Damage of a two-week cocaine binge

[Robert2667]

    Ok now I am sure that this post will get a lot of responses simply stating how stupid I am but I need some information.

    I am 18 and I have no clue how but about three weeks ago I got the opportunity to snort cocaine.  I did so and was introduced to the dealer.  Over the past three weeks I befriended this kid and I have probably spent over $450 dollars on cocaine since.  My consumption rate was/is about a gram a day or a little more.

    For the first four days I had no problems and felt great. After that when I would use, the high was very short-lived and lasted around 10 minutes followed by an intense craving for more of the drug.  

    It was nearing the end of week 1 on Saturday night where I was continuing to use cocaine.  I keep snorting more through the entire night to keep my high going and to avoid the horrible comedown. I took my last line around 6 A.M.  About and hour or two later my heart began to beat hard and I felt a small pain/pressure in the heart area.  This was followed by a pain in my left arm which soon began to feel numb. The back of my neck, my toes, and my right calf muscle also became numb.  I knew there were heart attack risks and I became very frightened and had my cell phone clutched in my hand in case I had to dial 911.  Well fortuneatley my heartbeat returned to normal in about two and a half hours and the other strange symptoms left.  I honestly think I was close to a heart attack/cardiac arrest.  Opinions??  Through that whole night I probably snorted between 1 and 2 grams of cocaine.

Nevertheless I used cocaine later that day!  I continued this daily use for another week.

Let me assert really quick that no one that knows be would ever suspect me of drug use.  I am an honor roll student and a pleasure to be around in general.  I am about six feet tall and underweight weighing about 145 lbs.  I took my shirt off the other day and looked at myself in the mirror and almost threw up.  Since beginning to use cocaine, y ribs and exposed(more than they were before) along with the bony area between my pecks.  Also I have been blowing blood every time I blow my nose.

Through this ordeal I have continued to tell myself: "I'll quit" or "Just one more day" etc....

People at my work have become suspicious.  I have had very little sleep over the past couple weeks and I look very terrible.  I normally have a fairly good complexion but through last night (my last night of using cocaine) I broke out with red zits all over my face.  I have lost my sense of smell and can only smell something if I stick my nose in it.

Ok, first of all thank you to anyone who has taken the time to read this far as I have no one else to go to for medical advice.

To wrap it up: last night I purchased another gram of cocaine.  I snorted about 7/8 of the bag between 7pm and 2:30 am.  It was at that time that my heart began to race to a point where I was uncomfortabel with so I cut myself off for the rest of the night.  I have been awake since.  Around five a.m. this morning I got of the couch downstairs to go lay in my bed upstairs. As soon as I got off the couch I got chills over my entire body.  I was freezing cold. I walked up to my room and put long pants and a hooded sweatshirt on.  I then went in my bathroom and began checking my nose (which had been runny all night).  It was then that I discovered a small slit in the skin on the side of the septum in my right nostril. To be quite honest I about **** my pants. I had about 1/8 gram of cocaine left under my bed and upon discovering this slit in my nose I grabbed the cd case with the cocaine and dumped it straight in the toilet.  there was still a considerable amount left mind you, but discoving a slit in my nose was just a little too much.  Will this slit heal?

This has been a horrible ordeal for me bouncing between happiness and depression  for the past two weeks.  Right now I feel pretty shitty. I will probably lay down to sleep in the next hour or so and I will sleep until around 3pm or so.  My body is exhausted and I look horrible.  My face is covered in red acne that was not there yesterday and I have dark bags unber my eyes.  I just look horrible.  I mean it when I say I am done with cocaine it is such a horrible drug and through this experience I can see how so many people lose there lives (figuratively and literally) over this drug.  I never saw myself speing five hunred dollars on something so pointless.  I basically bought the damage I have to done to my body.

AFter reading this story I have a few questions. Thank you so much to anyone who is reading this.

1. What should I do in the next few weeks to recover my health?  Or will it just come back to me over time?

2. Will I get my sense of smell back?; Will the slit in my nose heal? It is not a complete hole and the cartilidge is not exposed. This is in my right nostril.

3. Have I permanently damaged my heart? Anything else?

4. My teeth also hurt badly. My gums are red.  Why is this?

5. When I pull my bottom eyelid down (like a doctor would) the inside of my eyelid instead of being red, is white! Why is this and what does it mean?

Thank you so much for your help.  Please post any other advice you may have for me.  

Please spare me the comments saying how stupid I am because I am a smart person I and I know what I have done is anything but smart.

[liscamdave]

Did it take you two weeks to type this...lol..

Just kidding...That was a long one...

I can honestly say that I don't really know to much myself about cocaine...We all have our drug of choice. My expertise is in Oxy's...However, there will be many people that will reply to your post. Make sure you continue to check it. There aren't that many people on-line right now, but the ones that are will certainly help you. I wish I could be of more assistance. I do know that if you discontinue your usage you everything that has changed will restore itself. That goes without saying...But I am, again, not the person to answer your questions..Keep loggin on and keep posting anything you want to know. Someone on here will answer you and help you. Good luck and dont keep beating yourself up. We all make mistakes...its the courage to fix those mistakes that matter...

Lisa

[tnbrowneyes]

Ok i have seen this many times. i myself have never speed, cocaine or anything like it because it was my thing. im going to tell you something what i have seen(never done this i can only 3rd person ok)
you are at the quitting point..thats awesome. you see what it has done to you and dont like it. if you kept or keep doing it you very well could suffer severe problems. im pulling for you here..ok so never feel like your alone.
when i was 19 i dated a guy, he was on cocaine and i never realized it..i just thought he was fun and had alot of energy until his moods became violent and he became paranoid. i then found out what the problem was..that drug was not doing enough( like you he always needed more and yes blew a hole in his nose) so then he began to use herion. that was it for me i was done..back then i was just a socail drinker and never did drugs. im 31 now.
the day after i broke up with him he binged on some cocaine. he cussed me all day and even tried to hit me with a stool. later that night a friend had a party and i went , i had drink so much i didnt want to drive so i stayed there...this was also his best freind..he drove by saw my car and got mad. so the next morning he got high..herion and done that all day. he was only 19 years old and on a rage was driving to do whatever cuss me or something and wrecked 3 houses down. he died. at 19 yrs old. point being..your body is messed up now but can heal..your face is messed up but will heal. your nose has a hole but it will heal..if you dont stop ..you will eventually die ..in some way or another. i never talk about this guy..but for you..i thought a reality jolt may help you have the will power to totally stop using. not trying to scare you ..but show you..there is no happiness at the end of an 8 ball only more problems.
please..post here..ask for help..take the advice each person will give you and
you will kick this and be back to the person you were before. if not a better perosn..nothing comes from a drug habit..but everything comes from being clean. i hope this inspires you and lets you know..your not alone and ppl do care.

[OpiateAddict]

i have done cocaine once but thankfully hadnt had my own personal stash to the point where i would do it as much as i wanted to.. thank god.. but i would have.. but from my experience, the slit in your nose will heal yes.. the mucus membrane was burnt out from snorting all the cocaine.. the thing is, you never know how pure the cocaine is.. if you did get another bag , say from another dealer or even the same dealer, you dont even know if it will have the same ingredients.. so its russian roulette every time you snort some.. i imagine that your gums are all red from the irritation of the cocaine.. did you do the "numbies" by rubbing the coke on your gums? that will irriate them quit easily.. the thing is, your body WILL return to normal.. you put it in a sort of panic mode, or even gave a shock to it if you will.. you will be surprised what our bodies can put up with.. but remember that cocaine is one of the most dangerous drugs out there becuase you dont know what it's cut with..   how are you feeling today?? please check back in and give an update on how you feel!

[htp115]

from the sound of your post, you do plan on NOT doing anymore, correct???

one of the first things you should do is irrigate your sinus. take warm water in your hands and suck it up your nostrils. this will rinse out any remaining coke you have stuck up there. it may make you a little sick, but its not good to leave any residue up there.

as far as your heart goes, if it gets worse, you should see a doctor. you may find that once you stop your heart rate will return back to normal.  and you should start gaining the weight you lost once you stop using.

hope this helps.

[Robert2667]

Wow thanks for the fast responses.  I appreciate the emotional support but I only really experience depression when I am coming off the the drug. Right now I am very sleep deprived but I feel a hundred times better than I did a few hours ago.  This is the point of the cycle where I would pass out, wake up and feel great.  I'd say to myself "I feel good now no cocaine"  But then, I would end up with my dealer friend and would say "**** it" and the night would be fun and awesome.  it is when I finally come home and have to stop myself when I start to feel bad.  In all the times I have been----OMG THIS IS SO WEIRD MY ******* DEALER FREIND JUST CALLED ME AND WAS LIKE "hey is it cool if me and racheal (his gf) come over and I couldnt say no but I know he will bring coke with him. He asked me if I had any left and I remembered dumping the stuff in the toilet. omg i dont know what to do the cycle is going to repeat itself already AS i am typing this.  this is so weird

[L's R Misery]

DO NOT DO COCAINE!......i remember once i did a whole 8 ball with a buddy in one night and had to go to the hospital that's the only thing it ever did for me was make me go to the freakin hospital. Now why do a drug that makes you wonder if you need to go to the hospital everytime you do it right? lol jeez man the coc is a very pleasurable drug for 15 minutes but after that your wondering "should i go to the hospital"? for the rest of the night so my suggestion to you would be to leave it alone . I may be addicted to pain meds and have a hard time quitting them but even when i'm detoxing off them i don't think i need to go to the hospital.....lol......take care man and don't do cocaine.

[Robert2667]

your comment couldnt have been more correct.

[liscamdave]

Wow, what a story...as well as a life changing experience....

We all have some story...

xo, Lisa

[fishmeal]

Classic instant cocaine addiction.  It's a bad monkey and will get worse if you continue... course you've already seen that.  Your body will be fine.  If you end up doing it again, you are going to have to get into a program to save you life.  The definition of insanity, (12 Step program's), is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results.  Go with the conclusions of your recent research, (the stupid part) and stay far away from that dealer and any "friends" that are into that... there are plenty of people that will have you as a pleasure to be around that don't destroy their lives with drugs.  You were definitely on a quick collision with death in a fast way if not a slow destruction of a normal life.  Maybe go to a cocaine anonymous meeting and ask them if you should continue the research?  They have done it, and have hard impiracle data on why you should run from it like your life depends on it.... BECAUSE IT DOES.

[Dave W.]

Hang in there Robert. I will have to tell you to stop that **** as soon as possible. I know first hand the devastating physical and mental damage that
drug can do to one's life. Coke and Alcohol has destroyed my future. I went to
rehab,forced from my employer about 5 years ago. I got clean,but after only 2
months off the drugs,I was diagnosed with Avascular Necrosis. It destroyed
my both hips.At only 30 years of age at that time,being in excellent physical
shape and having a well paying mechanic job,it all went down the gutter.I had to have 2 total hip replacements and well now am dealing with yet another
opiate addiction from the pains of the replacements,Methadone and Oxy.Let
me tell you that the 10 year Coke habit cost me much more than a few hundred thousand dollars,it cost me my health,self asteme,and worst of all
my future, a mechanic.I have sinus and nose issues for life also.I did coke and
drank alcohol almost every night for ten years straight.I still kept a well paying
job though,but after calling in sick from being strung out and or hung over so
many times,my boss knew something was going on and well,if he didn't force
me to go to rehab or I'd lose my job,I'd have to say that I probably would not be
here today,trying to help people like yourself.I was unable to kick the Coke habit alone,I was far too gone,so please get professional help ASAP. The longer one is in denial and continues to use,the worse it gets.Never be ashamed to ask for help.By the way Robert,your nose will heal,so long as it
doesn't come in contact with any more nose candy. Don't get me wrong,I'm not
trying to scare you or anyone else for that matter,but I wish someone scared
me straight before the drug took me under.Just trying to help.

[tinytina67]

My husband is addicted to CRACK cocaine...I am an exaddict (19yrs.) I've been there for my husband however lately I've been wondering what if he is a binge addict... he has the symtoms of one....for sure.... well that is my problem and I will deal with it.... for you take it one day at a time.... seriously.... I dont/didnt do AA or NA to kick the habit... just know that some of the stuff that they believe in is the real deal !! take care of yourself and you will be around to take care of your loved ones !!!

wife of addicr

[monijack]

i was watching t.v. when i heard this term binge addict, my ex husband whom i still love very much i think a binge addict. i brought him down here to the south from the city to try and help him. now i watched him when he got here.he went almost a year do nothing because he did not know anyone but when he started meeting people he went off and he was like a wild man so it is not like he has to have it everyday just like i read when something sets him off he is gone i just need more information on how to undrstand and deal with this because i am truly niave when it comes to these matters. sincerly moni

[Rebecca_]

When I was your age cocaine was my drug of choice, in fact it was my favorite.  I often went on binges such as yours.  The only thing I can say is that your body will heal if you stop NOW.  You are young and your body will surely recover if you choose to stop damaging it.  Please also consider the mental repurcussions of your actions. I now have Adult ADD amongst a slew of other conditions all likely caused by my heavy cocaine and ecstacy use as a growing young adult.  Later on I became addicted to vicodins which of course hasn't helped but I am trying hard.  

I stopped by cutting contact with the dealer and people I used with.  You can't be around it or the substance, you have to be strong and not give in.  Once the initial period passes you will find it easier to get over but you must also seek counseling or you'll find yourself replacing the coke with something else as I did.  You can do anything you put your mind to and it's obvious you know this needs to change - you're an intelligent person with an entire future ahead of you, do what your mind tells you to and quit the drug.

[voxxx]

Ive done plenty of cocaine in my day. In my personal opinion you will be fine. The heart/getting numb thing was probably a product of the paranoia caused by cocaine, I doubt youve done much if any damage. The slit in your nose will heal in a few days, it could be a result of the coke itself or from you picking at your nose after it gets all boogered up from doing coke. Seeing blood in your snot is not uncommon with coke use, and the more your product is 'cut' the more common this (along with most of the other bad effects) is. Your teeth hurting is most likely the result of excessive, prolonged clenching of your jaw/teeth from the stimulant effects of the cocaine (especially when doing it in binges like you have been). Not sure about your eyes, but I dont think its anything to worry about.

Although I will point out, deciding to binge for 2 weeks on a NEW drug after initial use does indicate there could be a future addiction with said drug. But coke is not physically addicting so much like opiates are, so you wont really have much if any withdrawals upon stopping. If your already on this site after 2 weeks of drug use then you probably shouldnt be using recreational drugs at all.

Just my personal opinion after a few years of doing coke and a few months of doing crack.

[Cassie415]

I did cocaine for about a year, maybe a little more,  and there were countless nights that I would force myself to try and fall asleep around 5 or 6am, clutching my heart and lying in bed completely depressed and coming off the cocaine. God, looking back on that year still gives me horrible anxious and depressed feelings. It just gets worse and worse and the high gets shorter and shorter. It wasn't until this year, my first year in college, that I actually had to go to the hospital for it. I had the same experience as you. My heart beat was racing, entire body numb including my whole head, tingly arms and legs, and my legs and arms wouldn't stop twitching. I couldn't really stand or speak, but from the outside I almost looked normal (at least that is what my friends said.) ANyways, this went on for about 5 hrs, and I swore I would never do coke again.Two weekends later I did it again and my heart hurt so bad. For the next few weeks my heart would randomly start hurting, like sharp pains, or pressures. I even had a panic attack a few months back. After a couple weeks without using it, the heart pain went away, thank god because I thought it was terrifying. Point is, you may feel a little pain and you'll probably be sick a lot. But like others said it is not physically addicting, and i'd urge you to get out before you get in too deep. Sry I couldn't really answer most of your questions, but I can relate on that scary almost heart attack type feeling. Definitly scared the **** out of me.

[ginoboli20]

whats up buddy?  i know you're going through hell right now... but its going to be okay.  Try to eat nutritious foods, exercise, and keep yourself moving and away from people and situations that may cause you to relapse.  Its important that you keep a positive atitude about the entire situation because your emotions are going to play a major role in how you deal with the hell your body is going to put you through.  You may feel like you have a drip going or your face goes numb or your heart races and suddenly flashbacks of a cocaine night will be conjered up even against your will... but its just your body craving the drug.  Cocaine is poison to your system and only ***** you up.  Your smart... so look up the biochemistry of cocaine and what it does to your brain and CNS (central nervous system).  You need dopamine for your brain to function properly.  Your tank is on low so you need to give your body a break here.  You don't want to end up on the streets because you couldn't say no to something that people everyday have to say no to.  It's all literally in your head.  If you can think, MIND over MATTER... you'll be fine.  

Oh by the way... something that really helped me was doing a sauna treatment where i ran on a treadmill for 15 minutes and then sat in a sauna everyday for 2 weeks to sweat it all out.  i sat in there for 40 minutes and worked myself up to 3 hours a day.  It helps with the recovery... big time.  You'll go back to how you felt like before you ever used.... but its going to be tough.  

As far as your body recovering..... that all depends.  Go see a doctor and have them check you out.  Too many variables in this equation to be considered for there to be an easy answer to your questions.  One thing is certain though..... your body regenerates for the most part and returns to a healthy state if you DISCONTINUE use.  Good luck buddy... and hope you get through this.  See it as an opportunity to face your demons and see what you're really made of.  Who's going to win this one?  You..... or a white powder poison synthesized in the jungles of Bolivia/Colombia where they mix GASOLINE and SALT and COCA LEAFS and then is later cut up with rat poison and whatever they can get their hands on to cut it up with.  The point is.... are you going to be the bigger man.... or is it going to get the best of you?  Time to man up bro.... take it like a man... and move on.  

[lilolme29]

I will tell you this.

your dealer 'friend' is not your friend at all- you are his paycheck and he got you hooked fast and wants to keep you going.... and as long as he can call you to chat then he will.  him and his gf will stop by do a line and then you will HAVE to buy more, its only right since he just hooked you up, can't leave him hanging....

well you know its not a smart idea to go back into the cycle, and in the long run it could kill you.  

get a new phone number don't give it to the dealer or any friends of the dealer and move forward. go to your doctor if you can't do wds Im sure there is something they can give you to help, but you have to want to be done, you have to need it.

and from what a very close friend of mine said (since I did pain pills its not the same drug..) but she told me that you always chace that first high thats why you spend more and more on it and get all strung out. you have bad low low highs, but maybe just maybe you will get high like the first time.... you don't and you never will.  to the drug dealer you are his paycheck, remember that, he is not your friend.

[SophieShine]

this post is from June....