Day 5 clean off opiates! wanting to give in

[offtrack]

Today is my 5th day clean off of my 3 yrs percocet addiction. I feel very irritable today which is odd because i stopped feeling that on day 2. I got payed yesterday and really just want to call my dealer nd buy a couple. Thats it nd get back on trak with recovery. Does that sound stupid or what? But its really how i feel rigjt now i just want to feel that warm happy feeling again that i have been deprived of for 5 days now. Just need some encouragement, helpful hints, words of wisdom to help keep me on track! Please and thank you!

[imlearningtoliveagain]

I too am on day 5 of coming off any opiate I could get my hands on. My Dr for 3 years had me a 27 year oldfemale with nothing but fibro and one herniated disc on 280 mgs of oxys a day.  Then I changed INS due to losing my job on missing work when running out he refused to see me.  I found a pain clinic who took me in and put me on perk 10 4 a day which was not even keeping me from having withdrawals so the 120 that was suppose to be for the month lasted 7 days.  So for the other 3 weeks it was daily struggle hunting a fix from feeling the pain of dying.  I have four kids at home all young enough to need me all day everyday and it gave me a crutch to why I had to have it cause I had to function each day for them.  Then after a few months I realized I wasn't spending my days hunting and missing out on playing with them 21 days out of the month for one good week.  They deserved all day everyday of my attention.  So I say around while I had a few days of pills left and made a plan.  I called relatives like my mom and told her I needed a break and would she keep kids for 5 to 7 days.  Then I write down every symptom I have when withdrawing and look up online what the best otc to help with it.   I have panic attacks so I had valium and xanax.  Then I had an old script of phenagren and ibuprofen 800 mgs.  I went to store got easy on stomach foods and gatorade. Nyquil pepto besmo.  Everytime I woke up which was every 3 to 4 hours I used bathroom are a lite snack and drank gatorade and took meds and long hotbath and by that time meds kicked in.  Also I've seen on other sites lyrica is good for pain associated with withdrawals and for my fibro so to stay sober IM going to Dr tom to see about that.  There is also a prescription drug used just to treat restless leg syndrome never tried but heard it works.  I found aspen cream and bucks vapor rub all over worked wonders.  Lack of energy and the mental part especially in the am to get out of bed without popping a pill first is the hardest.  But then I think back to how I felt when  I ran out of my perks or oxys this is no comparison.  I know if one had hit rock bottom like I had the strength over comes the weakness and the end result joy and being proud of YOU the real you did do and continue to do that so many addicts can't do should give u the greatest high in the world.  Cause it's the hardest thing I ever did and if I can on day 5 have my kids back home hugging me and me keeping my mind busy even with a word search book. You can too.  God gave me the strength to do items I prayed 4 to  5 times a day to help me.  Not to make it easier not to make it just go away cause we all know that can't and won't happen but he did give us free will and right to choose right from wrong.  Now we Have to prove to ourselves we can make that right choose one hour one day one week at a time.  

[offtrack]

Thank you guys so much my phone has been acting up and havent been able to get online until now. I didnt take anything. Unfortunately not on my own account but because my dealer never came threw which i was not upset about. Rather relieved. Had a couple good friends over and played yahtzee over a glass of wine instead. But im sure i will wake up with a call asking how many i want and i really dont want to be confronted with that because honestly i know myself and know ive been threw this same cycle before and i will give in. I mean every time i have these devilish cravings i point out to myself how much better im doing at work and i actually have SOME money in my pocket not dead broke struggling to eat. But sometimes, most times thats not enough. All of your advise was great and i will be so pleased with any more you may have from me and accept it gracously witg open arms because we all know we are here for the same reason witg the same goals and that is to get clean and get our lives back!! And i believe we can all do it with a little help from one another! .. p.s for the record i am a female ;)

[bewitched_queen]

I'm torn here. Yes we all want our WD symptoms eased, I know I do. But part of the hell of WD is what makes us remember we don't want to dance with this devil anymore. I absolutely agree with the statement, one is too many, a thousand is never enough. Im getting off this ride from hell. I hope he doesn't take any types of opiates either but I also very well feel the pain of WD & would love to "make it better". So, I'm torn on this. Doesn't really pertain to me anyways, as I live in the US and don't think tylenol 1 is even available here...

[Mrdextr0se]

were trying to make his withdrawals as confortable as possible,  everyone differs,,

[Mrdextr0se]

its reality.. he just said he is going to go out and buy percs,  were trying to keep him off percocets which is a higher and way more potent opiate then a tylenol 1..  I lived it,  if it stops him from going out and buying percs then well be it.  Tylenol 1 has absolutely the least bit of opiate it in.  My point being,  yes i should encourage him to stay the coarse and do it without taking anything, but i lived throught it, and 10 of these pills have the same affect as one percocet. When he wakes up the next day,  he won't be back to square one but to something least harmful and way less addictive.. not everyone may be as strong as you buddy so reality sometimes is different then yours..

[Sharon0255]

I hear you I was clean 45 days and took a pill now it's been 3 weeks of getting a few days and I wish I stayed focused at 45 days now I'm where you are which is better than alone. I'm trying tomorrow one day one hour it adds up. I really hope you hang in there I haven't really been bit too hard physically but mentally and emotionally I'm a mess. A lot of self hate please don't take a pill if you're like me they stopped working and I can't get any relief at all just my misery refunded.  

[jlannspr]

I was clean for over a month, from 6-8 hydros a day, for over 3 years. I had a bad day and thought what could 1 hurt for an upper. Well that 1 lead to 4  a day for the past 3 weeks. Today is day 1 again. I've started vitamins, water, etc. How I wish I wouldn't have given in that one time. I quit posting and let my guard down, and now I have to read my posts from months ago about the agony I went through and look forward to another detox. Just simply don't start again.

[NorthEast213]

And btw I'm aware that Immodium has an opiate in it.  Doesn't cross blood brain barrier. =)

[NorthEast213]

Congrats on your time!  Im on day 14 after using 300mg of oxy a day. so I remember quite vividly what your going through,   YOU CAN DO THIS.  I also could NOT disagree more with above poster for taking anything with an opiate in it,  Stay the course you are over the worst of it.  Don't put any type of opiate in your system now!!!  Each day will get better.

Take a big double dose of immodium AD which can help more then just the stomach issues sometimes.

Its time to bear down and be tough.  48 hrs from now I bet you feel better.

Good Luck and stay in touch!!!

[Mrdextr0se]

Offtrack, dont do it...you've came 5 days without anything,  your doing awesome,  it will just set you right back... Go take a hot shower or bath. Your on day 5 and the worst is over. Its all in your mind now. I was on percs for 6 years.. I was chewing 20 a day when i decided to stop. It was hell for weeks,  but after 5 days it got better, you'll see the light. Go to a pharmacy and ask for tylenol 1's they should help with the edge,  they have a tiny bit of codeine in them. Not to sure where your from but here in Canada you dont need a perscription.. take 4 of them..take some b6 vitamins and  L-tyrosine it will help.. Just remember the ****** feeling you dealt with the past 5 days.  One will add to two and so on,  then you'll have to go through the withdrawal crap all over again,  you can do it..

[5kitty5]

I envy your 5 days!!  You have a huge huge accomplishment behind you!  If your addiction is anything like mine a few will not do any good.  I have discovered that I built up a torance so needed many to feel the high.  This is my second time here and somebody told me this last time I went through this...."one is too many and a thousand is never enough!"  Think bout it..it is so true.  Why not take the cash you were going to spend and treat yourself to something else which will be something you enjoy...like a massage.  This will release natural opiates within your body.  Sounds corny but gaurd your sobriety like a hawk be proud of your desion and quiet that beast telling you to get more.

[apike31108]

I am on Day 8 from Lortabs. You can do it. Keep on going. Mentally I know how you feel, but it's gotten better. I mean if a pill was in front of me would I take it? I don't know. I do have some legit pain going on but I am still trucking. I cannot give in this soon and go thru the withdrawals again. They were HORRIBLE. Plus I never got them from dealers or street. I always had a RX for them and I can't find a doctor to write them for me anymore.