Day two off oxycodone.....my 2nd time around

[Doodlebug87]

Well here I am on day three without any oxy pills.  I woke up with the shakes, sweats, diarrhea all over again. Here we go, I HATE feeling this way. I found some Buspar to take the edge off and get rid of all the anxiety feelings I have.  I took one and feel better.  I really don't want to relapse, now everything seems to be more psychological than physiological.  This inner voice keeps telling me to call my dealer and just two and only take them when the w/d's kick in. I'm fighting it back though. Tired of being broke, tired of always trying to find pills.  Can be so tedious at times, and I'm so much better than this. I deserve so much more in life and it is time to break this chain of addiction!  I'm finally done and I want and will have a long prosperous life of sobriety.  From age 25 to age 32 I did cocaine and drank alcohol almost everyday!  The day I found out that I was 5 weeks pregnant, I was hungover and that was the day I quit cocaine and quit drinking. I have not touched either since and don't have the urge to. I had a c section when I had my daughter and that was the day percocet was introduced into my life.  I didn't get addicted to it at that point, it wasn't until I was diagnosed with having kidney stones and dr prescribed me oxycodone scripts for 90 at a time. This went on for about 6 months. Now here I am......addicted!  I WANT OUT NOW

[clean_in_ks]

Good for you Doodlebug!!!

[Doodlebug87]

Now I have noone to get them from (the pills). I had to to it because I know what would've happened tomorrow. Someone would probably call me saying they have some and then there I would break and buy a couple. But no more. I'm in this for the long haul. I choose life, I want to be around when my daughter starts school and when she graduates and goes to college. I want to be here for her through all if the good and bad times she's going to go through in her life. I broke down and told my mom, she's helping me and holding me accountable. So now it'll be easier for me to continue through down this path to sobriety. I will continue to post my progress and I thank you very much for being supportive. I will do the same for you, for we are all in this together!

[Doodlebug87]

Thanks greatly for the advice and suggestions.  I am doing better now than I was earlier. I've made up my mind that I'm definitely not reaching out to any one to get any pills. Tomorrow will be day 4 for me and that will be the longest that I haven't used.  I know I can do this. I just deleted all of my contacts that I used to get my pills so now I have Boone t

[BiancaJade87]

I am a single mother of 3 kids and also addicted to oxycodone. I totally feel your pain girl, I started using hydrocdone after I gave birth to my son a year ago and since then my use has steadily increased. But these drugs are not helping us: they are health, money, & true happiness stealers. I was also on this site and quit taking them for almost a month but relapsed as well. I am quitting today, I will be going through the same withdrawal you're going through but you're ahead of me. At the end of this detox is a whole life of clarity and freedom from the destruction of opiate addiction..We can spend time with our children clear-headed and with less guilt and shame. Great job on the first two days and not calling your dealer. I will be reaching out on this site when I'm feeling weak and tempted. Thank you for posting !

[Ejm7263]

Welcome. Thank GOD you got back here & how wonderful for you & your child. Your amazing. Do some different things. Do everything the people on here tell you. I'm 11 days today off methadone I've been very ill every day but I've gotten out & gone to an AA/NA meeting & everything else everyone said; vitamins, baths....
So very proud of you!!!!!

[clean_in_ks]

It's great that you are back so quickly after your relapse....gotta do a few things different this time around, right?  As long as your head knows you have a way to get pills....it will SCREAM at you and convince you to "just get 1 or 2" for this or that....it's a LIE.  Your Dr. AND your dealer BOTH need to know you are done....and as soon as you cut off ANY access....you will feel progress psychologically too.  You can't take Tylenol 3's or any OTHER narcotic if you don't want to awaken the beast of addiction.  Thinking we can "get by" with ANY other narcotic just because it wasn't our DOC (drug of choice) is just a lie our addictive heads tell us.

Having someone close to you that can hold you accountable is HUGE.  If we don't have any accountability, as addicts we can sneak one here or there and use behind our secret.  Do you have someone that you can talk to that will support you?
Lastly, since you used coke and alcohol for 7 yrs and now find yourself addicted to oxy's....some type of aftercare/recovery support would be the best gift you could give to yourself.

We're rootin for ya~