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675923 tn?1296238011

Day One, again

Today is my second attempt at day one of freedom. I am weaning off per doc's orders yet my attitude towards others is stinking so much that I've had enough. I am a loving, funny wife, mother and friend, not a vixen. I didn't have this withdrawal symptom the first go round starting Dec. 23rd (?). I can be shrewd at times, especially in a bipolar moment but I feel my bipolar episode has ended. I would rather ride out the pain in my body than this attitude. The doctor gave me mediation for the bipolar during the final day off. I will start using it today. It makes me tired though.

Today will be my first time stepping into a church for some time now. I used to be very involved in our old church. Then the tables started turning. My husband and I were going through a very difficult time and the pastor told me to leave my husband???? What???? Then everytime I saw him when I stopped in the church to pick up supplies for Sunday School or just to say hey to the staff he would corner me and ask me when I was leaving him. I stopped a lot of my activities, quit attending every service on Sunday's and hubby started to ask questions. I told him I wanted to leave the church (after 10 years). It wasn't until about two years later I told him about my confrontations which happen to be when the pastor was fired for having relationships with some of the ladies of the church. I know we are all fallible human beings but this situation threw me off. So, new church, new day today.

I'm just blabbing now. It is day one of no opiates and for this I can be happy.
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675923 tn?1296238011
Gosh, do you really want to know my cocktail of drugs??? LOL. I take Lithium, Lamictal, Lexapro, and Diazapam. Tylenol only, Fish Oil, Folic Acid, Cal/Mag. I see a MD and Phych. The two doctors work together. They actually TALK to eachother.

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Hey just like they say- this is the first day of the rest of your life!!

Never considered the church for helping out. just try not to get caught up in all the rules and guilt trip that some of the churches have.
this is a hard thing you are doing and remember that.
what is your DOC and what script did your doctor give you for bipolar?
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