Day 8: weaning and nearly done!

I am finally down to 3/4 of a pill- woopeeee! Yea, cutting them into 1/4 of a tablet, nearly three times a day, ready to stop altogether, any day.
My step-father died a month ago, and I found out about it, finally, yesterday morning while reading over the obituaries, and talk about major depression and anxiety since then- I can't even believe I'm still 'sane' right now.. (Of course, if we use the 'Clincal Sanity' term on me right now, I wouldn't fit the criteria, but at least I 'THINK' I'm there.. just about.. HA!)
I just cannot wait- looking SOoo forward to getting back to 'me'! UGH!
So, for those who are coming off of Tramadol- my DEEP advice to YOU is..... WEAN slowly! and STICK with it, and stay on schedule! Don't go cold turkey if you can help it!
Love to all!
Alli

[avisg]

girlllllllllll you are doing great ,you are almost there .......

[GoingToMakeIt]

Alli, I am so proud of you. You are going to do great. You will be so wonderful when you are clean. I just see any room lighting up when you enter. Good going!

[oxyaddict420]

YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

YOU ARE DOING GREAT ANGEL!!!!

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!

I am so sorry to hear about yourstep-father! That has to be horrible.. It is great how you are coping, and you are an insperation to me as well as many others I am sure!!

YOU CAN DO THIS

YOU ARE WORTH IT

I AM HERE FOR YOU

[angel44240]

I just realized that it's 7:20pm here in Ohio.. I have only had a fourth of a pill today, and still going strong??
Hmmmm... I wonder what it would be like to sleep tonight if I don't take ANY now? Maybe this could be 'IT'? We'll find out, I guess! lol

[headies]

Quite an accomplishment I must say. I would feel great even though the w/d may not be over yet.  I remember that day for me and it was great.  Just knowing your self imprisoned state is about to end must feel good. Congrats and good luck with the next week.

[angel44240]

You're exactly right! I'm still at the 3/4 now.. I know it's not alot, but I can't possibly imagine running through this house feeling like a cockroach with these little ones running around! lol.. So, I'm easing slowly.. I'll be at a half here soon, then nothing at all.. hopefully.. trying to keep it to where I can still focus, ya know?
Love ya guys! and thanks sooo much!

[GoingToMakeIt]

Any way to get clean, is a good way. You are doing great!

[Victor322]

Good for you Girl!

I'm still stuck @ the 75mg/day
(1 1/2 tabs) routine due to the sleep issue, anything less than that and I wont fall asleep until 7 am, otherwise I could cut much further, as the otc sleep aids aren't helping much.

Keep up the
Good Fight angel44240!

[mshell62]

Yahoo!  

Oh girl, you are doing fabulous!  This is wonderful.  You are SO strong!

You have come this far, this is incredible.  IF you ever, ever get discouraged, POST POST POST.  This has helped me immensely during my taper from Vicodin, and now on day 9 of no Vico, I continue to post and it helps.

Please, if possible, read my journal about my sister and her problem with tramadol.  I posted it to help others.  I hope it will help you see the danger of abusing this drug.

Lotsa HUGS and love to you, girlie!  

Hang tight and we will be here!

[road2recovery]

congrats on the tapering...It takes alot or someone to do a great taper..So there is no doubt that you will make it!!!
SO happy for u
r2r

[angel44240]

I just wonder, now that I'm down to only 3/4 of a pill, if I should just stop altogether now or what? Since it's such a low dose, what would you guys suggest? I'll spend a few days feeling like garbage, I don't care- I just want to stop altogether!
Any advice is good.. :D.. thanks everyone

[GoingToMakeIt]

  If you think you are up to it. Go For It! I have never regretted quitting. You have done such a good job on your taper. I would think that your w/ds will be minimal. I am so proud of you! LOLv

[broknbck]

i'm so happy for you!!  that- a- girl !!!
if you think you're ready go for it.
what did you tapper down from?
i had to go from 9 pills a day to 1. then i quit and had barely any withdrawl (withdrawal).
the tapper was alot better than c/t in the past.
you go girl and kick some butt!!!

[angel44240]

I was taking 3 a day for two years.. faithfully, never anymore.. sometimes I wouldn't even TAKE what I was prescribed, and I'd only take 2.. but here lately, in the past several months, I'd wake up in the morning feeling like garbage until I had my morning dose.. THAT is what finally made me say,"The doctors can take their pain meds and shove them up their @$$#$!
It was literally ruling my dang life.. Was also affecting my moods!
Anyway, I went from 3 a day, to 1.5 a day in like three days, I think, but now I'm at 3/4 of a pill.. I still feel like garbage if I miss my nightly "Measely" little quarter of a dang pill.. makes absolutely NO sense to me whatsoever.. I'd be up all night long if I didn't take it.. Oh my.. what a year! lol

[broknbck]

try melatonin. it's a herb you can buy almost anywhere. it really works for sleeping. when i can't sleep i take 9mg. i'm about 120 lbs. anyway you take it, go straight to bed, it must be dark for the herb to work. in a half hour if you're not sleeping or drowsy , take some more. alot of people here have used it.

[angel44240]

I've used Melatonin for quite some time now.. In fact, I took one last night, worked for about an hour, then I woke up again.. LOL
It's medically advised to only take one, but not sure if it could do harm to take more? The bottle says not to exceed more than one tablet in a 24 hour period...
I am calling my doctor tomorrow morning and asking for Ambien.. It's always worked for me.. Or even Lunesta.. I heard it works wonders, too.. :D

[GoingToMakeIt]

The dose on melatonin can be 10mg with no problem. I used 6-9mg to go to sleep. On occasion I would wake up and take it again. Melatonin is a naturally occurring substance in our body. If you wake up groggy, get out or around some bright light. Our bodies break it down with light. Hope you sleep tonight.

[headies]

You are at the point now when it is all or nothing. By that I mean, I have tapered down to virtually nothing, then messed everything up by taking too much. You feel like you are starting over, even though you are not. My will power has always been poor. I always figured, "there is always tommorow" which is the wrong attitude.

You can do this, if not for yourself, do it for your kids!!! They are always to be first. I must say, you are relatively sane sounding during your taper process. You dont sound desperate or trapped like some people do during there taper. You sound sane and ready to be off pills. Your posts always seem positive, which is good.

That is a good sign you are ready to be off pills for good. Once again good luck on the next week.

[angel44240]

Thanks guys..
Sane, I'd have to say yes- I'm actually sane.. lol.. finally! hehe.. I HAVE taken it quite well, but have had some anxiety with a death in my family, but I get over that rather quick.. I'm okay now, but all I have to say is 'Just For Today' I'll be okay..
I'm taking this day by day, slow but sure.. I tried hurrying up the 'weaning' process a few times during this time period, only to find myself 'not doing so well' because the anxiety hit me like a ton of bricks! Ya know, my mother went through this when she was using Vicodin for her arthritis back in 1999. She came off of the pills, though cold turkey, and she was a horrible mess! Only difference between her and I, is that I didn't abuse them, however I did consistently take them for two years straight, and my body's been THAT used to it! The BIG difference between my mother and I, is that my mother's relapsing killed her, unlike myself (of course) I'm aiming to never use another med again, even if it's antidepressants! I hate the thought of waking up each day, knowing that if I don't take that first dose, I'll never get anywhere.. Oh no- never again.. I never thought I'd be 'here' today, but guess what? I'm finished! Getting my 'normal' life's routine back! lol
I've always been very 'cheery', unlikely depressed, but have had some anxiousness.. I tend to worry myself alot, although I pick up very quickly and heal like you'd never imagine! I want that life back.. so bad.. lol
I wonder if I'll suffer alot of anxiety after going completely OFF of the med?