Day 11 My first big test

[CantFail52]

I've made it to day 11. My hands are still shaking and my tummy isn't where I want it to be but I'm still here. I'm keeping 2 of my grans (2 and 5) tonight and they'll be here soon. Everyone except the people I live with think I've had the flu and have stayed away for the worst of it. Now I just have to convince my brain I don't need oxy to keep up with them. I don't feel ready for the noise and chaos but I really really miss them. Please pray for strength and sanity and inner calm for me tonight. My anxiety is already climbing. I couldn't have gotten this far without the support and advise of everyone that has helped me and I humbly thank you all.

[gnarly_1]

Hi and congrats on day 12 your off to a great start...as for the mental part it can be tuff you need to treat the addiction it will not go away on its own there are different types of aftercare  for me after trying most of them N/A is the only thing that works  it will teach you a new way to live those that go to meetings tend to stay clean so google N/A meetings in your area and get to one...........Gnarly...........

[CantFail52]

I went cold turkey 12 days ago! I've tried tapering and I couldn't do it. Hubby does need the pills but no where near what they are giving him, hence my problem with oxy. He goes to a pain management clinic (he's had 3 shoulder surgeries and finally a replacement in the last 2 years). He is soon to have an electric stimulator implanted on his spine which will cut way down on his script. I woke up in a good mood knowing I had made it through the night with the grans. They'll go home in a couple hours and I will have done in. Even if some aches and pains comes later today, it's OK cause I DID IT. Day 12! When I found you all at the beginning I never thought I could say that but I made day 12! Keep going days 3 and 4 and 7's and 8's! You can get here too!

[Marcie52mom]

I am also on day 11!  I put myself on a tapering plan and plan to be narcotic free by September 15th. I can't even imagine going cold turkey!  It has been HELL even with tapering off! I have had almost every withdrawal symptom! I am down now to two & a half percocets  a day. I am still having horrible headaches, nausea, profuse sweating, and extreme hot & cold flashes!  Are you completely off all narcotics and if so did you do it cold turkey?  I have been taking narcotics every day for 4 years during which time I have had four back surgeries.  

[Amandag78]

Hey there, congratulations on day 11 !!!
Babysitting at 11 days..... Goodness me. Well if you can pull it off.. You go !!!
My thoughts and prayers are with you to beat this addiction !!!
Your wonderful : )

[TOLETOA]

Awesome job, congrats on winning your daily battles. Victory is yours. You'll be just fine because your focus will be on the kids. Get super involved with easy yet busy activities. Coloring books, reading, drawing, making paper airplanes, painting, playing cards, blowing a bag or two of balloons (yes all of them) maybe with toothpicks popping them, so much to do. Being with my kids occupy my thinking of taking pills. Hope you enjoy your time and stay strong, you got this. God's strength, power, perseverance and peace over you. God bless....

[IBKleen]

If he doesn't want them or doesn't need them then get them out of the house. Trust me, those buggers will be calling your name every minute of every day.

[CantFail52]

I do have access but not really. It's in the house but it's locked in the gun safe with hubby's other meds and the key is around his neck. Luckily he's ex military and doesn't even want the pills he has to take, so it's just me in this mess. So far so good. Cartoons, iPads and ordering in for supper. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can!

[61chevy]

My 1st grandchild is due in a week.  Today is day 41 since my last dose.  My upcoming grandbaby, (1st), was a huge motivational factor in me getting clean.   You are blessed to have these grands so keep that in mind.  And...  above comment is valid when asking if you have access to anything.  Hope not.  Temptation will be strong to use so stay strong and focused on why you DON'T use.  Big congrats on day 11.  It will get better N better just not as quickly as we want.  But stay the course.  Those grands are worth it!

[disneyprinces]

Congrats! I understand about missing the little ones. My youngest son has custody of my 3 yr. Old grandson so I've had to detox with my sweet little yet overly excitable grandson bouncing off the walls. I took my 2 1/2 grandson on detox day 3. He kept the 3 yr old company so it was actually easier than having only one. Don't stress on the mess, just be in the now. Bake cookies, put out finger foods, crayons, paper, blocks WHATEVER you have for them (clean up later) get a nice soft blanket and pillow and nap when they do. Or take a hot bath during their nap time. I spent a good portion of the day just watching the boys from the sofa...and not too much time crawling on the floor with them and I'm still the favorite...you can do this. Just take time to breath.
Have fun

[IBKleen]

You don't have access to anything do you honey?

[motye51]

I can appreciate where you are at in this....there's no way in hell I would have babysat at 11 days!!!  But, that's just me.  Don't make big, gigantic plans.  Order pizza, rent a movie, make a pallet on the living room floor and just relax.  Don't attempt to be super grandma already....you'll be pushing yourself too hard at this point.  Again, this is just my opinion.  If you keep it simple, I think you should be fine.  And maybe a visit w/ the grandkids will remind you of just why your doing this in the first place....to be the woman you KNOW YOU ARE!!!!  Good luck, and when your ready to lock them in the bathroom, post on here!  :)

[CantFail52]

I have 2 different bottles of something my daughter got from the health food store, both recommended for withdrawal. I know one has valerian, I'm not sure about the other. My stomach is completely in knots.

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Do some breathing treatments whenever you start feeling anxietic while the grans are over...just some nice calm deep breathing...Google up some different types.  Also, just try to refocus the way your brain is thinking while they are over....Instead of "sheesh they are SO loud" try "wow they are exuberant" go over tickle em and threaten to steal off with their energy lol.  Well, you get the idea.  It can't hurt to try it.

Congratulations on making it to Day 11.  One day at a time...you should start noticing improvements on most days...sometimes they are small...and (at least for me) an occasional hiccup where I thought I was gonna CT again.

Do you have some Valerian or Chamomile to help with the anxiety?