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Figured Out My Addiction
It seems my life revolves around making others happy with nothing in return, which may seem like a good thing, but i guess that the only reason i live to make others happy, what a sad existence, the only thing that truely makes me happy are my 2 boys, but the other 21 hours of the day i have nothing, but sleep and stress trying to please everyone, when to me it doesnt seem like anyone gives a **** about me, im not suicidal at all, im just sick of my life and everyone in it, so i guess this is why opiates work well for me b/c nothing else makes me happy except my boys
At least you have 2 boys - I have 2 cats....
Lots of friends I'll have to change if they can't except I don't party anymore. As for work I'm in Hollywierd, need I say more! All anyone wants around me is to use me & make $.
Bad days SUCK! I'm not into cheese emails but my friend sent me a cute one.
- Her son was having a bad day so his father offered him a piece of cake, the son said YEA! So the father laid out a bowl of flower, raw egg, and a stick of butter. The son looked at the father & said "Dad what this?" His father replied - well individually these don't seem so good but, together they're great!
So today might suck but in the BIG picture it might be some shi**y thing you have to go through in order to become GREAT!
Lets Hope -
Lots of friends I'll have to change if they can't except I don't party anymore. As for work I'm in Hollywierd, need I say more! All anyone wants around me is to use me & make $.
Bad days SUCK! I'm not into cheese emails but my friend sent me a cute one.
- Her son was having a bad day so his father offered him a piece of cake, the son said YEA! So the father laid out a bowl of flower, raw egg, and a stick of butter. The son looked at the father & said "Dad what this?" His father replied - well individually these don't seem so good but, together they're great!
So today might suck but in the BIG picture it might be some shi**y thing you have to go through in order to become GREAT!
Lets Hope -
In very early Recovery people frequently asked me if I was depressed. Some just told me that I was depressed. I thought they were such idiots. I was not depressed - I don't GET depressed. Once, after hearing that question/comment a few too many times, I tried to explain to someone that "I'm NOT DEPRESSED! I simply have an inability to feel enthusiastic about anything."
Betwwen about 4 and 6 months I wanted to kill myself every morning. I would wake up immediately aware of how I had ruined my life and for about an hour it would truly seem that the only reasonable option was suicide. One day I tried to explain to my counselor that "I'm not suicidal. I just go through periods where it seems like killing myself is the only solution."
You can imagine how effective explanations like that were. I mean what do you do when your denial of someone's unfounded assertion is clear and convincing proof of their assertion? You change the subject, that's what you do.
Sometimes early Recovery sucks. Sometimes life sucks. However, both are far better than the alternatives.
I always hate to hear this, but whenever I'm going through a down period someone tells me that I "need to make a Gratitude List." It generally makes me feel like telling them to take their own list and shove it . . . But I don't do that. I make the damn list. I write down every single thing I can think of, no matter how small, for which I am grateful. It's amazing how well that can work, even when I positive that it won't -- perhaps especially when I positive that it won't.
An attitude of gratitude can make a world of difference.
Those amino acids help me a lot too. I'm a big fan of End Your Addiction Now, by Charles Gant, Seven Weeks to Sobriety, by Joan Larsen and The Mood Cure, by Julia Ross.
CATUF
Betwwen about 4 and 6 months I wanted to kill myself every morning. I would wake up immediately aware of how I had ruined my life and for about an hour it would truly seem that the only reasonable option was suicide. One day I tried to explain to my counselor that "I'm not suicidal. I just go through periods where it seems like killing myself is the only solution."
You can imagine how effective explanations like that were. I mean what do you do when your denial of someone's unfounded assertion is clear and convincing proof of their assertion? You change the subject, that's what you do.
Sometimes early Recovery sucks. Sometimes life sucks. However, both are far better than the alternatives.
I always hate to hear this, but whenever I'm going through a down period someone tells me that I "need to make a Gratitude List." It generally makes me feel like telling them to take their own list and shove it . . . But I don't do that. I make the damn list. I write down every single thing I can think of, no matter how small, for which I am grateful. It's amazing how well that can work, even when I positive that it won't -- perhaps especially when I positive that it won't.
An attitude of gratitude can make a world of difference.
Those amino acids help me a lot too. I'm a big fan of End Your Addiction Now, by Charles Gant, Seven Weeks to Sobriety, by Joan Larsen and The Mood Cure, by Julia Ross.
CATUF
Blot, you are having a bad day and that is ok and its part of life. Im a people pleaser too and I think I numb myself with pain meds and beer because I do try to please people and when they in turn treat me badly it hurts and badly. I think we both need to figure out WHY we have a need to please others? Is it because we are looking to get our self worth and affirmation from others? Is it a nother form of trying to numb our pain? Is it codependancy? What ever the reason we need to do some soul searching and firgure it out and DEAL with it. I heard on Oprah the other day, that when emotions and hurt feelings that happened in childhood arent dealt with then, they just keep on hurting, just because we turn a certain age, the hurt doesnt go away. They are there deep in us needing to be acknowledged and dealt with so that we can move on. We are numbing them and they arent going anywhere. I dont wanna sound like im full of physco babble, but I really think this is true. Its a long hard road and sometimes life really hurts and suC&s. Sometimes it doesnt make a bit of sence and feels unfair. Its up to us to deal with it and be the best we can be. Im only on day 9 today. So I probably am in no position to be giving out any advice. My head is starting to clear up and I am beginning to see I need to be kind to me and realize that God does care about me and the "small" details of my life. How can I expect others to be kind to me if Im not going to be kind to myself? We gotta learn new ways of dealing. New ways of thinking. Please dont give up on yourself. You've helped so many people on this forum. You have alot to offer and you are NOT wasting anyones time. You are important in your life and here on this board. Give yourself the same grace you would give to someone else who feels the way you do!!!
All issues are important! So are you! i hate to keep saying this, but are you taking vitamins, minerals AND amino acids? You need to be pro-active with this. Are very chemical makeup has been altered. We are not the same as we once were. Just being clean is not enough. We need to help our body with the right ingredients!
im sick of doctors every doctor ive ever went to never fixxed anything just wasted my time and money, but anyway no one reply to this thread as i am wasting peoples time, when others have important issues to deal with, everyone have a good day, it seems like i cant take anyone advice on here so you all are just wasting time, good luck to you all ill be back some day
Life on life's terms honey......... No Rose gardens everyday.
You do sound depressed and I think it would e helpful to go get a good check up and speak with your doctor.
You do sound depressed and I think it would e helpful to go get a good check up and speak with your doctor.
does anyone know why life seems great somedays, but other days it just seems pointless?
Sorry. Sounds depressing. Hey do you consider yourself open-minded?
If you said "yes" than you need to get a hold of a copy of "The Secret". It's in movie form now and you can rent it at most libraries. Verrrry inspirational! It helped me to make decisions in my life and finally get to 'happy days'
I don't believe we're here to be miserable for others. Who enjoys being around a miserable person? Even Jesus said, "I've come here so that you may have life and have it "more abundantly".
If you said "yes" than you need to get a hold of a copy of "The Secret". It's in movie form now and you can rent it at most libraries. Verrrry inspirational! It helped me to make decisions in my life and finally get to 'happy days'
I don't believe we're here to be miserable for others. Who enjoys being around a miserable person? Even Jesus said, "I've come here so that you may have life and have it "more abundantly".
ibkleen yeah im trying to live up to my dad, my wife, and all these damn truck drivers, i dont have time for a hobby im to busy pleasing people, dove it would make me happy to quit my job but my bills are very very expensive each month, im happy with my wife, but she is demanding its her way or no way, i think its definatley a one-sided relationship
I am so sorry to hear that hun. You are young and you have so much to live for.
Happiness has to come from within. Also, if you are trying all the time to make others happy, you are setting yourself up for failure. You could never live up to everyone's expectations.
What about a hobby?
Happiness has to come from within. Also, if you are trying all the time to make others happy, you are setting yourself up for failure. You could never live up to everyone's expectations.
What about a hobby?
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