Crazy for info.

[hungouttodry]

56 y/o male, hep C, recently addicted to vicodin within the last couple of months after surgery in April.  Going through withdrawls day 12.  I am exeriencing the crazy legs things again.  Is that normal?  Feeling unusual in my stomach and back. Every, Very, Very emotional.  Not sure what is normal.  Can someone please reply?

[hungouttodry]

DAY 50 NOT VERY NICE TO ME DEPRESSION AND ANXIETIES

[hungouttodry]

OK I started a new thread called day 49 with the old me.

[donewitis]

You just start a new post...at the top "post Question" click on that. Sorry to hear about bad night..it's gotta get better, right? Do you know how to send a private message? You point on the persons name and then a box pops up and Send message is in corner..and click that

[hungouttodry]

It  was suggested I start a new thread, how do I go about that?

[hungouttodry]

day 49, experienced lots of leg and feet cramps last nite never happened like that before taking it as a sign of healing ha ha. Slept pretty well lastnite. My constipation is still there took Dulcolax lastnite didnt really want to but I did cuz I was having bad stomach cramps. It seems to have worked alright cuz I had a good b/m this morning. Really wish it would get right cuz it sort of drives me nutty not being abel to have b/m without taking something. Probablly going to tell me go see Dr, cant till Oct since I have no insurance Im at the mercy of the county hospital.Paying so much for that so am looking into real insurance problem is I have preexisting condition, hard to find anyone to accept me. Still looking and hopeing.I have faith God will lead me in right direction.

[donewitis]

Thanks.

I almost didnt see this, because this thread has gotten so long. Regarding your question to Gnarly...maybe you should start a new one. Just a thought :)

[hungouttodry]

I have confidence u can do this as I said I didnt think it was possible for me. TRied once the week before I actually did go c/t.I MADE 3 DAYS ON THE MORNING OF THE 4 DAY ITOOK 1/8 of a methadon pill u see I thought I was smart enough to detox that way guess what I wasnt. Finally made up my mind I was going to do this and did. You can do it to.Just keep god in your corner he will not desert u. Just follow what Gnarly says cuz if u ask me he knows what he is talking about.You know the hot baths, the sleep aids all that stuff works. So with that and God u will come through just fine. Keep posting and stay strong remember u are the Capt of your own ship what u say goes, and I think u say go away and dont come back ur not welcome.If that makes any sence but u know what I mean. Remember God is in your corner and god Bless

[donewitis]

I am hopeful but still uncertain how I am going to go about this. I really was clueless about what these prescription drugs do to one's mind. So, I have started the taper yesterday, didnt leave the apt. all day and I think it was a beautiful one. Will call Dr, in the am..and tell her that I need to get off these things. I have said so in the past..but she says, "Don't worry, you're in pain, you are not on a high dose..you are maintaining..blah blah blah." ..and in the past that has eased my mind. Not any longer. I cannot let myself be shackled to these awful drugs. I may have to find an addiction specialist..or rehab..or hospital. Or just get all the supplements suggested and pray I am able to stay strong and continue the taper...and pray that that helps. Talk about confusing....oy.

[hungouttodry]

thanks for your concern and prayers that really helps alot.Guess Ill wait for our friend Gnarly he probably knows. In the meentime Im going to take 2/2oomgs ibuprophen. How are u getting along?Sincerley hope u r hanging in there cuz there are better days ahead for u. On my good days I feel like brand new money, wish that was every day. My bad days are getting less just dont know what went wrong, It was told to me by a advice nurse that this is a 6 to 8 week deal before I feel tatally well I guess she was right Im at 6weeks now hope the next 2 go by fast. things are going by pretty fas tnow especially after the first 5 days they went fast now that I stop and think about it. Enough of mt rambling on God bless and keep up the good fight

[donewitis]

I don't have the answer for you but I am saying a prayer. It's hard to believe that there are so many variables regarding withdrawal. I just hope that you are coming to the end and win this battle, for it is surely is a battle.

[hungouttodry]

you seem to be better educated then I am about stuff like this, How many Ibuprophen at 200mgs can I take without going over the 400 whatever grains I think,that my liver can process in 1 day. Sore again and think I could use more than 200 mgs this time, really hurts. Thinking of going t ER. Thanks and God Bless

[gnarly_1]

HEY DUDE been folling your posts I read a lot more then I post im a slow typer good to see your at least feeling a little better it takes time it took me 90 days just to start to feel better methadone is a monster to kbick but any of this stuff is ruff on you age has a lot to do with it people will argue this with me but im obsevent and notice a direct correlation with getting well and your age its not like you wont get well it just takes longer I detoxed at 47 and thought it was going to kill me time and God heals just hang in there your doing great you will get threw this.....Gnarly

[donewitis]

Congratulations!

[hungouttodry]

48 days clean, wow what a wonder epsom salts is they work great I ready to go all my little bothersome aches are gone for awhile a  tleast. Feels good. Not thinking about drugs or craving them. Never did I guess cuz pills are not my DOC, glad for that cuz u never know I might just be back on them. Thank god for that.My DOC was pot, left over from my hippie days. Now if I stop smoking cigaretts Ill be all good, well that is another issue to be dealt with later So God Bless all and good luck

[donewitis]

Wow..just read the entire thread, your journey. Though it scares me, I have to do the same and at 48yo, as Gnarly said, it's more difficult on the body. Thank you for journaling and sharing your pain. I too have (diagnosed in '93) Hep C and just from that alone..aches and pains can be the norm. But I want to once again lead a clean and sober life. I love what I just said. I want to lead... For too long, I have allowed myself to be lead (or is it led? nah) by pills...

[atthebeach]

great job on the 47 days clean you are doing it day by day. proud of you as you should be of yourself. keep the faith, GOD is faithful. HE is healing you more each and every day.
believe,hope,trust,
may the LORD bless you
debbie

[hungouttodry]

day 47 not a good day all my aches and pains decided to come ouy and play today. Think I may cut back on exercise cuz it hurts alot, been soaking in epsom saLTS THAT ONLY WORKS FOR AWHILE DONT GET ME WRONG IT WORKS REAL GOOD FOR ACHES AND PAINS but my pains are stubborn they keep coming back. G od Bless to all

[hungouttodry]

46 days and most of my aches and pains are gone for now atleast.Been eating high fiber diet and activia yogurt.Checked the net yesterday for how much to eat andI discovered they had a lawsuit against them cuz they were not truthful about it reliveing constipation.Im still using the yogurt cuz it seems to work for me. Has anybody had any experience with the stuff?Like to hear back see what people here think about it,I think Ill probably keep on eating it for the 2 week challenge.

[hungouttodry]

45 days good for me

[hungouttodry]

44 good clean days clean Thank God

[hungouttodry]

43 days clean

[atthebeach]

your sobriety is important. 33 years of marriage is a long time. have you tried marriage counseling? i want you to know that you are never alone. GOD is with you. pray and ask HIM to comfort you and to help you. do you attend church? you can find love and support there. that is great that you have aftercare in place that is very important.
a doctors visit will help answer many of your questions and concerns. you have legit pain, you took the pills and got addicted. that happens many times, so now you are on the road to recovery. keep fighting the good fight. keep pressin on. have you tried to attend any support groups,aa/na, church based groups, salvation army, celebrate recovery,overcomers.
hope and pray you feel better
debbie

[hungouttodry]

NO COMPASSION IN THIS WORLD

[hungouttodry]

Ive always isolated myselfits my way of not letting people hurt me i guess. I had came out 0f isolation when this happened to me started talking to my so called sisters.Getting ready to lose my wife now 33 yrs down the drain. Some how she wants to fix me but she cant she gets tired of me always crying i guess. I know she cant fix everything not asking her to.I dont mean to sound ungrateful but right now I have to protect my sobriety. I also have Hep C, HAVING ALOT OF PAIN IN LIVER AREA THAT REALLY HAS ME IN FEAR FOR MY LIFE.Going to DR TOMORROW HAVE HER CHECK ME OUT SOM i KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON INSIDE ME. NOW WITH MY WIFE ABANDONED ME AS FAR AS SUPPORT GOES I HAVE NOBODY THAT GIVES A CRAP ABOUT ME SO i GUESS I have to take care of myself just dont feel i can make it by myself. I have a aftercare program in place so that is good I did not become addicted to vicodin cuz I wanted to just happened after I told Dr 3 times I felt I was getting dependant on the pills she just sent me home and told me to rest a few dats thats what is bothering me.