First day of ending my addiction to Norcos

[WINL51]

Hey all.  I've been taking a dozen or more norcos a day for the past 8 months or so.  I was clean for less than a month after getting of Oxy 30s, which I quit pretty much cold turkey.  The w/d wasn't as bad as I anticipated, but still not looking forward to being "out".  I have a few left, so I was going to try to wean down for a couple days to hopefully immeliorate some of the symptoms.  

Glad to have found this site because I definitely need support for this!!  

I have been suffering from depression (premenopause/menopause related and becoming an empty nester) for the last four years or so and found that the opiates helped with my depression and helped me "get through the day".  I need to find another way to cope.  I am on effexor right now and was on lexapro for 3 years before that.  I guess they work okay (I don't feel like bawling all the time at least), but I just want to feel happy without pharmaceutical help, at least of the opiate variety.

Any and all help and advice is greatly appreciated :-)

[WINL51]

I definitely plan on checking more areas of the site out.  I see what you mean about there being so much information.  Great place with great people!!

[VICourageous]

I agree 100% about the site. I always think if this was around 10 years ago and I would of joined I would of saved at least 10 years of getting in deeper. I have learned SO much on here..Have you checked out any other areas? We have Communitys A-Z and also alot of Health Infor A-Z and you can find videos to watch about different things. Like Thyroid,Bipolar,Liver, Hormones, Just tons and tons. Take a surf around it took me at least 3 months to figure it all out.Ha!!!
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[WINL51]

Thanks for the encouragement!  The "after" part is what I'm most afraid of - trying to live day by day without the "crutch" of opiates to make everything seem rosy.  I am definitely going to look for more support as I go along, especially since I have tried it on my own and it didn't work out so great.  I do think if I had joined a community like this the last time, I might have stayed clean longer if not permanently.  I look forward to sharing journeys.

[VICourageous]

Hi and Welcome. I did see what you said before you started our own post. I just wanted to say that we are around the same age, but I am a few years older and I can relate to the female thing. This is what stared this whole mess for me too. I got the hydo/oxys in the 90s and played the game to get the Methadone prescribed. I went ct from 3 meds at once and at my age it was not easy. There are many things I have to do to stay clean these days because I also used off and on for about 40 years and thought it was just the thing to do or it was the party and everyone was doing it..haha. Ya Right!  I go to both AA/NA and I have Family Support..My Hub is my biggest supporter. I have a Dr that is really, really good for me. I now study alot about the Brain and how different meds affect different Transmitter. I will tell you that I was talking with my Dr a few days ago and we like to discuss all about this. He knows, I know somethings about it, but then he also can go way over my head, but I sure do learn from him as well. I was told that it could take a Year or Two for me to balance back and I find it so true. I feel sharp and OK but it sometimes it will affect the body again. SO Anyway my point is, is this is what keeps me in line because I do not want to do any more damage then I have already did. Plus as we get older it is so much harder to bounce back quicker. Also Church is a great Support as well. I am getting very close to a Year but I know I have to live each min at a time and where my Armour to protect me from the Beast of Addiction. I do wish you the very best and I am sure you will make it through with flying colors. Just make sure you have some Support set up because the detox part is easy it is fighting the beast for the rest of your life that is the hard part..It does get a bit easier as time goes on. Like our CL on here Dominosarah always says, "GUARD UP" and I have to do this every single day.
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[WINL51]

Thanks and I will!!

[OpenMind24hours]

Congratulations on your decision to quit and get your life back. You're doing what I did. I finished up what I had left and that was it.  Cut all your sources and tell your Doctor you're quitting if that's where your norcos come from. your doctor can also help you with scripts like Clonidine. You should do well and get through to the other side in good shape. If you look below you'll see the Thomas Recipe. Get those items to help you through detox, make sure nothing conflicts with your present drug list. Hot baths will also help you with w the restlessness and muscle aches. Pick up some Epsom Salts for the baths. You should get lots of other feedback on this forum also. I wish you the best recovery!!

[WINL51]

I'm sure at some point I'll probably break down and tell someone, probably my daughter (she's a nurse).  She's a wonderful and compassionate person.  I know she wouldn't judge me.  I'm just really ashamed right now that I let myself get caught up in this vicious cycle YET AGAIN.  My user name is an acronym for Will I Ever Learn lol.  Hopefully, this will be the LAST time!

[Cira30]

Yes none if my family was aware. My first clean day I told my mom, I just had to. It made me feel so much better.

[WINL51]

I will!  It's nice not to feel alone.  The first time I went through it, my family all knew about it, but this time, I was much sneakier and nobody knows, so you know how alone I have been feeling.  I have a great family and I don't want to let them down!!  This is what I needed the first time I got clean.  I tried a local detox/substance abuse program, but I have felt more support in the short time I have been on this forum than I ever did with the so called professional help.  

[Cira30]

I guess you know my story from the other threads. Day 4, our habit and motive sounds alike. Stick close this site. These first 4 days I have been on here religiously. It just helps keep me motivated. Seeing the people who are free from the chains for years, and they are happy!!! I want to be the woman I am meant to be and I feel at this point nothing is gonna stop me!! We just will stick it out together