First Time Post...Looking for a little help

[BigWill79]

A little background...My junior year of college I began having panic attacks, which were not diagnosed for several months and this led to major depression.  After we figured out what was going on and began working on it (therapy and Zoloft).  I was much better and finished college and have been doing great, with a few minor panic episodes here and there.  As of September of 2007, I had not had a panic attack in over two years.  Just so you know.  In July 2007, my girlfriend had major surgery and was given Lortab 7.5 and percocet for her recovery.   Well, down hill it goes.  I called her doctor to say that her mom accidently took her medication and they called in new script.  My girlfriend had no idea I did this either.   After her supply ran out, I began getting scripts from a local doctor because of an old foot injury.  It was that simple.  Once my updated records showed I was given Hydro, it was on from there.  In October, I quit c/t after working my way up to about 12-15 10's a day.   W/d was hell and during them I began having panic attacks again.  These were the worst ever.  In fact, I had to go to the hospital because they became so bad.  My psychiatrist put me on Klonipin and we upped by Zoloft a little and after about two weeks, I was doing great.  No drugs, no drink, no anything.  Fast forward three weeks.  Relapse.  Just went c/t on Sunday the 5th.  Back up to about 8-10 10's a day.  The physical withdrawals were not as bad and the anxiety was actually ok.  My problem is that my depression coupled with anxiety is bad.  Not as bad as when I was in college but bad.  I work, go home, feel like ****, don't want to eat.  Have this feeling of doom and gloom.  Worry about my health constantly.  I guess I just want to see how others have dealt with this part of w/d.  Any thoughts are appreciated.  Thanks for reading.  

[didee1961]

Did I read correctly?  8 days clean, and ALREADY no withdrawal?   HOW?????

[didee1961]

Hang in there!  I'm almost 2 months cold turkey off 210 mgs daily of oxycontin, so, I KNOW where you're coming from.  I tell myself that if I pick it back up, I'm faced with ONLY 2 choices...........stay on it the rest of my life, OR repeat withdrawal.   NOT HAPPENING!!!   Please do read my earlier post, and you'll see how much we have in common, and, most importantly, that "hanging tough" IS within you.  You've just gotta dig REALLY deep to find it!   I told myself that I was DONE, and I do not like liars, even if it's ME.  Keep yourself busy and distracted as much as possible!!   I know you can push through.  Just remember...You can't fail until you quit!!!!!!!!

[enemy48]

Have you tried the Thomas recipe?

Tell me, what's the longest you've been clean?

Withdrawals are hell for everyone, but I believe it can be a wonderful reminder is you're clean, & think about having to go through this again.  I've relapsed many times after only 2 days before, b/c w/d's are too horrible.

By the way, I'm only 8 days clean, Thomas Recipe helped w/d 80%.  I'm just suffering boredom & pain, but no w/d's.

[liscamdave]

Ok, I am sorry this went unanswered. What is your question? I don't really understand? I will help in anyway I can....

Lisa

[BigWill79]

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