Day 8, Things are getting clearer

Hello everyone... it id day 8 and I'm still clean! I made it to 10 last time and it was much easier than this time...I could kick myself, but that wouldn't help! The weekend was rough; fighting with the hubby really set me off. So glad I did not hv any pills cause I would not be on day 8. I leave tomorrow for a 6 hr trip to San Antonio for 3 days. I think it will be good to get away for a bit and ill be busy so my mind will be occupied!! The cravings are still getting me! Wonder why I didn't have them last time but I do now??? Just my luck!

I had an appt with a pain management Dr yesterday but I didn't go... not saying the demons in my head didn't want to go but I didn't. It was hard but running kids everywhere there was no time!! Funny how life shows us things sometimes.

Keep praying for me... I am praying for all of u!!! We will make it together!!! Thanks everybody for the support and encouragement! I sire hv needed it this time around!!
Hugs from Texas ....  Debbie

[ready2bfree49]

You can do it...don't give in ...  i found this poem today that i'm gonna send you...it helped me....hang in there...if you need to talk i'm on here ALOT.. i'm getting ready to detox off of methadone after 7 yrs. ... i need all the support i can get :)

[sandstone27]

Congratulations on your 8 days clean from a fellow Texan!  We're made of tough stough here.
Stay strong, and you'll make it...I'll say a prayer for you...with God on your side you can't lose.

Well wishes...

Sandy

[lal757]

   Yep just be careful where you go no Bars or hang Outs and you may do all right temptation will be your worst enemy catch a substance abuse meeting want hurt.

[sandstone27]

sorry...tough "stuff"....not stough...:)

[lulu747]

Deb...
You got this, girl.  Believe in yourself and don't psych yourself out(:  Guard that precious clean time at all costs!  Awesome work on 8 days..

Sandy-
I love 'stough'..A great amalgamation...I'm going to add it to my vocab!

xo
Lu

[bama88]

im so proud of you!! i am. i have a feeling if you cancelled that pain mamagement appt. your through!!

i went to see my pain doctor for other meds...i didnt fill anything he wrote but non narcotic meds...what turned me off was there was a woman in her mid fifties or so..she looked like a skeliton. she was so so so sick...me being me asked her if she was ok. and she replied i will be as soon as i get my medicine. ugh. she was so old and sick looking. she was a mess. yes she was dressed nice. she was clean had make up on. and still looked like death worn over...well i told him i was through with my oxycontin..and he laufhed. yep he laughed at me and said i would be back. he even wrote me a script of mu favorite pills....i ripped up the script in front of him and walked out. i knew he was a quack. but i liked his drugs...i told you in pm. he gave choices. really. i knew he lost his licence once..but did that stop me. heck no. i was set in to see him. i knew going in. well not the whole story. at that time i was hooked on loratabs. ive been known to take 20 a day. yep 20. so i was sunk when i met him. and when he said those choices i could have i felt like i won the pill jackpot. ding ding ding....i won oxycontin. and then a great friend of mine said...hey you can snort them. great friend huh? and i was off to the races then lol. and i lost. big time
  

im so proud of you i could hug you so hard i would hurt your neck lol....way to go...im getting my pom poms out...or do you want me to do my chicken dance? haha....and yes getting away will be great for you and your husband...theres something exciting about getting away..is it just the two of you?

[dac70]

No I'm going with a really good Christian friend. My son is in the high school band and the are the State Honor Band of Texas so they are going to play a concert for the Texas Music Educators Association conference in San Antonio, tx. Its a 6 hr drive and there will be no way to get pills... so o think I'm safe!!

[zoea]

Sorry sweet Im getting all confused with this time difference lol.
I message u but well done . This could of been us together. Back to day 2.
Im really proud. Have a lovely weekend. Keep me updated.
Zoe

[dac70]

Zo.... u r going to do this!!! I will pull u thru. We r doing this together!! I'm so proud of u!!!
Deb