Day 8 and onward. What's the next surprise?

[charlie_coldturkey_tn2015]

Well Angels, starting Day 8 and feel wide awake and more alert than in years. Energy level is definitely up this morning. WOW! Hope this stays with me all day. Just had to post with Thanks to everyone who helped get me here.
To those who are thinking about, just starting, or in the first week, TRUST this process. Stay hooked up. You never have to be alone. Holler, scream, cry, laugh, love, exercise, eat, sleep. Do anything without these pills and time does fly. I am not an expert. I just got lucky ( God's luck ) to find this site and to post. Boy, was I scared. But I stayed hooked up to this forum and every day is getting better now.
  To the members who are further down the road. Give me a shout when you can and let me know what I might need to know over the next few weeks. Look at that. I have spent to last week planning by the minute, then hour, then day. Now I am planning for the next Week? Is this crazy or what? Always love.

[charlie_coldturkey_tn2015]

WOW!. Time is definitely moving on. Stay clean just for today. Just for today. Here I am 3 hours into Day 11 and still kicking. 5 meetings and this site are the only reasons. One is too many, 1000 is not enough. So tired of the wanting, but glad to be living clean for the first time in my life. Give thanks to God, as he truly is the only reason why this has happened.

Shout out to all my angels!!! Keep posting, Always love.

Tina, I am still struggling some with the cravings and some fatigue, but my God, look how far we have come. So proud of you.

[jlannspr]

You are so right. We were creating an artificial fake life. No one has good days all the time who is normal. We are going to have these bad days. We have to take it easy on ourselves. Our brain is going to try 1 million ways to trick us into using...We have to be tougher than that.

[TikkiTT]

Your post hit home with me!   I was thinking yesterday....if I only had a pill, I would feel like cleaning house.   Then I had to do a reality check, and say, hey, girl....you were no dynamo on the darned pills!   Which is the truth.   I actually feel better today because I have been taking better care of my health....and getting more done.    Who knew?  ;)   It is just another lie that the pills would have us to believe.  We all have bio rhymns, which means just naturally we feel more energetic some days than others.   Many factors play into this.   But no point fooling ourselves, thinking we are better on the pills.

[Tina6444]

Hi girl !! You are doing great if you are cleaning like that !! Keep it up those anxious moments get further and further apart  and pretty soon you will feel so good you will go days without thinking about them !   i promise you it is getting easier and cannot even imagine starting this process again !!  It is HARD work but so very worthwhile.  Keep up the fight !

[jlannspr]

great to see your post, I was wondering about you. Your second to last post hit home especially last night. I cleaned my house including mopping and sweeping in like 2 hours. On the pills, it took all day, because I felt like I was getting stuff done but I was going in foggy circles. Crazy?! I'd take a pill sit down, do a little work, get tired, take a pill, and nothing really got done. I'm so glad that someone experienced that too. I've had some moments of anxiety, or some may say cravings, that is the biggest thing I hope will subside over the next couple of days.

[Tina6444]

Music was a huge outlet for me at the beginning and even now. I listen to it every single time I get that anxious what the hell am a I doing feeling (only 1 today and brief).  
Is it cheesy to post lyrics ? Probably but so many lyrics just resonated with this during this process and PUMPED me up!  I am sharing this because this is how I felt so early on!. So sorry for the long post!!
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/gotye/somebodythatiusedtoknow.html
Somebody That I Used To Know"
(feat. Kimbra)

[Gotye:]
Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[Kimbra:]
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

[Gotye:]
But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[x2]
Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

[Tina6444]

Hi Charlie love!! I knew you would be feeling better today:) You are so dedicated to your sobriety and I am so proud. We all have our different tactics  and find what works for you all individually.  I am returning into that workout fanatic I used to be and that fills a huge void from the pills!!  And working 10 plus hours a day doesn't leave me time to think anything but work:).  I do find that I am not complacent at all anymore and if I want something done…. It will get done! My husband is learning around the house that my honey dos are HONEY GET DONE NOWS!!  I used to just say whatever and pop a pill….no more of that:).    To all the newbies I hope you are doing okay today. I need to catch up on some posts to see how you girlies are.

[charlie_coldturkey_tn2015]

Thanks for the post, sounds like my story almost exact. God has his plan and I'm along for the ride.  I am learning new things daily now. It truly is a new world. Reaching for all the support I can find ; on here as well as meetings, 4 so far first week.

Gnarly always  says NA, but no meeting today. So I found a huge, fantastic AA meeting. Didn't know how much I needed this until it was over.

I cannot tell you how much the support on here has meant this first week, but will continue to post and try to help others as I continue this journey. God Bless.

[charlie_coldturkey_tn2015]

You can do this anytime. I know. I did and i'm never good at this stuff. Just take the jump. we'll be here for you. Before  you know it , it will be Day 8 for you and you'll be helping somebody else.

Just got back from another meeting. Very intense speaker. Great message
and great people. Locate some near you. It is really helping me. Started Day 9 already. Can't believe it.

[Kait1223]

I'm so happy for you!  I can't wait to get to that 8 days. Still tapering here. Sometimes I just want to throw them all away and get started, but then get afraid. Congrats on your accomplishment! I don't know what you were on as I'm a newbie but it really doesn't matter, huh? 8 days off anything addictive is a wonderful thing!

[VICourageous]

First I want to say Congrats to you for getting your life back so far.

I have been on this site for almost 3yrs and I always say that the Detox is the Easy part. It is working on staying Clean that takes the cake.

I remember in my first 30 or more , I was so spiritually high as my mind got clearer and the light came back in my eyes. I got clean at 56 from a 40plus using and drinking off and on. I come from the 60-70-80s where I thought it was just for the party and everyone was doing this. The last 12 was a everyday hooked on 3meds thing. It will take time for your Brain Wiring and such to flip back and fire up. This is what took me the longest because of my long use. I too thought I had done some serious brain damage at my age. The Dr said it would take a few yrs to flip back and it did. Just know that Life will throw some curve balls. This is where you will know your inner strength. We do have to learn to Live in our own Skin again. The BIG thing is Support..The more the better. I had to UP & Change and Add so much these past 3 yrs. Never put the Cart before the Horse. Take it min by min or day by day. Always keep your Guard Up and never let it down. Lots of changes have to be made and I mean LOTS of changes. I do wish you the best and just keep looking forward and never back.
Bless

[charlie_coldturkey_tn2015]

You explained it well and I have been having some of the same blips or blanks. Starting to notice that mind seems to be clearer after 8 days. Hoping that will last. I realize I essentially am coming off a 25 year long addiction, so I really don't know what changes I am going to see physically or mentally over the next few weeks and months, but am excited to be looking forward to them. Thanks for the feedback.

Gnarly- thanks for post. Definitely counting blessings today but also realizing this is just the beginning. Headed out the door to another NA meeting. Keep coming back until you want to come back.

[gnarly_1]

Hey  congrats on day 8....try not to think to far into the future you will miss what blessings you have today....we need to learn to live in the now  hence the N/A way of ''just for today''  you just got to stay clean for today  this is a great time to start hitting meetings and with that getting phone numbers and meeting new clean friends  time to build a ''recovery network''  this will be your life line when life on lifes terms gets hard and it will...the real key here is you never have to use again and with the help of a progam you have a good shot at it  this forum is a huge help  but it is not a substitute for real in person human interaction  you had mentioned going to a meeting time to put a few in your weekly schedule...........Gnarly

[TikkiTT]

One thing I have noticed....and this is a very positive thing for me...my mind is clear-er.    I am in my late 60's and I was seriously worried I was getting altzheimer's or some such malady.   It felt like I could feel...maybe recognize...is a better word....blips in my brain.   Like  it took me a few minutes sometimes to think of something....meanwhile, I was drawing a complete blank.   Well, maybe it was seconds, not minutes, but it was definitely drawing a total blank.   And it was about common things...like my dog's name!  I'd have to stop and think....now, what is that dog's name?   I didn't mention it to anyone, but it scared the hell out of me.    They say you get forgetful as you get older, but I wasn't ready for that!    After I got off the hydrocodone and got it out of my system completely, I am happy to say that I no longer struggle with that.   Oh, sure, I will walk into a room to get something and get distracted and think why did I come in here....but I don't feel like my mind is so darned fuzzy all the time.   I don't know if I explained it very well.....but hopefully you will understand what I am talking about.

[charlie_coldturkey_tn2015]

Thanks. I know each day may be a little different and I will need to adjust to life happening without my pill bottle. Hey, this is actually working. God , please keep me strong and on this path and thank you for all my support friends on this site.

[jlannspr]

Congrats, I recall from my pervious clean time that things got better and better similar to how you feel today. As everyone mentions keeping up that guard is crucial which is why I'm here! You'll feel new emotions and experience things in a new light, embrace it. Also remember that pills might have allowed up to be super people, trying to accomplish too many tasks at once. You don't have to get everything done at one time. Just go with the flow.