I have tried every OTC sleep aid possible, during opiate withdrawal u basically are not going to sleep unless you get heavily medicated on per scripted meds, it's just the nature of the beast. I slept better yesterday, I think it just takes 2-3 weeks before you get a good sleep in between some bad ones. Besides the mental aspect it's by far the worst symptom IMO. I think I am pretty much over the majority of the physical, now it's just the lack of motivation and mundane lifestyle. However my situation is different because of where I currently live and work, not a fun place to deal with depression.
That last sentence was not meant to sound like a cheap shot or dig at u but as I read it thats how it sounded but please dont take it that way.
Have u tried any over the counter sleep aids lime tylenol p.m.(every headache medicine has a p.m.)I hear the nyquil thats just for sleep works well.Tbey benzos shouldnt be used to knock u out(as u know its to ease anxiety).Get something otc.Relapse happens but we will always find an excuse. If u read ur own post u say u relapsed on ur DOC because u basically dont want to take another medication thats addictive.
So it's been 10 days since my one time relapse (12 days clean before that) and my sleep is still messed up. I went to treatment overseas so when I came back to my job I had to completely shift my time schedules. I work 8pm to 6am and basically crash from 8am to 11:30 - noon and then lay around all day hoping to get tired and catch a nap before pulling another 10 hour shift (I work 7 days a week as well). It's literally been torture, I have to make up lies and excuses why I can't seem to get my sleep adjusted because the people I work with have no idea. Starting to think the sleeping meds they gave me through treatment are adding to the insomnia. I was given seroquel and Xanax close to every night for about 14 days.
I guess i just eff'ed my body up and want a quick resolution,I was taking a large volume of pills regardless of their perceived level of addiction. At one time I was taking over 1000mg of DHC a day, that's 10 120mg pills at one shot, and I was able to function. That stuff is basically morphine. I would swallow 12-15 pills of tramadol at a time and not even feel it. My tolerance level was that of an elephant.
Yea, when I was at the rehab center I was surprised at how active and happy all these people were there, going to the gym and crap. Then I started to hear their stories and most were on Meth, Coke, or Crack. We think of Pain Meds as not being as hardcore but I think the recovery portion is much harder. Although everyone's DOC is different.
Its been 2-3 days since my relapse and although I dont feel great I think its the lack of sleep. I dont have any physical withdrawals besides insomnia, but the mental stuff is pretty bad. I wish I could just fast forward a week.....
You are so right about the crack addiction. People come down from that and then sleep for days. I am not saying they don't have the mental part, but boy they sure don't have the withdrawal part. And yes sleep and low energy I truly believe are the worst of the withdrawals along with the anxiety. Hang in there, from what I here it gets easier.
It's really been messing with my head because I feel so mentally down thinking its a result of that one relapse even if it was a small dose of a lower level opioid. I just work in a very hostile environment that requires long hours and no days off. I won't give details but just think of the worst war ridden country right now. Because of this I can't talk to anyone either. Since I went to treatment in another time zone it's making it twice as hard to sleep since being back. I am going to try to rough it out but f*ck it ***** here.
PAWS would not occur so quickly, imo.
You need to give yourself much, much more time to heal than 12 days. I wasn't even developing my long term symptoms until day 14. I got a horrible cough that lasted for 90 days.
Can you exercise gently instead of "training?" Maybe a long walk? I know it helped a lot with my sleep issues.
Good luck.
Oh and I actually tapered off over 2 weeks and then have been 12 days completely off, so everything was out of my system. I got on Wellbutrin about 1.5 weeks ago to hopefully help with the PAWS. I actually admitted myself to a treatment center for 2.5 weeks to stop all this, which is why I feel so guilty for slipping. The lack of sleep and energy far outweights any other withdrawal symptom. I would of rather had a crack cocaine habit, at least the withdrawals are 10x's easier....
Those 4 pills have been wearing on my mind for the last 13 hours now, I am not worried that I will get physical withdrawals because its a pretty low dose considering what I was taking and I actually felt it. However, I know it takes awhile for the brain to heal and setting that back is what bothers me the most. I actually flushed everything I have, so now I have no option to get anymore even if I crave. Its too much hard work to quit just to go back because of weakness. The gym used to be my outlet but when I dont sleep its really hard to go into the gym and actually workout, I got really sick during my withdrawal with a chest infection and worry about hurting my immune system more by training on no sleep.
I really feel your pain. You are in a tough situation with working and flying all over the world for work? I don't think detoxing on that schedule is going to work. Maybe if you took some vacation time? I am day 2 off of opiates and today has a worse symptom than yesterday. Have you ever detoxed ct before? I would suggest maybe tossing all the pills, take a vacation from work, and then do it. Unless you call your dr. and have him put you on a slow tapering plan. Good luck!