Cocaine binge.

[manduhg]

Hello, I was recently dumped out of no where by my boyfriend of 3 years. I had previously, about a year into our relationship, started using cocaine more and more often, a forty bag a week, sometimes two. He was all about it at first but then he got tired of it it, and told me to stop or he was gone.

Since then, I have only used it periodically, and sometimes went on an all night binge (1-2). Well, I started at 10 PM last night and it is currently 8 AM. I still have more, I got a lot. I just don't know how to stop. My mind doesn't want to, as you are probably aware. Now that he's not here, I feel like there's nothing holding me back, though if I called him right now I know he'd be pissed off and come over to knock some sense into me (not literally).

I dread the coming down stage so much! Help?

Mandy.

[gizzy32]

Welcome to the forum. By your post it sounds like you don't want to quit and your ready to start using more since you say nothing is holding ya back now. I am an addict and cocaine is my DOC. As you know, once you start blowing lines, we just want more and more and more. I started with that 40 bag too, just a half gram, but soon that half gram was gone in a couple lines and i needed at least a half ball for the day and many times a full 8 ball, tolerence builds and cocaine will kill you.

I hope you come back on and talk to us and think long and hard about what your doing now. I agree coming down from a binge is scary, so lets make this your last time? Cocaine grabbed me so bad, it's not a life and quitting is possible with a few changes and support. The cravings are insane at first, but with some help we can overcome it's grip. Are you willing to make some changes to stop this nasty drug? How much do you have left?

[avisg]

Mandy you are going to have to make a choice either keep going in the direction you are going  which by the way will take u no where good or decided you want your life back getting clean takes one hundred percent commitment ..You can do it its not easy but it is soooo possible if you want it bad enough .I would look into some aa/na meetings because u are going to need support ..We will help you all we can here as well ..Keep your chin up decided what you want to do.