Day 8 --- Feeling So Lonely Tho

Well today is day 8 for me!! Hooray!! I have noticed such big changes in me already.  The first four to five days were a nightmare, but other than that its been all uphill.  I just get so lonely throughout the day.  I don't know if the pills were "keeping me company" or what, but is this normal?  I have no desire to use again.  My daughters are even enjoying the new me.  I'm not sitting in my room watching tv all the time and not wanting to do anything because I'm irritable or zonked out.  I love love love that!!! I''m cleaning my house and exercising (even though it hurts like you know what right now)  but my problem is when I do get still and sit down I start thinking about those blue pills again.  Is this normal? I just want to know when will I feel like my self again?  Mentally.  Physically I feel great.  I do have aftercare lined up, I am seeing a counselor once a week to talk about all this.  Please can someone give me any advice???? Im really lonely!!! And no one else in my family understands what im going thru.  Please help.

[Shambri]

Yes mam. So normal. If you read up on opiate addiction, most ppl relapse bc of bordome. But DONT let that get to you. Whenever you start to think of those blue pills.. Do laundy, do dishes, listen to music, take your kids to the park.. Nobody in mine or my husbands family knows our dirty secrets either, So we are detoxing and leaning on eachother. I am here if you wish to talk. Im a southernbelle too!

[dedicatedtostop]

Hi hun my day 8 was prob the worst for me too, I felt the same way. Just remember everyday is a new day, and I promise it gets better. I post this a lot and I promise you will see that a positive attitude creates such a positive energy. No matter how you feel find something positive to say. You have already said your children love the new you, thrive by that! Life and death relies in the power of the tongue, if you confess your lonely your gonna be! Change your thought process and confess.. I am not alone I have this site and everyone has been through what I have! You will see a huge difference in the mental part of this. You are not alone "greater is he that lives within me". You are doing great, keep up the good work you have this thing beat!!! Keep posting you have a lot of wonderful people on this site that are here for you!!!!

[southernbelle78]

I totally agree with what you are saying and can see how that would be correct.  If I sit down and start thinking that will be the first thing I think of , as horrible as that is.  I will have to say with my new found energy I will have the most organized house in my town!! I never realized how much I let go because I was too tired to do it, the laundry, clutter, anything.  So embarrassing.  If you don't mind, what did you take and how long have you been off?

[Shambri]

I took ANY opiate I could get my hands on for three years straight.But the past months I was bad on Oxy, and when I would run out I would sub for lortabs and norcs. But I was the same as you, my house was a mess. I diidnt feel like doing anything, but getting high. Read my post on here. If you dont feel like reading, google The Thomas Recipe For Opiate addiction. I am telling you. It really does work. It replenishes your body of what these drugs have taken from you. Its amazing. Day 3 and I feel pretty great.

[Calamity2]

Hungry Angry Lonly Tired           HALT             Yes I felt that too.  Did you all know after I stopped opiates I lost 43 lbs.  I started walking on my 4th day and still walk every day!  I also get lonly sometimes. I know it's my own darn fault. I have to get more circles in my life. I dont go to church. There are many in this town and some with faboulous children programs that are so fun for them. There is AA NA   and lots of people there that would love to look at my ugly face ( just joking I'm reallly a knockout)   OR I could volunteer.  Nursing home, humane society, weed the vietnam memorial or visit the guy who has been taking care of his brain injured grandson from the Iraq war.