Detoxing

[Frickazee]

Day one is almost over. I've been on norco for 3 years, and decided it was time to quit taking them. In praying a lot, staying hydrated and trying to keep my head up... Could really use some support! I'm new to this site but everyone seems great.

[akitagurl12]

Sleep as much as you can, especially during these first 2 weeks.
It takes alot of energy for our bodies and minds to detox & adjust, and I found sleep a welcomed relief when I was detoxing.  
Drinking alot of water and gatorade really helped me too, and of course this website.  
Hang on, there is a light at the end of this tunnel and it feels great not to be controlled by pills.

[Frickazee]

Slept until 1 pm today. Guess my body needed it, feling a little depresssed like I wasted my day though:(

[YesLife4Me]

Yay!  :)  

[Frickazee]

Your poem was inspiring! Made me feel better. I did sleep last night though finally!!! You guys have saved me in soo many ways in this hard time. I never feel alone w y'all here. I use the mobile version on my iPhone so I take y'all everywhere w me haha. Keep my head up. The inspiring words from you guys is what helps keep me going.

[Frickazee]

I just bad. Guilty ( idk why) depressed, bored,

[Bubulous]

Of course it passes.  Everyone gets depressed no matter who you are but it is a process getting out of it for us.  I hope you believe that it gets better.  I am bipolar type one which means I have the capacity to fall into a bottomless abyss of depression.  My depression is different than most people's and it always a battle keeping myself out of it.  I am in a good place now.  It took alot of work and meds to get me to this place but believe if I can do it anyone can.  Everything starts and ends in an instance it doesn't matter how long it takes.  The longer you stay in depression the better it will feel when you come out of it.  Think of it as a rubberband that is being pulled downward.  In the instance it is released you will snap out of it.  Keep fighting but don't spend all your time trying to come out of depression.  Trying means you can fail.  Doing means you won't fail no matter the outcome, with no regrets you win.

I am not right about anything.  I just know that I don't know and it keeps me centered and spiritual.

Have a great day

Larry

[YesLife4Me]

Excellent poem!   Exactly hits on how we all feel.  Thank you for sharing.

Frick, the depression is part of the wd...post and let us know how you are doing and if we can help.   It does pass.  

[Pat1956100]

It's very good and very powerful.  

[Bubulous]

Yeah I wrote that in treatment and it was actually for a friend that still struggles with his recovery.  Of course all of the ones I write have some of my pain mixed in there too but it is a creative outlet for my pain.

Thanks

Larry

[Pat1956100]

Talk to us sweety.  Maybe you finally got some sleep but we are here for you.

[Bubulous]

The depression is the worst thing for me.  I don't know that they want me to put my poems on here but they do not good on the social forum and some of them are inspiring.....this is one:

One day at a time, I hear that alot
But they don't understand the pain that I've got
I've let through He!! and the trauma seems stronger
Than my will to recover, I pace and I ponder
I brood for hours, I need to get high
My body is aching, God close your eyes
I don't want you to see this, I'll just let you down
I'm out of your reach in this poisoness town
I know a dealer, he trusts me alot
I've got enough gas, I'll give it a shot
I'll just borrow three, I'm fronting again
Soon I'll have money, I'll pay him back then
I pull up to his house,now I want more
I'm pusjing my luck, but I'll ask him for four
I sit on his couch and ask him for ten
He says that he's out, he's lying again
Now I am screwed, I don't have the gas
To search any more without having cash
Had I just asked for three perhaps he'd gave in
Back in my bedroom, the withdrawals kick in
I can't concentrate, if I could I would fight
The daytime is torture, it's no better at night
Awake in my bed, sore from the pacing
I toss and I turn, my mind begins racing
Forgive me everyone for the lies that I told
For my reckless behavior and the things that I stole
Alone with my thoughts the sadness I feel
Subsides into sleep, the nightmares seem real
I wake drenched in sweat and pray maybe today
This cycle will end and I'll be okay
But peace will not come until the fear of change
Is less than the pain of staying the same

Hope you feel better

[Teresa1717]

Depressed how? Did something happen or are you just feeling this from the w/d's? How can we help you?

[Frickazee]

Very depressed.

[Frickazee]

Hanging in there... 90 hours!

[toothfairie]

i was up at 6...... slept few hours but not much...how are you feeling??

[Frickazee]

Can't slept. Nyone awake?

[YesLife4Me]

That's your brain telling you to use something to take away the ickies.  I've tried that, but it didn't really make me feel any better.   Well sort of, but mostly tired.   Alcohol is really a depressant, so while it gives you an initial buzz, after it wears off, you are still left with the wd feelings mentally.   The same thing with Marijuana.  I don't know what your history is with alcohol, but for many it becomes a substitute for the pain pills and then they have a new addiction to kick.   Plus your brain is working overtime trying to restabilize itself right now, so any substance you add in throws it off while in early wd.   Just be careful.  

[Lovemomof2]

Don't give in....it will be so hard on your body! You have made it this far, don't turn back now. It is going to get better. You are strong! Already on day 3 going on 4 and you are working! That is amazing and you are about to turn a corner.

[Frickazee]

My head is telling me to get some Lcohol tonight... In really really craving some hard alc.. Grant me the serenity...

[Frickazee]

I made it to hour 73 since my last pill!!!!!!!!!!! I'm working all day, just gotta stay positive!!! I'll stay posting in this thread. Thanks y'all

[D713]

Hang in there we all been through it...it's the worst feeling...and it's ugly but WE ARE STRONGER THEN THESE EVIL PILLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[toothfairie]

hang in there....i know it's hard!!   but you can do it!  if i can....you can.....keep posting and reading the posts.....you are gonna make it!!  we are all here for you!!  

[Fireby29]

Hang in there Frick and keep posting.  When you get through detox, we can start talking about getting that brain of yours healed up.

Bryan

[YesLife4Me]

It is hard, not going to lie.   You are about to turn a corner at 72 hours, so hang tight and hang with us.  We will help talk you through this.   What you are doing is a GOOD thing.