Codeine Addiction

[withdrawal4]

Hi all,

I am 9 days into withdrawal from Codeine Phosphate 30mg x 28 tablets a day!  For the last 3 days I felt amazing, went out shopping and visited friends.  Today though I feel suicidal and depressed!  I don't understand really.  I should because on a logical level I hammered codeine for 12 years.  So if it took 12 years to make this mess it's not going to get fixed overnight.  I just don't like feeling this sad and weepy.  My family has been amazing but I can see that they are struggling watching me suffer.  I feel I need to go off the radar until I can sort my head out.  Did anyone else feel depressed, weepy after 9 days?  The only thing keeping me going is my Son.  But I feel so ashamed and guilty that I let myself get addicted.  He's only 2 so he doesn't know anything.  I managed to come off them entirely when pregnant as I didn't want my baby to be opiate dependant.  I do not crave codeine, I hate it and never want to see it again.  I just feel lost and sad, can't ring my parents because they need a break.  When will the happy old me be back?  If someone knows please tell me, I can't think straight.  Thanks x

[waterLilly7]

Don't worry, it's all normal in the fixing of the brain. You will be fine and happy very soon, just hang in there. The mental stuff is the last to go. Give it another 2 weeks and you will see a huge difference, I promise.
I too take trazadone, but a very slight amount, I take now 25 mg once per day, and plan to cut that out too, but not until another couple of months of my body getting used to being me again.

I am on day 47 now and life is great. I used ot look at posts and think, "how cn people feel so good on day 5 or day 10 or whatever when I am on day 14 and feel like garbage?" But time healed me, even though I was afraid it never would.

Hang in there and you will be living life again very sooon.
hugs,
Lily

[mousey25]

Hi!!! I 2 was addicted to codeine, for a really long time, I quit 323 days ago and I am still clean!! It can be done trust me!!! Are u getting any professional help? Like your doctor or psychiatrist?  They where instrumental in helping get to where I am today. My psych dr diagnosed me with severe depression and anxiety disorder and started me on sertraline 150 mgs, with that and counselling with my addiction nurse, I have managed to realise what my triggers for using where, learn how to control the cravings and function in a normal life without them.

For me the physical wd's where a breeze compared to the mental issues, which is why I strongly recommend some kind of support network like I had.  I also took up volunteering at my local animal shelter to get me out of the house, this really helped to.

If u ever need to talk pm me any time, you can do this!!! Trust me........

Emma xx

[ready4mylifeback]

u WILL get better just keep hanging in there and pushing through... sry u r feeling so depressed it does come w the w d's of these things... i am only on day 5 but i am feeling pretty good today however i was only on them for a couple months (pretty high dose tho and mine were vicodin not codeine) before that i was on about 25-30 a day for 5 yrs and when i quit that time it was BAD...i was clean for over 3 yrs best part of my ife i was so happy but  a few months ago i had some surgical procedures they put me back on it and right away my body got hooked.. i was not about to let it spiral out of control again so i just stopped.. haven't really had a lot of depression.. i pray a lot and rely on God as my main strength and that helps me A LOT.. the trazadone is ok to take but ONLY at night it will really knock u on your butt!! i have it but usually don't take it.. it really knocks me out bad... and i only take a half one.. but it is non addictive i don't think it will hurt u.. but i don't know if it helps for depression my dr gave it to me for sleep not sure what all it is prescribed for.. i will be praying for you i have a 19 mo old and a 6 mo old.. don't beat yourself up even mommy's make mistakes but the important thing is u r getting clean and while he is only 2 so you won't miss his life away!! which is the right thing to do.. u would really be depressed if you kept this addiction going and 10 yrs down the line seen what u missed.. u r doing the right things so just let time take it's coarse you were on them for a long time.. it will take a bit but u will get better everyday put your son in a stroller and go for a walk even if you don't "feel" like it trust me i have been doing it and i only have a 5 days lol i drag myself if i have too:) the exercise is GREAT for your brain it produces those happy endorphans it is the quickest way for you to get back to you!!! keep posting all u need and keep pushing!!!

[withdrawal4]

I just want to die.  14 Days clean!  Feel like death.  I'm trying so hard!  I've got the runs still!!!!  Sweating or too cold.  Angry, weepy, guilty.  They may start me on Trazadone today.  I don't know if I should try this, another pill?  But I feel so depressed!

[solost170]

I wasnt on what you were, I was on hydros and neurotin and firocet and was on them for five years, and I can tell you it was awful you can look at my post and see how it was but I'm on day nineteen and feel so much better everyday one of my withdrawals goes away its slow but it happens before long you will be reaching those milestones everyone talks about on day nine I had a few but wa still sweating no energy legs felt like lead, my skin was still on fire and those dang goosebumps and bathroom issues, honestly it gets sooooo much easier as the days go on couple days ago I lost complete count of my days I was like what day is today it will happen, just gotta ride the storm out get comfy watch tv try and do activities that make you happy, but dont get to discouraged if you cant do the things you want to do, everyone keept telling me be good to yourself you are healing and its true, we have to let our bodies heal from what the stuff did to em. and give our bodies a chance to learn how to be without it. anytime you need someone to talk to about your days and progress I will try and help you through my own exp. just inbox me stay strong it will come.

[withdrawal4]

What day are you on?  How many codeine free days?  It's awful!  

[Tylerdurdenn]

I'm going threw the same thing. :(


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