Day 1 - Here we go

I guess technically I have .5 days down.  I am sitting here bawling my eyes out for an apparent reason.  I have taken my vitamins and amino acids.  I don't ever want to go back, so I guess I just have to keep looking forward, just have to get over this withdrawal hump and onward with my life.  Nothing in life that is good is ever easy.  I want my emotions back!  This process won't kill me but if I keep taking the meds it might.  I keep reminding myself that time will pass and each minute is closer to feeling better.  Can someone tell me what RLS feels like?  Thank you all for letting me read your stories and knowing that I am not alone and that I will get past this.

[perchance23]

My whole body hurts.  I am so anxious and I can't stop crying and I am only on day one.  How am I going to make it through to the other side.  

[Innerstrength67]

One minute at a time. Drink lots of gatorade and visualize the toxins being flushed out of your system. I know the minutes seem like hours. Hang in there!!!!!!

[perchance23]

thank you.  i just wander around the house like i am lost...

[perchance23]

can anyone tell me when the HOT/Cold phase ends??  I am so anxious.  I am just taking it minute by minute.  I have heard 5 days mentioned on here before, UG, I am in for a rocky road!!  Please pray for me.

[quitinoxys]

Perchance---Welcome to the forum I am glad you want to take your life back. First of all take a deep breath and relax you are doing fine. You asked what RLS feels like well it is different for people. When I had it I felt like I couldn't keep my legs still, I was flipping back and forth in bed. There is something you can use for it it is called Hylands RLS it helped me. You should be able to get it in any pharmacy.

What drugs were you using? Its easier for peolpe here to give advice with the more info you provide. As far as the anxiety this will pass too. So hang in there you are doing great. I will say a pray for you. God Bless---Rick  

[perchance23]

I have fibro and a bad back some somehow convinced myself that it was ok to take up to 8 10/375 narcos a day.  I did a taper over about 8 weeks down to a more managable amount.

[snakejones]

Hi, welcome to the forum. People are so nice here, and will be cheering you on during your journey.
Sorry, but I had to snicker a little when you said, "I want my emotions back!", and the first sentence of your post says you are bawling your eyes out! Do you REALLY want your emotions back right now?  ;-)
Your most recent post said that you successfully tapered down your pain meds---congratulations!  If you have some pills left, you might be an ideal candidate for a taper. As you already know from experience, the taper method isn't real easy, but neither is stone cold withdrawal. If you have a job, you can't go to work during withdrawal--it'll be too obvious. You'll have to call in sick.
This is a hard time for you. Please post whenever you can and let us know what we may do to help. Hang in there!

[sleepygal]

God I feel your pain.  Hang in there.  I'm going through the same stuff right now.  I'm at day 7.  My legs feel like I need to move them all the time, especially at night, and stretch.  It is in my forearms as well.  I toss and turn all night and may sleep the longest two hours at a stretch.  Just want to offer support.  At least you tapered down over eight weeks.  That was smart of you :)

[perchance23]

I see my post about the flushing party didn't made it ok here. We flushed the last of My pills last night. I was realy to do done. I have a few xanax that I have taken .125 mg today just to take the edge off. I see the light.  Just not sure if its a train.

[sleepygal]

bwhahahaa...see there, you made me laugh for the first time in 7 days....the train.  soo funny.  We can help each other through this damn nightmare.  keep writing.  Since I'm closer to the train, i'll let you know when I'm about to get hit.

[Baker3336]

I was taking the norco 10/325 also. 10-12 per day, so similar situation. I am 180+ days off them so it's still pretty fresh in my mind(the wds and emotions, etc.) Things started getting better after 4-5 days for me. The sleep took a while longer to get back to normal, 5-6 weeks. But I can promise you that it will get better, much better. I can remember thinking that I didn't think I could go through life and daily activities without the little yellow pill but I can and I am. I can also tell ya that it is such a great feeling not feeling chained to the bottle of meds, everything from going on vacation to going to play with the kids and all. I used to have to ration and count pills for every occasion. It sucked. That is gone now and I'm just trying to encourage ya to stick with it. It'll make ya stronger and you'll feel like ya can accomplish anything when ya beat this thing. It's gonna suck for a bit but your close to a turning point with the physical part. For me the physical wds were horrible but once past that I have been able to deal with the mental part quite well so ya never know. Keep at it, it's better on the other side. I promise. Good luck.

[atthebeach]

i wanted to come to the flushing party!!!!!  
anyhow so glad you had it!!!!!!
you are doing great.
keep the faith. press on.
take a hot bath with epsom salt that will help with the rls and the aches and pains.
keep walking around that is much better than laying down.
minute by minute,step by step you are closer to a life free of the chains and bondage of addiction.
think positive. mind over matter.
you are winning the battle. keep fighting.
prayers and hugs
debbie

[sleepygal]

I had a flushing party as well a few days ago.  hope the fish are happy :)

[perchance23]

I was doing pretty good on day 2.  I am about 5 hours shy of two full days..  I took a walk to the post office, a few blocks, and it felt like a marathon!!  But I did it.  I am taking the Vitamins, advil for the aches and about .125 xanax a day.  I know the dangers of the xanax so I am only using it if nothing else works.  I want this so bad!  I am going to get through this.  My husband has been so wonderful, making me lunch and keeping my water glass full.  He is a saint.  And you really can't plan when life hits you because we just bought a new house so everyone is calling and asking questions and it's so hard to talk to anyone because I feel so crappy.  But I know that I am not alone and I will get though this.  I don't think that I cried as much today, so there is a start.  and I felt pretty good until about a hour ago.  I found another pill in my purse and flushed it right away.  Didn't even want the temptation!  I am too far along to walk backwards.  Your support has been wonderful.  I am going to take a walk around the block and then maybe another nap./....

[perchance23]

So glad that I could make you laugh.  It is good to not be alone.  People always loved my humor and I felt in the last 6 months or so I didn't laugh as much.  I was losing myself.  To anyone just starting out, this can happen to anyone, with any job, with any great family.  If you think that you have it under control and can quit at anytime, DON"T KID YOURSELF.  I look back at how many times my doc gave me 100 with several refills.  He had to know what was up!  I mean that should be a years worth if you are only taking them AS neeeded!  Take care everyone.  I am offering up prayers for all of us struggling and those yet to start their battle.