Disappointed in myself

[MsHelper]

Today was supposed to be day 5 no pills. I already got through the worst part of it, days 2-3 & was just starting to feel a tiny bit better. But then, I found an old perc I had & I decided to take half of it, and the other half hours later. I felt great for that brief time period, mellow,  no pain, no anxiety but it's all fake. I really do have those feelings right now & I need to allow myself to go through this, totally, if I'm ever to reach sobriety. By day 4 & 5, I was still feeling sooooooo damn tired and weak, it really knocked me out.I think I took that pill because I was sick of feeling that way. Well, here it goes again. I'm going to be a slug with no capability of using my pseudo muscles. Not happy with myself & that poor decision.

[dominosarah]

Dont spend alot of time beating yourself up.  Set yourself for success now.  You learned a hard lesson here so take that knowledge and turn it into something positive for you.,,,Aftercare will help you with that.

[jifmoc]

It's done now, so just move on, girl.  Do you have ANY others? Make sure your home is clean and you cut all your sources. Have you started aftercare yet? It's a must!!