Day 4 no norcos-rough day

[Davidmel]

Im doing everything im supposed to do with the thomas recipe... Big-time tired and depressed.. Yesterday was good-today, not so much... Work is a killer.

[motye51]

I've seen a couple of your posts....I wanted to chime in with some words of encouragement.  
Your right where your supposed to be so keep that in mind.  Big kudos to you for going to work while doing this....that's a feat unto itself and you should keep that in mind when you start feeling like ****.  The Thomas Recipe, I think, is made for people that have the ability to stay home while w/d for roughly 3/5 days....make sure you take that l-tyrosine as well.  Eat really well, lots of fresh fruit and vege's, red meat, fish, etc...I had NO appetite however, when I did eat (my husband force fed me) it did make me feel better.  Lots of gatorade and water to flush your system!  
When I got at some down points, I would literally go look at myself in the mirror and tell myself...You can do this!  Push yourself (I called myself an array of names, but you get my point, lol).  Music...if you have the ability to put ear buds in at work, PUT THEM IN!  Anthem type music, happy, upbeat, motivational music, it helps tremendously.  
Just remember, you don't want to have to go through this again, so keep pushing yourself forward. There WILL come a time when you don't have to push so hard, just give it some time.  Good luck to you.

[Davidmel]

What an inspiration u are! All these comments are helping me so much-the biggest thing i read was "no one on this forum regrets sobriety."

[Davidmel]

I am hanging in, but i know this wont last this time. I am humbled by strangers helping me. I am looking for meetimgs out of my little town like u suggested... Made first available appt with an adiction counselor (privately,) but it isnt til end of the month... I think the time will be right to make the commitment when school is out. My husband (i am female) will completely freak out when/if he finds out. All posts  have helped more than u know. Ive never felt this serious about making this change. I have learned so much from this forum.

[Soulscapex]

Dont give in , im on day 6 with ya, i myself thought i wouldnt have made it this far, i had a huge panic attack this morning, and couldnt move but i told myself , this will pass , this will end, this is part of the process of healing, and long behold it did. i actually took a nap and got up , and felt like **** but put my day together, and here i am 12 hours from day 7 , feeling fine.  

[jerry4664]

Your doing it brother don't look back its the weekend try and recover as best you can I have detoxed and found it best to do while working !!

[gnarly_1]

Hi david  how you holding up ???? please reach out b/4 you pick up it will help...  recovery is a ''we'' thing not a ''I'' thing  this is why we push the 12 step programs like N/A OR A/A you dont have to do this alone....doing it alone is the only wrong way to do this.....your threw the worst of it now....now beginnings what I call the ''mind screw'' part of this I often say this is 1/3 phyical and 2/3 mental it is the cravings the obsessions and compulsions that drive you back...it is critical that you treat the addiction like a disease...long after you put down the pills your still stuck with the addict in your head...N/A treats the addict it is free the meetings are only a hour long and it will give you some place to share where the people will understand so Google a N/A meeting near you and step out of your comfort zone and go....please do not try to skip this critical part part of recovery...let us know how it goes.......Gnarly

[Davidmel]

I have joing Crossroads-alocal methadone clinic and have a therapist. It has been a real pain in the ***. I havent posted on here since i started in june. It is a hassle going every morning. I am ready to start wearing down

[VICourageous]

Addiction is a serious disease.  We can not go it alone!!!
The physical will be over way before the mental. It takes time and patience for the brain chems to adjust back after the removal of these stims. All of us walk through life with some kind of pain or hurt and we can stuff it in are pockets. This is where the support comes in. We have to give it away to our God. Listening to them share there pain and strengths and being able to vent really helps our soul.

Just hang in!!! YOU can do this! I KNOW it is easier said then done and there will be MANY bumps along the way, but each bump you take and stay clean, the stronger YOU will become..Trust me I have had many in the last 3yrs and 9 months.

You do not want to keep hurting your Brain & Body organs either. These drugs are whacking out the whole world and us that live in it. Just try to keep yourself redirected at all times too. I do wish you all the best.
Bless
Vickie

[gnarly_1]

Hi david  when the craving gets bad try praying to a God of your understanding....it help threw the tuff days

..........................................Gnarly.....................................

[Davidmel]

Thank u thank u-im trying

[gnarly_1]

Hey David..........well I know your addition has been screaming in your ear to use ......you also made mention of scoring today....it will make everything you went threw in vein so DONT DO IT.....instead I recamend hitting a N/A meeting today....it has been the magic bullet that keeps this addict clean  with time in the progam you will loose the very desire to get high .....something I thought was impossible....long after the pills stop your still left with the addict in your head  this wont go away on its own.....N/A treats the addict  just google a N/A meeting near you and go and lissen....most of us with clean time work a progam  it is still ezer the using 24/7  let us know how your doing......................Gnarly....................

[10356]

Praying for you today Davidmel That you are Stronger then your addiction.. lesa

[10356]

Thinking of you Davidmel and Praying for Strength That you are stronger then your addiction today.. lesa

[Davidmel]

In my heart, i know you are right. Ive made thetapist appt, bit cant get in til end of month. Will try to find a meeting out of town saturday. Thanks for the encouragement. Feel so much better this morning

[jlannspr]

Friday is going to come! Go ahead and walk through the steps in your head... chasing down pills, wasting your money, guilt of holding them, taking them, immediately feeling like a failure because you have just endured the worst 6 days of your life and now it's going to start over. One will NOT satisfy you. Make a plan for avoiding the trigger; plan to be away Friday. "Just because you have a craving, doesn't mean you have to use." Don't let your mind beat you up. Give yourself until Monday, you'll be glad!

[jifmoc]

Davidmel- You're sounding like an addict, my friend. You are putting conditions on your wds, giving yourself an escape hatch to get more. Remember what I wrote about the key to success being to cut ALL your contacts? You may not feel better on friday. Wds are not linear. Feel better, then bad again. It's that way for a couple of weeks until we start to even out. You don't want to do this again. Or worse, keep doing it until who knows what. I would get myself into a meeting soon as possible. AA or NA. The mental is the true challenge, and that's the magic bullet, so to speak.

[Davidmel]

Im hoping to feel better so i dont need to score friday

[Luv_help]

Any advice for trying to stop ?

[Davidmel]

Thank you so much-this really helps

[jlannspr]

Hi Davidmel....the toughest part will b e the tiredness and the depressive feelings. It took me until around day 20 to feel good. Don't let that seem daunting though. You are out of the woods on the worst part of the physical withdrawal. Remember you did not get this way overnight. Just think of this as an illness and each day you are getting better. You will have to endure these rough spots to make it to your goals. It won't be easy, but today, you are further than yesterday. Keep pushing forward.

[10356]

As I said day 3 and 4 are the worst then it start to get better !! I do hope and Pray David that you do not score Friday As you have come so far and have gone thru so much to get here just as it starts to pay off you will have gone back to zero if you score,, Maybe hit a meeting in a nearby town Anything but score.. I will say a prayer for you for strength and determination and for you to be stronger then your addiction Friday.. lesa

[Soulscapex]

But you made it thru, im day 4 and just getting hit with cold chills left and right, pains in my legs , and well the same a over all depression that some things may be bigger and harder then one may seem. This is the only option i have , i wanted to do this so bad , but when you get into the race you panic.
but everyone around me knows what im doin and says soldier on. even tho im on the same day as you ur 4 days ahead of me.  We are making it one day , and one day at a time.