Dec18

Here I am. I tryed to cut back yesterday on the Norco, but for the entire day I only cut back by about "the small half" of a pill. I posted about that. I didnt really feel w/d at all so I guess for me right now any day that I dont INCREASE my dosage is a good day. And then I had a bad night last night bcuz I did not take all the ambien that I usually do. I hate that I'm counting. I cut my amount by  25% and did not sleep very well, nightmares too. I just want to get rid of all this poison in my body. I just see no way right now. Its like there is not a darn thing I can do, including sleep, that I dont need a pill for. I feel so terrible to see that in writing. I'm going to keep writing and posting though. I dont expect a whole lot of response but I just want to keep re-emphasizing that this site is sorta all I got right now and if you are paying attention and there ever is a missed day (Note the date for the subject line) then you will know that I did something that I cant bear to write an honest post. So anyway thats my plan for now, just to keep posting and keep reminding myself that I have to post each day. Meanwhile working on the ambien problem. But I've never had any checks/balance except that I think about this site more each day. Also, I plan to attend Church tomorrow too. Church has always been a positive thing in my life that can help me. And for the record, I always always always go to the Morning service and I MAKE myself go while NOT taking any pills sunday mornings until AFTER! It makes me feel so great. I really do feel great (best) in the mornings. But especially Sunday morning! Well, until about 16hours and I cave.I eventually get out of the w/d feeling but emotionally my day is downhill. Every time.

[Wolfmedicine]

Hey Man,

You are not alone.  Ther are many people on this board myself included that have and are experiencing similar situations to yours.  Please let us help.  If you can give us some more insight in to your situation, I as well as others will be able to help you much better.  How much Norco and ambien do you take daily and for how long?  Under a Drs. supervision or not?  Please advise and we can get back to you with some help.

Church is always a good thing.  Spiritual strength can get you through a lot that  you might not otherwise get through.  I've gone to Church many times in pretty rough shape.  Tomorrow I'll go feeling good and happy to see my wife singing in the Choir.

Best,

WM

[tired_of_oxy]

I posted yesterday to you, not sure if you saw it but maybe hitting an NA meeting or two now might set you in the right direction and you'll get some friends and support to help whenever you do decide enough is enough and quit.

We aren't hopeless, we are down but not out. Not even close. As long as were still suckin air we can do something about this addiction. But thing is it can lead to where we ain't suckin air anymore..so sooner the better for getting off these evil drugs.

Is there a minister or someone at the church you can talk to about this? God can heal all and our addictions are no match for God. If he sees us trying to get clean he will help us through it.