Just re read this post.....love it!
Ok kids..especially those of us suffering from anxiety and sleep issues during our healing process. I speak of Magic Mary all the time. She's my therapist with a gift like non-other. She is also a clinical hypnotherapist. She gave me this gift today. And I want to share it with you. It won't be for everyone but if your mind is open to this, trust me please. Here's the link:
http://www.learnoutloud.com/Audio-Books/Self-Development/Emotional-Development/Inner-Peace/24085
Work those thumbs out girl. Very proud of you, and you are an inspiration to me. Keep fighting, you can and will get through this. We got rid of everything we had so efff it, let's get through this day. Make sure you are getting some good ole fashioned fresh air before bed.
Joe
Thank you Kyle. You are an inspiration to me.
148 days ago I started my time in hell; I spent hours on this forum looking for posts like this. It outlines how most of us progress, highlights the possible pitfalls, and paints a real picture of the recovery journey. And, what I feel is most important, it tells the truth about the mental detox and on-going battle with temptation. You are doing great; an inspiration to all. Tolstoy would be proud...
Just trust us who are living this. There is no reason and they will kick you hard. Get rid of the pills
You are right!!!! I don't want to relapse. 7 days is huge for me! I want to go forward not backward!! Thanks for the support!!
I will tell you..as I enter day 18 if I had pills available there were many times I would have taken them. Weak moments. Brain playing mind games. Sorry darling, you may think they are a security blanket, but FOR WHAT? Tell me that? What kind of security are they offering you? Did you commit to this new clean life? Then I don't get it. Sorry if I'm being tough but all of us will tell you if they are in reach chances are very strong you will relapse. And you are so strong and want to be clean and live a good healthy life. Your security blanket is right here. Right here.
WOW...I just teared up reading this!! What an amazing post...I can't believe how much I can relate to this story. My only regret is not posting sooner. I feel so much better since finding all of you! I can't believe the show of support on here! I am truely blessed to have found this place! I have to ask though...I am completely committed to staying clean, but I can't seem to throw my pills away. The very thought of it makes me want to vomit! I have no desire to go back to using, do I should be able to THROW THEM AWAY!!! Thank you for your post and good luck...congrats on making it this far :)
I posted to you on your post. Sneezing. Crazy, right? Mine has finally tapered but it's all I did. Shows how much we've messed up our body's normal functions. Wait until you see what else "wakes up". Including emotion. Be prepared for that. You are about to embark on an amazing rollercoaster ride. buckle up tight. Sometimes will be frightening. Some thrilling. You tummy will be all over the place. But when the car stops...... Ahhhhh. You'll look back and say I'm glad I did that but I'm thinking I'll just go to the Merry Go Round next time. Something slow and easy. But you have to get through the big bad ride first. You've got this!
waz
I am doing so great Dixie. I got up, as most were probably going to sleep, feeling good for the first time. Mornings are my worst. I have a very challenging work week ahead. And I think I'm mentally and physically ready. I'm back at the treadmill the way I was before hell week which is very helpful. I'm eating again. I'm feeling again.
Weird thing happened yesterday. Maybe some of you can relate. It just proves how delusional I was to think I was functioning normally on pills. I read. A lot. I have a Kindle. I finished a book yesterday and started to browse through some of the many I've read over the last two years. I have NO RECOLLECTION over what most of these books are about. I read them. I think I enjoyed them. But I didn't retain them. The good news is I have about 75 books to re-read! Geez.
Wishing you an awesome day today. Gym perhaps? I've already put in my time on the treadmill. Get those endorphins going girl. Major help.
Hey there dropping in to say hi and see how u are doing. Big hugs
Beautiful post, and so informative. Thank you so much for setting the stage for me, and also getting prepared, even more than I thought I was. I am 31 hours in at this point and have already been supported by minn and Dixiechick so I love ur plan b. I sent my first post today, but yours just captivated me. Fighting coughing and sneezing bouts right now, and it's unbelievable how slow this day is going. I'm so used to looking at the clock for the right time to take a pill that, I can't seem to break the habit. I will though my friend with postings such as yours. Thanks so much again, and God bless you. Have faith!!!!!
Most excellent idea Minn. As always!
Perhaps we can put it in the Secret Detoxers kit but label it "Only Open after Day 14." ;) Ah, who am I kidding... if someone tells me "do not... " then that is exactly what I want to do. I agree that everyone should watch it. To think of the impact one person can have, and ultimately all of us. OK, that's all I'm going to say because I don't want to be a spoiler.
I really believe all of us on our journeys should watch this. If your emotions are still out of control, wait a bit. It is a feel-good movie but their will be tears. For me they were cleansing tears. Paying it Forward. Excellent cast too.
Lots of love right back at you :)
Thewaz, I cry every time I see it. I couldn't tell you how many times I have watched it and I am always moved. It is a very emotional experience watching it but you know, seeing it during withdrawal may not be a bad idea because it can be cleansing. I am so glad you watched it and that it moved you.
Hugs,
Minn
You held me strong since day one Fireby. Some of what I shared came right from you. But you know that. Just want you to know I listened. xoxox
You amaze the crap out of me!
Thank you. Again Minn. I just finished watching Paying it Forward. I haven't been this moved or inspired or touched or sad or filled with joy in years. You knew what I needed and gently guided me there. And I love you for it. This is the best medicine this girl could have EVER received.
waz
I enjoyed reading your post waz. Be proud of yourself and keep fighting!
Bryan
Lol sorry. Yes u do u kick some @ss!!!! Keep it up ok!!! I'm with ya always
I don't know how else to say it but your posts amaze the crap out of me! They just do! Thank you so much!