Day 30 today! Woot Woot!

Wow, here I am.  Never imagined being able to get this far as I have never been one to follow through w/ anything in my life.
But, here I am.  
It's been one heck of a hard ride.  The ups and downs, the extreme anxiety and depression, fatigue and overall sick feeling.
My motto the first 7 days was that I had to be ok with not being ok.
I thought when I lost my husband to a 4 month battle w/ Luekemia a few years back that it was the hardest thing I had ever and would ever go through.
As that situation was hard, I have learned that this was harder.
I will always have so many great memories of him to hold onto that will carry me through life and cannot say the same about my addiction.
I came into this 30 days ago with no real expectations to ever see 30 days.
I am here and I for once in my life, am so damn proud of myself.
And I know I couldn't have done it w/out everyone on this forum.
Everyone here is truely my support system everyday and I praise the Lord for guiding me to stumble across this site a month ago.
For anyone new or just starting their detox, please hold tight and have faith.  You can do this!

[bama88]

wow great job!! now change your name to slayer. im so proud of you!! im so sad for your loss. my heart dropped..i missed that part of your story. so wrapped up in my struggle lol. i want to hug you and tell you it will be ok.
but im gonna tell you to keep your gaurd up. and stay around here. please please please??!!  we need more clean people to help with the detoxers. they need to see hope. recovery. and we can make a difference together.. how do you feel about that?

im sure youve followed thru on something before...had to or you wouldnt have made it to 30. treat yourself on something nice...clothes i like banana splits from dairy queen..goes back to childhood good memories...of winning swim meets..lol.

i knew you had it in you...i just knew it. pom pom time for you..and 30 gold stars!!! love ya bama..

[charliej41]

That's great 30 day that's a big deal stick with it. I am only on day 18 and Like to read about the one that are ahead of me. It help out a lot gives me something to look to when I having a bad day

[lal757]

      Congratulations on 30 that is and accomplishment you are doing the right thing suffering through this wont last for every so hold on and stay busy keeps your mind off yourself.  Cheers to you.

[Sarah11212]

Thanks everyone!

I think I will change my name today.

Bama-  I promise that I will always keep my guard up and even more, I will stick around.  This forum has saved my life, literally and I won't be going anywhere!
Lvu too!
Sarah

I will continue to "Fight the Fight".  This saying is so dear to my heart as it was my husbands motto while going through what he did.  So, here's to him, for fighting the fight 110% and here's to his wife, who now lives by this motto in her own battles.

[MikeInFrance]

That last paragraph was deep script! Congrats on 30!days!   We almost started on the same day... Love seeing you conquering each day with me..... It only gets better and better from here! ;)

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 30 days!!  That is a fantastic achievement.  Hold your clean time sacred and do whatever you need to do to stay that way.  May you find comfort in your memories of your husband~~~sara

[MikeInFrance]

Just wanted to push this one back up to the top of the list where it belongs ... Where u belong script!

[kyle505]

Read your post while eating breakfast... It's hard to eat eggs when your eyes are misting up. I can't tell you how great it is to read of your success and how your words touched me. I'm proud of you; I wish you all the best for the bright future ahead. Congratulations...You are an inspiration...

[Sarah11212]

Thank you Mike and Kyle!

[lulu747]

Script...
WOOT WOOT indeed...
Girl, I am so darn proud of you.  I have a little tear in my eye right now.  You've overcome so much and are working so hard every day to reclaim your life.  I am sure your husband is beaming  down at you with pride and love.  Treat yourself to some special me time today...You deserve it.

Always hold your clean time sacred and keep taking brave new steps in your recovery.  Know that your dreams are always within reach.  Anything is possible!  

You are awesome.
Much love
Lu

[bama88]

remember this day...and the emotional feeling it gives you!! a sense of acomplishment and pride. savor it everyday. on hard days to follow...this memory will serve a purpose. and you have purpose.!! how does this feel to you?

[LostNoMore]

Outstanding Script!!  Congrats!! I'm just a few days behind you. Thank you for sharing your recovery here. Keep on doing what you're doing. it's working!
You sound awesome!