I just went to my second NA meeting on Friday night. Although it is nerve wracking you will see once you get in their that the people there are all like you in one way, they all have had to struggle with drugs and they are more then willing to help you. At the meeting I went to I was given a list of phone numbers for all the gals in the meeting with decent clean time. I was also given a list of meetings in my area. Just being there with these people and hearing their stories and getting much needed support can go a long way in helping a person like me or you who is struggling. They give me hope and inspiration and although I love this forum, there is nothing like getting real life support from people who understand what its like to go through this. Nobody will judge you and even if you saw someone you knew - they are there for the same reason and it is a rule in NA or AA that nobody talks about who they see at their meetings. They will make that point at every meeting. But if it makes you feel better, pick a meeting thats a little further from your home town and go to it. And you may have to try out a few meetings before you find your ''home'' group. By going to meetings you are utilizing a very powerful resource to help you stay clean, kudos to you for doing that!! I thought I could do it alone but a relapse taught me that I can't. I NEED their help and by getting and staying clean I can help others and so on. Try it, you'll see that you have nothing to be afraid of. They are people like us and can really help you.
Good for u..there is also a website that gives the locations of na and aa mtgs....it is in an article called "internet sites to help with addition"
if u do not feel comfy at this place..then pick another...mosta the time peeps go to several before they find their "home"" I did..started in NA///in the deep south and had nuttin in common as most were IV drug abusers fresh outta prison////felt like i was in a meat market with my cloths off! but still learned alot//knowing i was no better//just not at home???,,,each time,,,visited both na and aa,,,,prob 20 til i found my home`at an AA mtg..and stayed//walking distance from my house//////most r cross addicted,,,,and i was a FIT...steps r the same..do not judge ur first mtg...only listen,,,,,there is sumpin in each word they speak... a clean person who is at peace has a gleam u will long to have,,,a sense of being at peace...it is in their eyes...nite
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