Floating on a cloud :)

I hope I never lose this happy feeling of being clean.  I have put my life on hold for a while with those stupid sleeping pills and now I am out of the fog and floating on the clouds.  I have enjoyed my summer with my daughters and I think they are enjoying me again.  My oldest (16) and I have not had a bad relationship, but we haven't been nearly as close.  I know it is because she could see that her mother wasn't herself and that made her mad at me.  I have apologized to her and our relationship has gotten better and better.  Her boyfriend is at basic training for the Marines and she is really leaning on me for support, and I love it.  She feels that I am back to normal and she can trust me for the support she needs.  

I hope all of you who are struggling realizes that things can be back to normal one day.  It is tough for a while, but once you get over that hump, it is great.  My life is better than it has been in years.  The only regret I have right now is that my Daddy didn't live to see my get my life back in order.  I know that he is looking down and smiling at me and I know that I will see him again one day.

Have a great night everyone and remember to stay positive.

God Bless
Susan

[worried878]

It is nice to feel again!....isolating was one of the worst parts of addiction for me...i lost my sense of self confidence...nice to have it back

[lady67]

I agree with you worried.  I have isolated myself too long.  I have gotten back to the swing of things again and it feels so good.  I also think meeting all the wonderful friends on here have helped so much.  I have met so many wonderful people on this forum and I feel like I have formed some lasting friendships.  I wish there were people I could talk to face to face, but then I don't know if I would be totally honest with them about what is going on in my life and all about my past.

Oh well, I am rambling again so I guess I will go to bed.  After I watch the rest of Law and Order that is.

Later
Susan

[GoingToMakeIt]

It has been neat watching you since you got on here. The fog started lifting and you started to come out. This is a good thing. You are doing so well.

[cathy5841]

i am so glad you are in happy place now.  you have worked hard to get here, it is time to reap the rewards.  

[dominosarah]

Congrats on rebuilding your relationship with your daughters.  That is such a good feeling for you and them.  I am so happy for you.  As for our daddies, they are watching over us with a big smile and their hand on our shoulders saying "thats my girl".  sara