Fighting the battle

Oxycontin slowly took over my life like a cancer. After 2 yrs of a 160mg habit I put myself into a 4 day detox where I was put on suboxone. I'm home now and going on day 7 of being clean. I still feel kinda sick, mostly creepy crawlies up my back and sweats. The worst part by far is the depression and feelings of hopelessness. I feel like nothing in the world can make me happy except oxys. I can't stand my family, friends or anyone else. I don't want to do anything and nothing in the world gets me excited about life. Im just miserable and lost. I plan on joining the gym in a few days, eating right, taking vitamins, and going to NA meetings. It's so much easier said than done though and even though I know these things will help, I am still having an impossible time giving myself that initial jumpstart. All I have been doing since I got home from detox is lay in bed. Any suggestions on how to give myself that boost so that I can begin to put my life back together and live a happy life without poisoning myself with those chemicals? And when will I start feeling happy enough to the point that I don't even consider taking pills ever again? Because right now it is all I think about and in my distorted mind I still feel like oxycontin is my savior when in reality it is nothing less than evil in the form of a freakin pill.

[Lotsatrout]

Yeah... the tough part really is the mental aspect.  Your endorphines (what make ya feel good) have been masked by an impersonator called oxy.  You've got to get them working again and the only way to do that is to find something that you enjoy doing and do it no matter how simple it is.  Some may like an ice cream before bed.  That increases their endorphines and the more that we stimulate them in a positive manner the quicker you and I will feel "normal" again.  It really does work.

Trout

[gizzy32]

first of all, congrats on a week clean, that is a great start, you should be proud. those feelings you are having are completely normal. that is how i felt my first few weeks of quitting. i was so full of anger and guilt, but the depression was the worst.

i think it would be a good idea to check out some n/a meetings, they helped me get started in my recovery. try to stay busy, even if at times if you have to force yourself to get up and do something.  just sitting there thinking about pills makes it worse.  i promise you things will get better, but it takes time, hang in there and stay strong, you can do this.  stay on this forum, you will get a lot of support.

[shelly405]

Vitamins and supplements really help get rid of those feelings. Here is a list of what I took during withdrawals. I still take all of it daily, but only 1 of the C and B complex:
B Complex - 3 per day
Ester-C 6 a day
MSM - 4 a day (This is sulphure, a naturally occuring miniral in our bodies)
Hyaluronic Acid - 2 a day
Red Marine Algae - 6 a day
Bee Caps - 2 a day
All One powedered vitamins with juice - 1 tbsp. 2wice a day
Lots of water
3 bananas a day.
You get all of this at a health food store, but there is a place online called vitacost that has everything up to 60% less than in stores.

www.vitacost.com

[zzzaaaccckkk]

dont know how accurate this is but does oxy kill the dophamine in the brain and may take a couple of months to correct. That could account for some of your feelings. This is what was said to me on this forum days ago. Could be wrong.  Iam on day 6 and I feel good then tired then pissed off.  But I do now iam happy and going to b the man I once was. And so will u. This life is not a dress rehearsal. U get on shot