Coming off of 3 months of morphine 100mgs a day

I am on day 5 cold turkey from 100 mgs morphine a day for 3 months. It was not perscribed to me i just had lots from a friend and went overboard....I am so anxious.....when will I feel normal again.....I can`t stand this!

[tired_of_oxy]

Hey I know how your feeling, I'm also in the midst of detox and feeling awful. Good news for you is you are SO close to turning the corner with this. I'd say another day or two and you'll start noticing some improvement. It will get better day by day but make sure you get into aftercare. NA meetings are what help me and they're free. We cannot do it alone, outside support is needed. This forum is also a great place to come for help. It's very slow today but chances are later on more people with lots of clean time will come on and offer you some advice. All I can say is hang in there. It WILL get better and you NEVER have to go through this again as long as you stay away from pills. They are horrible and luckily you've only been on them a few months so you should bounce back pretty well. I have been on them for two years and have almost lost it all to the pills. Do yourself a favor and get help and never look back at the pills. They are nothing but pain and misery. Hats off to you for 5 days clean. You will start feeling a lot better soon!! Check out the Thomas Recipe for some helpful hints on getting through the rest of your withdrawl (withdrawal). It's posted on the lower right hand side of the forum. Excercise also helps. While using pills your endorphin production ceased and it will take time for your brain to heal. We literally screw up our brains chemistry when we take these pills and getting excercise, eating healthy and taking vitamins helps lots with healing. You might want to pick up a tub of protien shake mix. You can get it from walmart pretty cheap and it is loaded with vitamins, minerals and amino acids which help your brain repair itself. Stay strong and NEVER look back at the pills again. You were smart to stop now. That should translate into a relatively quick recovery time for you.

[Crys833]

Thanks for your post it gives me hope. I can't stop crying, i can't believe i did this to myself....i just want this to end I never want to see morphine again I HATE IT! I've never had an addictive personality before I let myself go with morphine. Good Luck to you too! We can get through it! It ***** soo much but I can't give up the hope that i won't feel like this forever, you won't either. Thankyou, i'll keep posting, it does seem to help me A LOT.

[vantart]

Hang in there. I kept telling myself in the first week "Every minute that passes is one more  minute away from the hell and one minute closer to being well"
I would say it out loud when I was at my worst.You never have to go thru this again, my friend. I know its hard. The days seem like weeks. Your brain right now is screaming out
"where's my stuff". Get some valarian tea and/or kava tea. It calms you some. Try not to focus on how bad you feel. It only makes it worse. try to stay busy doing anything. Don't just lay  in the misery. I had to force myself out of bed. It was hard but after the first step   I was glad I got up. Drink protein shakes all day along with aminos that were mentioned above. Thats good brain building stuff. The drugs destroy nutrients. Got to run. Check in later tonite. Stay the course. I'm praying/pulling for you! Day 27  4 me

[Crys833]

Thankyou! I am feeling better today, day 6 now! I know i've gotta keep going. i think a lot of it too is the fact that I'm layed off of work right now and i don't have that distraction right now. It's snowing and cold -30 celsius in Canada where I am right now, it makes me feel stranded at home with my 3 year old. Staying strong for her helps though too. I always feel soo much better when my husband gets home from work too and exhausted as well from spending  the day in this anxiety. I feel pretty much ok accept for the anxiety. I hope it passes soon. gonna get out with my family this weekend and try and do something.

[Crys833]

Well, i am in day 6 now, and this has been the longest few days of life. i never thought it would be so hard going through withdrawal, but then again I never let myself go this far before either. I regret it now and I hope the regret stays with me forever so i never think about pills again. I'm not as anxious today and I'm not craving morphine much either. The morning seems to be the hardest but today seems to be going by much faster than the last 3 days have, so that's something! I'm not going minute by minute anymore i seem to be going hour by hour now. Soon I hope i can just go day by day and when that happens i know i will almost be in the clear of this fog I have been in for the past 3 months. I was really fighting with myself inside my head the past few days, only remembring the good things about morphine the energy the feeling good, but today i'm starting to remeber the bad things. Wanting to sleep all the time, scheduling everything around my next fix, my temper....I don't want to go back to any of that . This day is going to be okay for me today.

[Crys833]

I'm even eating today, my appetite is coming back!

[vantart]

It's called euphoric recall, remembering the pleasure and shutting out the pain and suffering. It's a post acute withdrawal symptom (PAWS). Don't buy into it. I've done that for you, several times. Now that I know about PAWS I understand what was going on with me. My "addict voice" is always promoting using as a solution. Just yell out "that's ********" if you need to when an idea comes up like that. cuz it is. You're doing good. You're 6 days away from the hell and 6 days closer to being well. You never have to go thru this crap again. Also, keep checking out some of the new post by people who are just starting to withdraw as a reminder of what you've been thru with the drugs.
It keeps it "in your face" so to speak. helps me remember for sure.  Day 28- 4 me

[Crys833]

Congrats on 28 days! I can't wait to be there too :) Thanks for the info about PAWS. I never thought of that. i've always been pretty strong minded, but then again that's how i let myself go so far with morphine, telling myself I can always quit because i'm not the "dependant type". What a bunch of BS denial! I've come to realize it doesn't matter how strong your mind control is, that goes out the window when your body becomes dependant on drugs which in turn messes with your mind. Best wishes to you and thanks! :)