Day 49 off methadone day 22 clean

Wow this methadone detox or withdrawl (withdrawal) is as advertized brutal. It is a long drawn out process. Hard to believe 49 days and still having issues. Of course things have got better and I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I was on the methadone for a little over two years highest dose was 116mgs for a consistent time. Last year of the process was tapering down to 4mg where I jumped. The issues that still plague me are the horrible intense headaches. Man they suck dull ones all day long. They have gone down in intensity but still there. Also stomach issues still which is driving me crazy would think that **** no pun intended lol would have passed. Also sleep is still a issue. Although there has been a significant breakthrough latley in sleep. It has become deeper and started to actually feel refreshing. Before was so shallow and once I woke up no going back to sleep. Now I probably stunnted my healing by using opiates when first coming off the methadone. They were all short acting and not consistent or on a consistent basis but I had a few runs of taking them just to try and ease the pain of the methadone withdrawls and get some energy. I realize it was beyond stupid since I was just delaying the problem. But I honelsty thought still do actually that **** being addicted to any short term opiate and having to kick them would be a treat compared to this methadone ****, well at least shorter. But I know the only way to true happinesss is to be free and live life on lifes terms not being doped up to deal with it. So I go back on track and just dealt and am dealling with it. Just had to man up and pay what is do from my issues and problems of being addicted to opiates of any kind. I also was using xanax to help with sleep for a period of time. I was perscribed it for 14 years so was very concious of the addiction problem that **** can bring. I had not been on it for years so kept my use to about a month and kept it low dose, along with not consistent. Anyways I have also stopped using that for 3 weeks now, and dont really think it casued me any issues. No rebound anxiety or anything really just the methadone withdraw pain and issues. All I use now to get to sleep is mlatonin, kava kava, or valarian root. Also supplament with some GABA. Starting to sleep better so plan on going all natural for sleep here soon probaly this week. Now the stranger disturbing dreams have got less strange and distrubing but sill wierd. That is one crazy wd symptom those insane dreams, wild ****. I need to get back on my exercise routine that I did before getting off this ****, but energy and motivation been a problem still also. Crazy when I was doped up on the methadone worked out like a mad man, but now hard to just get through day with energy. I am active and walk and do things but man am I out of shape right now lol. Been going to NA and starting to really believe this will end and have hope. But **** hope I am one of the people who get well in 60 days and not 90. Thinking of another month of this **** is depressing, but not as depressing as going to that dam clinic doing the lock box of shame lol. I just think of being free of that **** when I get too down.

[justsaynotodrugs]

    Keep up the good work sounds like you want to clean up pretty bad.  You can do it just hang in there .

[gnarly_1]

hey dude good to see you post your coming along fin as i said you would get better gradually congrats on day 49 your 1/2 way there just take it one day at a time force youself to exorsize keep up with the meetings im working 2am to 6am so we can mabe get together sat for breakfast if that works for you
im still having a problem sleeping withmy new scedual got to get use to it but hang in there dude the worst is over from her its just a healing process
and weather its 60 days or 90 days its going to be what it will be and you will make it threw anbd be done with the liquid handcuffs I willl give you a call
suppose to finly cool down this week about time your bro Gnarly