Well here I am at Day 9 of ZERO Norco's. (Going from 15-20 pills a day for about 2 months; before that I would take about 10-12 vicodin for about 5months due to chronic tendonitus.) Definitely over did it on the pills I know, I didn't know that going over the recommended dosage would cause such crippiling addiction. And while the physical wd's have subsided, (took about four day's for that to start to diminish) and the depression still stands, I'm having troubles with why I came to the conclusion of why I decided to quit. When my doctor first put me on Vicodin, I honestly with everything I had in my being believed that it was God himself that led me to this glorious medicine. Not only did it take all of my chronic pain away, it enhanced my life in ways I never could have imagined. I lost 35 pounds, I no longer wanted my nightly glass of wine, my appetite shrank, I was so very happy, my enthousiasm for live flourished, and my depression had completely dissapated, along with the constant feeling of lonliness. Since stopping the Norco's my depression has never been worse, I've seen some of the darkest day's I have EVER seen, I've had a constant headache that won't seem to go away, and my tendonitus is keeping me up at night. I have absolutely no energy, and no interest in life. Taking care of my children is nearly impossible and keeping up with housework is not even an option right now. It's all leading me to wonder... Does God want me to take this?? Is there a reason he put this medicine in my path? I know I was up to too many pills a day, I know that that can cause some major problems. But I'm just wondering, since I've taken 9 days off, if my tolerance has dropped? What if I did go back on the recommended 6 Norco's a day, and under no circumstances, go over.... I've researched hydrocodone, and there are doctors that do prescribe this medicine for depression. I just wonder if my brain needs this type of chemical to be able to function? Or I'm also wondering if this is my addiction talking all the same. All I know is, life is painful right now. So painful, and I'm still not really seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Anyone have any input? I would hate to through 9 escruciating day's away if this is not a good idea.