Can someone relate?

Okay Today I actually got out of the house.  I went to the grocery store and I felt so anxious and paranoid.  Whats up with that?  I have always been a people person and now I feel so recluse.  The BF will be back soon and we have a concert to attend not to mention I have to go out on client meeting soon.  

When will this pass and what should I do?

xoxo
g

[lulu747]

GG..
It's normal to feel this way...It passes.  Once you have a little clean time under your belt you will be AMAZED by the girl that appears....Your authentic self.  
Your brain is all out of whack right now, you've been feeling a lot of fear, and spending a lot of time alone.  Of course you are going to feel strange going out in the world! You are coming off drugs!
I remember on Day 6 I had to go get my passport renewed...OMG I thought I was going to hyperventilate.  It was totally fine.  No one noticed my dilated pupils or shakiness but me...Even with the crazy flashbulbs and long line ups I was totally okay....Anxious as heck but okay.  You'll be surprised at what you can accomplish sober...I know I was.
Time and patience girl...time and patience.
You are stronger and more capable than you know...Gotta give yourself a real shot....It's worth it and so ARE YOU!!!

Lu

[all_alone1]

Hey gg my friend...it is unfortunatly part of the who package deal with geeting clean...

I actually walked to dennys with the kids today.....were ordering right now

[lulu747]

GG..
It's normal to feel this way...It passes.  Once you have a little clean time under your belt you will be AMAZED by the girl that appears....Your authentic self.  
Your brain is all out of whack right now, you've been feeling a lot of fear, and spending a lot of time alone.  Of course you are going to feel strange going out in the world! You are coming off drugs!
I remember on Day 6 I had to go get my passport renewed...OMG I thought I was going to hyperventilate.  It was totally fine.  No one noticed my dilated pupils or shakiness but me...Even with the crazy flashbulbs and long line ups I was totally okay....Anxious as heck but okay.  You'll be surprised at what you can accomplish sober...I know I was.
Time and patience girl...time and patience.
You are stronger and more capable than you know...Gotta give yourself a real shot....It's worth it and so ARE YOU!!!

Lu

[gg636]

I walked around the grocery store!

[gg636]

Lord Help!  What a weird feeling... I still have meds in me but this tops ALL Paranoid and Anxious Really.. What I am suppose to do this week?  I guess I will hust have to deal with it,  I am the one that got myself in this mess..... erggggg!

[IwillDoThis]

gg - just got back from forcing myself to go out and grab a burger and I made it through first half of game before we had to come home.  Hang in there and keep pushing through it!

[gg636]

I am trying...promise

[IwillDoThis]

and I am thinking about YOU, wishing you well.

[gg636]

Thanks that means alot... I so wanna go chew up a pill right now... But I am holding steady... Please remember I tell nothing but the Truth and today is day 5 and I am 1 stupild little pill...... errrrrg!

[IwillDoThis]

Don't do it - you've come too far.  1 little pill stands between you and freedom - which will you choose?

[gg636]

I want I Promise  I CHOOSE FREEDOM.... Just call me Pill Slayer!

[lulu747]

Okay pill slayer...Flush the pill! Do a little ritual that symbolizes your break up..JUST GET RID OF IT!  Take your life back...You are in charge, not the pill.  I promise you will feel a million times better about yourself.  
It may be just one pill but it stands for a whole lot more.  Choose life.  EMPOWER yourself. You can do it.  
Lu

[kk1303]

I experienced the same thing the first 2 weeks of my detox. It fades each day...just give it time.

[gg636]

Thank goodness Kk... That is a weird feeling

@ Lu I know your right!!

[selfinduced]

Stay on task......you have this licked.....one day at a time.

[bama88]

How are you feeling today? sending support... i was away this weekend..very busy and must say i went thru that same feeling. ugh. i felt like everyone could see my sins....but who has that kind of xray vision? even superman couldn't see chemicals in your body. lol. this is a very common feeling that will fade away... stay the course...you've came too far to turn around now.

[Sarah11212]

I can relate to this...
My first venture to the grocery store by myself was at about 2 1/2 weeks into my recovery. I actually had such bad anxiety upon walking into the store that I forgot why I was even there and felt as though everyone was watching me.  
I have gone twice more since then and I can tell you that even though it is still a weird feeling, it has gotten better with each trip.
Hang in there.

[gg636]

Oh I hope so... I have to a concert Wed and on client meetings next week.

[MikeInFrance]

Me too... I can def relate.... The first time I went out just for a few minutes and with a friend and just to a cafe ...I felt like people were watching me and that "they knew" just by looking at me. And I was always so confident in public but it really will pass and get back to our old good selves! It's just a shock to our bodies and minds with all we have done and that same body and mind that isn't fully cooperating with us at the moment begins to reward us with more and more positive good feelings and experiences. I promise just tough it out a bit more and u'll feel exactly what I am saying. And on a side note....get rid of any pills when u r detoxing. Def not cool being around them. Cravings pass relatively quickly so don't be in a position where u have the opportunity to succumb to temptation so quickly and easily. So move forward and Get Going! Maybe that's  what gg should stand for.....?! ;)

[lulu747]

GG...
How you doin' today girl?  Did you get rid of the pill?  If you did, you should be feeling a heck of a lot better by Wednesday for your concert and client meetings.  You are capable of more than you know.  I had a major board meeting on week 2, and then was offered a HUGE career opportunity.  I wasn't sleeping and feeling like a basket case....And you know what?  I did awesome.  I accomplish more in a day sober than I used to accomplish in a month on pills.  And, I'm actually present and my most authentic self....Just sayin'....

xo
Lu

[gg636]

@ Mike ... Good one Get Going!  How are you today?  

[gg636]

@ lu.. I will not lie... I belive it's a mental game.  I am not  sure thou I have had 1/2 .... Geeze It don't even do anything ya know?? I am soo tring I have came along way.  I have been on the forum since Jan17th and I was on apprrox 4 pills a day.  I have taperd and today is day 6 and I am @1/2..

I want to just quit.. the mornings are hard..

[kyle505]

gg:
I agree with Lulu's earlier post - you need to flush whatever pills you have left. You're only taking 1/2? You must realize that it is now a mental craving more than a physical one. Your head can be hard to deal with during detox. I did as Lulu suggested - the day before I went cold turkey, I took my last pills and then flushed about 45 down the toilet! Then my head jumped in - What had I done??? Was I crazy??? That was over half the script - what a waste of money!!! I even waited to see if any floated back up; I would have taken them in a second. But then, after my head stopped, I found that I was proud of what I'd done - I really wanted off the meds, and had just taken the first step. You've made great strides - whatever you choose to do, just stay on track, keep posing, and you will be successful. Being clean is fantastic.  

[IwillDoThis]

C'mon pillslayer - flush that damn pill -let it symbolize that today is the day - I can't wait to see you start counting the days off.  Know I'm thinking of you and know you can do this!  is that a toilet flushing I hear?  :)  Big hugs to you!

[bama88]

Come know girl...let go...this is just a mental game now..flush those pills and move forwArd. flushing is a huge step.....come on what do you have to loose

[gg636]

Idk it's kinda crazy....., One pill what can that do???

[gg636]

Really.... It's physco or maybe I am! lol ... I guess my brain is so use to poppin that stupid pill in the mornings.  Please lawd help me baby jesus :)

[ricart70]

@ kyle   LOLLOL   that is the funniest thing I have heard today.Waiting for one to float back up...
@gg mornings are hard but they will get easier once yuo are done with the pills

[gg636]

Yeppers!  They sure are... But this to shall pass!  

[IwillDoThis]

How you doing today, Just checking in on you.  :)

[gg636]

Yawn- I just woke up trying to push thru.. Trigger point going to a concert tonight...

[IwillDoThis]

yeah I thought so!   I'll be around until Friday and then I'm gone for two weeks.  I won't really have access to a private computer so I don't expect to be able to post but I'll check in with ya when I get back on the 25th!  Keep taking it day by day and know I'm thinking about you!

[gg636]

Thanks... Have a safe trip I will keep everyone posted...