Day # 8 off norco

[Frickazee]

My mouth's shooting blanks. Situation's unbearable, I've gotten vulnerable. Now anyone is free to waltz right in. My temple's been invaded and there's nobody guarding it. All over this lonely life, but what's so wrong with being all alone? Alone's the only way I've ever known. Not doing so well. Anger, guilt, anxiety depression.

[Frickazee]

Your poem really means a lot to me. It sums it all up. Thank you soo much!

[Bubulous]

In treatment they told me not to be isolating but I still did it.  It helped with the addiction, it helped with the codependency, and many other things but at the same time it meant I was escaping from all those things too.

I started writing poems in treatment...here is one, doesn't relate but I think you'll like it:

They tell me stop working, live for the day
They make it sound easy , here's what they say
They say I'm an addicted for coping with pills
They say I'm escaping the way that I feel
They say I'm messed up cause my parents were mean
They I'm broken from the trauma I've seen
They say I'm an artist for the poms I write
They say I'm gifted, perhaps they are right
They say I'm spiritual, the people I've touched
They say I am complicated, the women I've loved
They say I'm challenging, the doctors I see
They say I'm like jello being nailed to a tree
They say I'm bipolar with a complex brain
They say I'm codependent, I'm going insane
So try on my shoes, let's see how you cope
If you don't go crazy, then perhaps there is hope

If nothing else, I hope this cheers you up a little.  This is my creative outlet for my pain and a necessary part of my recovery.  I will write until my fingers fall off, lol

Cheer up

[YesLife4Me]

Hi Frick....Day 8 is hard mentally.   I had a tough time mentally that day too.  I just kept telling myself that this too shall pass.   It's all part of the process and  our minds are feeling empty right now.   It takes effort, but once I accomplish something and realize a few hours have gone by, it lifts my spirits to know I made it without giving in.   What helps me is to focus on all the reasons NOT to use.  Have your written yours down yet?   When I look at what I have been through and the insanity it will start up again, I get a knot in my stomach.  I absolutely never ever want to feel like this again!    You have to really want it and I know you do.  Your mind and body just aren't cooperating fully.   Yesterday I had a super busy day at work and I thought I was going to die just thinking about all I had to do.  Once I just dived in, the time passed quickly since I wasn't thinking about how I felt.   I told you I wasn't going to let go...so hang on with me.   I'm telling you each day IS better than the day before.   Day 10...still some annoying wd symptoms, mental hurdles, etc.  I expect it.   I welcome it (even thought I don't like it) as I cross the bridge to a new life without being a slave mentally and physically to those evil white things!    

Another question... can you talk to your Dr about this?   My Dr upped my anti-depressants just before I started this process and it has helped me cope tremendously.    

[jenjen1966]

Wow! Day 8 is so good. I'm just a little ahead of you. Day 15 for me. Hang in there. It gets so much better from here. I got up this morning and felt "normal"! The best yet! I got discouraged about day 8 too. Had to get a pep talk from these amazing people here. Stay as busy as you can. Even if its just losing yourself in a movie or a book. Walk if you can, and don't forget the vitamins! Keep up the good work! You are thru the worst!

[Norco1947]

Hi Frickazee ,  8 days is fighting hard , You are near the end of the worst part . Now your mind & body feel the missing pills and will need a few more days to adjust. If you are alone and need support post post post . Many here have been where your at and know it gets better , Just keep going hour by hour and you will beat this addiction .
Your young and strong , Keep fighting stay positive in a day or so you will start to feel a bit better , by Christmas you will be a new happy guy . Ron

[kellkell2184]

I am 75 days free trust me the first three weeks the devil plays hop scotch on your brain and it rains pills in your head. TRUST ME laugh and then spit in the devils face and get some warm relaxing tea or coffee if your like me and love JAVA!!! Meditate, distract yourself if you can force yourself to take a hot hot bath trust me anything to keep your mind distracted it can and will get better your already on day 8 I think day 4 and 5 were the hardest for me when I was getting clean off very high doses of tramadol, percecets, loritab and oxycodone. But hot showers and baths were a life savor for my body when I went cold turkey the 2nd to last time I detoxed. Hang in there and high five for 8 days YOU CAN DO THIS! :D

[Frickazee]

Cravings are making my day impossible.

[evolv]

It's just the drugs messing with you - this is the most important week of your life - don't give up now. Read all the other people's experiences - it seems horrible, but just keep telling yourself - "It's the drugs. They're doing this to me. They want to keep their hold on me." You are stronger, you have to be. It will be hard for a while, but have hope and hold on.this is your choice - you have to hold on.

[toothfairie]

hey...just hang in there!!  it DOES get better!!  the first week was the hardest for me too....just stay in touch on here....we can get you thru it!  anxiety, depression, guilt...it's all part of the WDs....the mind and body is craving that "good feeling" from the pills....don't give in now....you have come too far!!  you will have good days and bad....sorry this is a bad one for you....but tmrw you will feel better!  stay close to this site...it literally has saved me....we are here for you....

[Frickazee]

Ehhh

[Crystvu31]

Hey Hun are u ok.... Keep ur head up everything will get better