Day 12 and ready to rip apart my loved ones.??? WHY?

[AwakenedIn2009]

I am on day 12 of no oxys, but I am feeling really angry and sad. I am not sure what the heck is going on. Firstly I want to rip the head off of my loved ones then I am crying and looking for forgiveness from them in the same breath.  Holy man its feels like I am an emotional basket case.  
I have never taken any kind of depression medication and was wondering what is the best one that helps?
My family is awsome but no one deserves to be walking on egg shells because I am feeling all messed up!!  Any suggestions, advise would be great help at this time.  Is it still the oxys messing up my mind or the affter effects of not having them in my system anymore?
Thanks
Awakened

[Kevin_Bacon]

Try going to the gym / YMCA and beating the **** out of a punching bag or running till you can't run anymore ... get all that tension out normally ... then you deserve a hot soak, a back rub, and sitting in a candle-lit room listening to Celine Dion ... Good, God, what am I saying?

Forget the Celine Dion part. Please.

[AwakenedIn2009]

Thank you all for confirming to me that I am not crazy.  The mind messing is worse feeling then the withdrawls. At least with the withdrawls you kinda know what to expect next. But this feeling of great emotional overload is serverly twisted.
Yes thank goodness my family is understandable but no one deserves this.  I guess I need to take a deep breath and hang on for the rollor coaster of emotions ride of my life for the next little bit.
Thank you to all again. You people are truly amazing with your wisdom and helpfulness.
Awakened

[refusingbondage]

Hey there - congrats on 12 days.. Its definitely part of the detox.  Crying, anger, depression, sadness, irritability.. its all part of it.. and of course is multiplied by the lack of sleep.  The shower became my private crying sanctuary during detox.  Walking and exercising is probably the best method to alleviating some of these symptoms.  Go for a long walk, maybe at a park where its serene.. It will help.. Above all, just hang in there.. All of this will lift and you will be more yourself agaln..

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 12 days!!!  What you are feeling is very normal and it will pass. Get out and get some fresh air, take a walk or just sit and cry......you are doing great so keep hanging in there!!!         sara

[road2recovery]

I can relate so much to what you are saying.. My husband is the sweetest thing, and I took so much out on him, even at day 12 like yourself.. He did not deserve none of it, nor did my kids..I also did the same and wanted to hug my little one, when i was aggravated at the smallest thing she did..Gosh i hated that.. But this happens to almost everyone i know..I also was taking lexapro , but had started lowering my dose, to get off of that too...I decided to go back to my normal dose because of this, and other things that were playing in my head now that it was clear...It help tremendously...But that is not saying that you need to get on an anti-depresent.. I found that if i started telling myself to not sweat the small stuff over and over it helped..My house was always spotless, then around this time with the no energy nothing was getting done, and they were not picking up after themselves and it was driving me crazy..So i just decided it would stay that way, and when i got energy back , i would get it done...things really got alot better for me and they will for you too, So congrats on 12 days!!  And don't sweat the small stuff....God bless
R2R

[guv338]

It's all of the above messing with you at this point.  No meds, prob. no sleep etc, etc.
Just part of it.  Sounds like your family is backing you on this.  They will understand that
your going through a bad stretch,  keep your nose to the grindstone and you'll come out better on the other side.  Its just a long and hard process to go through, for you and all around you.  I personally fought it without going the Rx. route.  However, many here say its fine to use whats necessary to get over the hump.  You'll have to decide whats best for you.  Good luck