fight this...I am flushign down all my meds as of tomorrow when I see the Adiiction Dr...I found out the drug she is giving me after is Na.ltraxone? But I read all this stuff and it says 7-10 opiod free or will experince severe withdrawl symptoms...I think she said it would 5 days and she woudl have me on it...Yikes..Oh well I am going to follow her orders and go with it. I will keep you posted and keep on this forum....will need support mentally from you all. I have to stop crying.....it is getting to be ridiculous....I haven't even stopped and I am a blubbering mess.
Keep the mind strong...keep the mind strong ...keep the mind strong.... I am going to do a lot of praying and a lot of typing....I will keep you all posted and I am trying to be my best best best to beat the beast!!!! I mean it doesn't even feel good!!!! It is not satisfying...it used to give me a wave sensation of happiness...it brings me nothing but anguish and pain now...so I am done!!!!! I have a great carear...great kids....need to be 100% for everything.

[road2recovery]

PLEASE listen to me on this one...IF we tell ourselves " I am so scared" , " I know this will NOT be easy"  Then that will be what happens...At the amount you are taking it will not be to bad, Now tell yourself this over and over...Try to keep yourself out of your head...I know you can do this...We get to the point, that we HATE the way they make us feel, and we HATE what they have done to us, our families, our bodies, and minds...SO take that hate, and fight, Fight hard, with all you have...You sound like a strong woman, you havnt missed a day of work in years, don't start now because of this darn little pill....GO on that job and Prove to this poison what it really is "POISON".. you can do this, and we will all help you every step...God bless, and good luck!!!

[Ronnie152]

Hi, i am 5.5 days off of 12+ vics a day, I didnt have help, I couldnt of did it with out this form. I cut down the last 2 days then just stopped. I can tell you it will be rough but the meds. you are going to be taking might help with that. I didnt have that op. The first 4 days are hard, if your going away thats good. You will be away from everything. Stay as busy as you can, hot baths work great! Stay with us and good luck!

[cc70]

Thank you....you have spoken to me a few times.....I am just so scared....and so tiered of crying....the vicodnes don't help...they are making my life misserable.....secretive, deceptive and I can't sleep with all that goes on my head with them anyway!!!! I just want this to end....and willing to go through the pain....the only reason I didn't set up the detox earlier is because I have a stress test with Cardiolgist and needed one...and i can't be going through w/d when I take it. so even the addiction specialist said to wait...I have been trying to taper...but at best make it through the day on 4 (ucomfortably) .....I thank you guys for support and need to fins someons close to me I can talk to ....I can't confide in my husband.....it is another long story that is too sad to talk about but probably half the reason I have self medicated as long as I have. I plan to get into therapy when I return...I am hoping the distractions of work will be good and I can pull throuhg and be presentable enough to do my job. I haven't missed a day of work in years except for when I separated my shoulder (whcih started all this mess) 6 months back.
If anyone is in the Connecticut area....I would love some local support.

[10356]

I agree with r2r You have all the meds to get you through the wd.. You may even be able to sleep with the seroquil.. That would be a great benefit.. Remember hot baths or showers often.. As far as travel for work.. I think you will almost welcome the distraction as the mental aspects of wd are far worse when not busy... Congratulations on taking the step's You needed to regain your freedom from meds.. Have a safe trip and I wish you well.. lesa

[road2recovery]

YES , u can do this!!  But if i were you i would make today my first day...If you are working and are sick, take very very small amounts to get through today.. ..
I really think that getting away, will do you more good then bad...Taking your mind off of it , is one of the most important things to do...I think you will do great...I am not sure what the other med is, but am interested, is it naltroxone??  the other meds will do you good, and just take them as needed...Good luck and keep us posted...
God bless!!

[disFUNctional]

I kept finding reasons to delay my withdrawl too.  When it comes down to it you have to just do it for yourself no matter what you may miss.  I am no expert but if you give it all you got you may be fine for your trip on the 20th.  I think it is worth the shot.  It may not be an easy trip but it will take your mind off of things.  Just my opinion.
Love,
Kim