Damn, am I the only one awake right now lol

[lil_rab2005]

I'm bored and can't sleep lol.  Anyone awake right now? Lil. :)

[grievingwidow]

hey, i just posted to ladysundown the other night owls below how i have not slept at night in four years, now mostly a day sleeper never getting more than 4 hours at the most.  so, what are you doing up?

[lil_rab2005]

Damn, that sucks.  I've had a nite time job for 4 years so I'm used to being up all nite... now that I quit my job 2 weeks ago, I'm lookin for a day time job now that my littlest one is in Kindergarten now though, so I really do need to get used to sleeping at nite again lol.  I'm so sorry about your hubby.  I've been with my hubby for 14 years and I've known him since I was 12.  I went out with his brother when we were all in school lol.  I can't imagine when he dies before me.  I don't know what I would do.  My condolences to you sweetie :(  luvs, Lil.

[grievingwidow]

Yes, it is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through, losing Billy.  I was 15 when we got married and I can hardly remember a time when he was not in my life.  It is also making it harder for me to kick this addiction, not having him here for support and just to hold my hand while I am suffering withdrawal.  I guess I will have to tell myself his spirit is in the room.  I do think he touched my hand one night a couple of months after he died.  It was so real, I thought one of my kids was up out of bed bothering me and I looked up starting to ask them what they were doing out of bed, and noticed there was no one there.  Anyway, I like thinking that it was him.

I hope you accomplish getting your sleeping patterns changed, I don't know if I ever will, for one thing, I like the peacefulness of  night and enjoy watching all my TiVo things then.

Well, try to get to sleep.  I am going to watch "The Office" and then try to sleep myself.

Love, Cindy

[lil_rab2005]

Thank you so much.  I believe in that.  It prolly was him.  Maybe saying "you can do it honey"  You got me cryin now lol... I hope it doesn't upset you too much.  And I hope you have a very restful sleep tonite.  I'm going to go to bed now but try and have a good nite.  Thinkin' of you, luvs Lil.  Cya tomorrow.

[addictedtoloratab]

I am a nite owl too.  I also had night jobs for most of my life and its hard for me to get to sleep early.  I am not working right now and I am in no hurry to get a job, but when I do it will be a day job as well.  My son is in kindergarten too and he gets up at the crack of dawn, then I have two little ones that he wakes up so mornings are tough.  I wish I could just sleep, I have had insomnia for so long I am sick of it, lol... How is your recovery going???? The forum was a complete mess today, huh??  Geez, just when we think its safe to come out of the water, it starts all over again... Well I am glad that you stuck around, I like your post too... I live on the west coast so I am up around this time.  When I took sleep meds I went to bed like a old lady, now I cant sleep so any time you want to chat I am usually on late.. Huggs, Georgia

[lil_rab2005]

Thank you so much.  That is such a coincidence.  You have a kindergartener also? lol  That's kewl.  I hope you have a better day today, hopefully the forum will start off fresh and new this morning.  I love this forum, wouldn't have gotten this far without it.  I totally screwed up 2 days ago but I'm back on track.  Hubby is doling out a pill in the morning and when he gets home from working giving me another one... for a couple of days then he's gonna give me just one a day, then after a week or so go down to 1/2 then in a week or so hopefully i can quit for good.  I did it for 13 days, I can do it for at least that or longer next time.  I know I can.  Thinking of you, luvs, Lil.