Dumbest thing anyone has done to get pills???

[Jessica5683]

Well,
Yesterday, I was stupid enough to drop a slege hammer and a 24 pack of Dr Pepper on my foot for the only reason to get pills. Hopw pathetic am I? Although it worked and now I have my pills and feel like such an ass and a pathetic addict and some what guilty. So, my question is, has any of you done something as stupid as I did yesterday? Please let me know I'm not the only addict freak willing to do anything to get pills? I have to say though, it opened my eyes to how bad my addiction really is. It made me do a lot of thinking about maybe it's time I get some real help like putting my into detox and coming clean about my abuse with pills. I must admitt it scares me because in coming clean they put it in your record and then so much for getting pills in the future. Although maybe that is what I really need because I have easy access to pills through my rhuematiod arthritis doctor. I would have had pills but he went on vacation and was unable to fill my script. So what do I do, I freak out and injure myself to get me by till he gets back from vacation. Anyway, I would love to read what others have done to get pills just so I know I'm NOT crazy and not alone in my stupidity! Thanks Love Jessica Please NO ONE HATE ME for what I did yesterday

[percsnomas]

CONGRATS on 9 complete!!
After you 36 months, we'll have a celebratory drink together.....
Hasta Luego Magnifico!!

[peaz]

Yes, I'm going on ---Hey!! Today is my nine-month anniversary!!!  Yippee for me.  It's slowly getting more interesting.  Some days I feel like what Abe Lincoln said" People are about as happy as they make up their minds to be". Ya know?  If I sit and dwell on an unhappy thought, then pretty soon I can find a whole bunch of stuff to gripe about and set a crappy tone for the day.  And vice/versa.  Sounds pretty psycho to me.....
  It seems I  do remember Skipper's dialogue on Canucks and butt insertions...He's always been "anal retentive"  HA HA HA!!
I am just rambling, now--I'll spare you.    Peaz

[percsnomas]

...toooofunny/coincidental. We stayed right next door to Playa Mazatlan(can't remember the name; but we frequented Playa as there was a bus load of Bust Loose hotties staying there)

I'm glad your feeling better today!!!!!
In previous posts, did you say you've been clean 9+ months?

I'm doing real well; can't believe there can be such a great life w/o those ******* percs(or "marriage counsellars" as they are called by my buds).
I live in Calgary,Canada(contrary to what Skipper thinks, we all are not pre-occupied with sticking things up our asses...)Wifey's from Wash. State though.

[percsnomas]

Buenos manana!!(i don't have access to cmpt on weekends)
Just reading your spanish, made me flashback to the old university days...and how much i've forgotten.
Although, it did save my buddy and myself some major grief when we were in Mazatlan. Seems we were partying with some of the locals at Senor Frogs, and things got way out of control...huge fight ensued. Well all i remember is having my appendages pulled in every direction and speaking spanish as fast as i could. Next thing we know we wake up in some strange place, blah blah blah.
Next day we fly out to Seattle, to catch connecting flight, and my buddy and i are sitting in lounge sipping on a cold one...and this girl comes up to us and procedes to tell us how lucky we were last night, that these "locals" were some federalies kids and were all packing and looking for some fun(and went on to tell us two nights previous they bootfu@#ed a guy so bad he lost his eye)....

Sad thing is now, i remember sooo lit'l spanish, i'm trying to figure if you signed the 'manificent woman'
Anyways, mui bien y tu!

[peaz]

Yeah, I made the "woman " comment as we had such a hard time figuring out my gender last week.....
WELL GET THE **** OUTTA DODGE!!!!!!!  I, TOO, have been to Mazatlan and had oysters on the half-shell at Senor Frogs!!!!!!!!  That is TOO coincidental.  It was quite awhile ago--I was working on the Trans-Alaska Pipeline at the time, and flew down in the middle of January for some warmth.  Loved the beaches....Can't remember where I stayed---Playa Mazatlan, I think.  Anyway, Amigo, you're lucky you got outta there alive.  Do you live near Seattle?  You mentioned the airport on your trip back.  That was always my last stopover before heading back to AK. It's a cool town.
This has been a fun trip down memory lane..... I was surprised to see your reply since this post is nearly in the depths of hell....  I just posted where I last saw your name.  Hope everything is going well for you.  I was in the dumps yesterday, but what a difference a good night's sleep (I sleapt EIGHT hours---unheard of for me) and a new day can make. (hey--Isn't there a song about that? " What a Difference a Day Makes")  Hasta Kapoochie--Peaz

[peaz]

!Buenas diaz!
  Como estas y donde estas?   Escribe una carta, porfavor.
  Buena suerte-Peaz  ( la mujer magnifico)


  P.S.  I don't have to mention my Spanish sucks.....it's been too long....

[Chezz]

LoL
Its not whats its all cracked up to be. different issues, same result.
Still got issues. We are never free from those. It keeps life interesting.
Chezzz

[percsnomas]

Have a good night(as lit'l pain as possible)

[percsnomas]

just mean missing some of those arduous/energy draining posts that can be sooooo non-constructive(that tend to be lower threads), and allowing you to continue to steer the ship.
After all, it seems you've got the knack... I showed my wife a bunch of these posts, and her reply was"why can't you express yourself like that". Thanks Bigguy. I'm just nother big dumb guy

[Chezz]

watcha mean?

[percsnomas]

YES YOU CAN....you just have to read from the top down(maybe avoiding the bottom altogether)

[Chezz]

Hey, Nobody said I could handle this sh## too much longer.

[percsnomas]

Welcome back Dr. Michael!!
For the most part, this place has been very upbeat...lots of recovering going on.
Always needy of you expertise though...

[mrmichael67]

It is good that someone is taking over the task.  I started to get real tired of this place.  Someone always had an attitude.  I just figured I would stop by and read a little.

[Chezz]

Thanks Jess. I don't think I could go through this for a year.

It is so hard to go through this. I want to help as much as I can.

Hopefully I will be able to stay. Although, yesterday I felt like skipper/hipppy about movin-on.

I will try.
Chezz

It is hard for me to think that I will be still dealing with this long term. It is hard. I want to help. But I don't want to "remember". I want to close this chapter and move-on. That won't be for awhile I guess. I will stay as long as I can.

[GOD]

Hey guy,

I am SO pleased that you are taking over the "Duty" of welcoming the newbies now. As you may know from reading the board recently, I'm movin' on, and will probably only post very infrequently. You are an asset to this little piece of the internet, and I hope you'll stick around and put in your "tour of duty"-- I've been here posting daily for about a year and it has been so benifecial to my sense of well-being that no dollar amount spent with a shrink could even come close.

The torch has been passed~

Jess

[Chezz]

Glad to hear that it helped. No...I give credit where it is due, and this time it was me. Actually everything I write is just what comes to me. I just write what I feel.
That is why it is so hard sometimes.
I'm happy to hear that it at least got you to POST.
Keep posting/writing it helps,
Chezz

[Jessica5683]

Thanks everyone for your comments. Although that was by far the stupids thing I ever did it probably was the smartest thing I ever did. I say that because I felt things I hadnt felt in a long time like, Jess you are better then this and Jess, Your a lot stronger then you give yourself credit for, and most of all, It made me want to be clean. Now, there are times were I tried to get clean but this feeling in me now was not with me then. Does that make any since to anyone???? I guess it was a complete slap in the face to really how bad off my addiction really is and I needed to see that and feel it. So, again thanks for all the comments and once again I'm going clean but need help and may put me into a rehab or at the very least get my butt to NA this time around. Love to everyone and ((((((((HUGS)))))))))) Jessica

[iusedtobeme]

Thanks Chezz...
  I have lurked for a while now, never had to guts to post, but HAD to say thanks. I have heard a lot of helpful words before but yours- "Personally I want to spend my time "chasing" sobriety. It costs less, hurts less, and I will always love myself for doing it."  -whether it's 'yours' or borrowed doesnt matter it really hit home, I needed it. Thanks again

[kell737]

And Yes, I've also faked tooth ache and headaches.   Addicts do some crzy things!

~Kell

[DIRTBAG]

the dumbest thing i've ever done, wow I have done so many, i have let myself and many loved ones down over many years of addiction.  I suppose that the biggest sin I commit now is that I lie and steal from the people around me all the time, my family and friends.  I will do anything and pay anything for pills and tomorrow I wiil start on my path again.  YOu can be sure that my plan is already in motion, I'm sick I hurt and I just want vicodin..  It is what makes my life happy vicodin its my blood

[pon]

Michael is right...plain and simple.  Everyone here has probably done some pretty dumb and desperate things to get what their addiction tells them to...doesn't matter what your addiction is, we've all cheated our way into the meds, booze, whatever at some point...

Thing is this though...when you start thinking the way you are right now, you have to use it to your advantage...I don't know who said it in a post above, that addicts don't love/like ourselves...but I've founfd that to be true also...so, don't hate yourself for what you did, if you wallow in it you are just feeding the lack of self worth that propels your addiction.

Take this thought as the ray of sun breaking through the clouds you've been under...don't hate the person who did that...leave them behind...and become a person you like.  I know that sounds very easy...and it sure as hell isn't....but it is really what it is all about...clean up & become who you WANT to be, not who the pills make you.

I was sober from alcohol for 15 years before this time for me...I am 19 days clean now...and liking this clean person a whole lot better...

prayers,

pon

[Chezz]

wwwwwwwwhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaatttttttttttttt??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

DB. you can do this just like everyone else. YOU have to want it though.

If you aren't ready, you aren't.

Do you want to be fighting this battle for the rest of your life?

Personally, I want to move on.

I couldn't imagine buying on the streets and all that. It would make it harder to quit, that is for sure. But you can do it.

The fight sucks. You are always "chasing" the high. You will never catch it. Yet you spend all of your energy and time trying to get it.

Personally I want to spend my time "chasing" sobriety. It costs less, hurts less, and I will always love myself for doing it.
I hope you will too,
Chezz

[kell737]

Well, I've done some pretty stupid things to get Percocet.  Probably the stupidest thing I've ever done was  stealing them.  I get all my meds from a military pharmacy and  there all right there.   The technician walked around the corner to get my meds verified and I hopped over the counter grabbed a bottom of them and the  jumped back over and stuck them in my purse.  All that for about 20 pills left in that one bottle.  LMAO.   Oh well.... Clean 48 days now!!

~Kell