Day 16...Exhausted and "Stupid"

[kk1303]

I've had 2 good nights of sleep since my detox...mostly still just sleeping 2-4 hrs a night. I don't know if its the lack of sleep or just my messed up brain chemistry, heck, maybe both...but I am feeling so STUPID since I began detox. School is kicking my butt. I'm a senior in college...on the dean's list, always made straight A's, but I am struggling SO MUCH this semester. As most of you know, I missed the first week of classes due to detox. I'm still struggling to catch up and everything feels a million times more difficult than it should be. I feel so overwhelmed with school. I've never felt this way in my entire life. Each class just seems too difficult. My brain feels like my IQ dropped about 50 points. When will this feeling of stupidity subside??? I want my old brain back...minus the opiates.

[Addicted2long]

I know exactly what your talking about. Through college I was popping pills the whole time and felt like nothing could stop me. I went to an IV league university and was also on deans list. For me the first time **** hit the fan and I realized that I had a big problem was when I was accepted into a special program to go to italy for a semester. I quit a few weeks before and was over the physical wd part by the time I got there. I noticed however that my study and testing skills had diminished. I felt like my head was foggy and nothing came easy as it had before. My energy was gone too so that played a big role in college. I was used to being able to stay up all night and ran on little to no sleep. After quitting pills you feel like your dieing when you don't get a full 8-9 hours of sleep. You no longer can stay up all night with eyes wide open and a clear head. It takes time for normalcy to come back. We didn't get addicted overnight and we surely aren't going to be cured that quick either. Your brain has to adjust and you will notice that this process is very slow to say the least. To overcome it your going to have to work harder than usual. The pills didn't make you smarter or a more intelligent person in any way shape or form. All they did was create a false reality and short-term energy boost. You'd be surprised you'd probably score higher on an IQ test sober than on opiates. Pills cause the brain to work much slower than normal and your head is not as clear as when clean. Make sure you are eating good meals everyday and taking vitamins. If you want to get through this as fast as possible vitamins are very important. I still take a ton of different ones everyday and I'm 60 days clean. Exercise helps a ton too. Keep the brain moving and don't give up. It will be so worth it in the end. This is not how your going to feel the rest of your life I promise. Think about before you were on the pills if you can remember back to than and how you felt. You got that far without being on them right? It just takes time and if you can stick it out for a few months of being just ok than your going to be glad you did. Once your brain starts kickin on its own again its awesome. Theres nothing that can stop you. Hang in there and don't look back. Ill be rootin for ya. Good luck! Ur friend, A2L

[all_alone1]

my piont.... look above..... i cant even type right...alway misspellings...i should know by now to check before i send...i never learn

[all_alone1]

i have noticed my brain isnt working as well as it did before detoxing...i seem slower...i forget alot...and things do seem harder to accomplish than before.....i dont know exactly how log it will take to get the old brain back but it sure is annoying.