Fighting urges and staying positive

[Sparky76]

Yesterday proved to be a rather good day all though I had to struggle with my self for a portion of the day not to call my dealer but I overcame the urge and just took it easy at home with the family. I the mornings are hardest for me cause I'm use to waking up and right away doing a few bumps of oxy or h and I haven't done neither in over 3 days. It takes me a little bit longer to wake up without the drugs but I have been taking lots of vitamins and supplements to help balance my mood and my pain. I'm doing the best I can to stay positive and not sit and just dwell on negative stuff. I actually have a lot of great stuff going on with my family and I. My wife and I are expecting another child and I have just started my own business and I think I see light at the end of the tunnel!

[On2better]

You are doing awesome! Every time you fight those urges and tell yourself no, you are retraining you brain. Don't cave! We're here for you friend!

[Imdone42]

Valerian root, wth is that and what's that supposed to do?  I'm on day 2 of cold turkey! Through the worse of it I hope! Don't know if I can handle another day like that! The throwing up was worse than I have ever known!

[Sparky76]

Thank I really appreciate the support and I hear ya on the Xanax and I'm trying to be cautious with them as well. My doctor told me he was only writing me a script for that this 1 time.. I'll try the valerian root and I have been using other supplements to help with giving me energy and keeping my mood balanced

[selfinduced]

Sometimes a relapse is necessary to show us the powerful hold these pills have on us. Good thing is you experienced being clean and know how much better you felt right? Your wife sounds amazing and your plan sounds great! All you need now is time. Not to be a downer, but just a caution about the xanax. Stop it as soon as you can. I feel into the benzo trap (ativan), when I was w/ding and then had to tackle that. Try valerian root, sleepy time teas and hot baths when anxiety hits. Take the x's only when the anxiety is truly unbearable. I have a great feeling about you. You have come so far in a short time. Stay strong and positive. YOU GOT THIS!!

[Sparky76]

Thank you self induced-- I'm doing the best I can. I can't remember if I mentioned this in a prior post or not but I have not abused or snorted anything in over 3 days and I recently had about 4-6 weeks clean but relapsed. I am down to 2 legally prescribed pills a day which are controlled by my wife, which I think is pretty good considering just a week ago I was abusing up to 20 pills a day as well as several bags of h. The last few pills my wife has been dispensing me are te non crushable ones that can't be abused and my wife only gives them to me if she sees I'm in a lot of pain. I had a severe injury several years ago which is how this whole addiction started. I also spoke to my doctor and they gave me a small dose of Xanax to help with the withdrawals which my wife also controls.. All in all I feel good and I think it's because I'm talking to a lot of people and trying to stay busy as well as taking lots of vitamins and supplements and it seems this time around the withdrawal hasn't been as bad. I really would like to get out and go to some na meetings but I feel bad leaving my pregnant wife home alone with a 5 year old and a 3 yr old after I'm at work all day..... #grateful# thankyou God

[selfinduced]

Your doing GREAT! Please don't cave to those urges. Thats just our mind demanding the drug it's been so used to. You are well on your way and lord knows you don't want the mental and physical of those last few days played over and over. The short satisfaction will only **** you off and start the cycle again. Congrats on your soon to be new baby. How cool it will be to experience that clean. Keep busy, and exercise as much as possible. Good luck.