Giving Up!!!

[coconuts27]

Hey everybody. I know its been a couple days since my last post, I was just feeling too guilty to come here. On Thursday I went to see my psych, and after that I was really feeling hopeless. I wrote him a letter (like some of you suggested) and did a pretty good job of keeping my cool. He still didnt do anything for me. He suggested I go to a 30 day rehab, or the methadone clinic, but I really dont think I need that. His mentioning of the meth clinic again really ticked me off, by the way. I've stopped using coke and now Im a total bi**h, but Im still taking 2-3 norcos a day. Its the norco that I need help with, but Im just not sure if now's really the time. Im so depressed and moody already, and I think that trying to quit will just make it worse. After my visit with him, Im really thinking that I should just lie to my future docs and keep taking the pills til they diagnose me and get me on something that helps. I truly believe that I have adult add and thats why my life is outta control, and it was even before the drugs, but no one will listen. He thinks I have a personality disorder, but me and everyone I know disagrees. I've tried so many anti-depressants and they never work, I think that if he'd try something new, I might get better and quit self medicating. I been taking the same dose of norco for 2 years, is it really so bad? Should I even bother? I have my bouts of anxiety and depression, but for the most part Im usually ok when I take these.

[tracey63]

If your only taking 3 or 4 a day, methadone wouldn't be the way to go.

[mr.lucky66]

I agree with you that you shouldn't go on methadone for several reasons. Besides it sux, there is also the reason that you are a poly drug abuser with coke and methadone only works well with people who only abuse narcotics. I think you are looking for reasons as to why you are an addict. You may have mental issues but maybe you just take it because it feels good. all the best

[worried878]

So you take the norcos for psychological reasons?  2-3 a day is not a large amount...not everyone abuses narcotics but they are for physical pain...although i agree they can help with mental pain as well....you are the only one who really knows if you have an addiction problem with them or not...it is too bad they cant get to the root of your problem so you dont have to lie to doctors to get relief...only thing is if you have abused other substances in the past, narcotics can be a bad choice for long term use...if you are not ready to quit them right now then you may not should try right now...you really have to be ready to be successful at quitting...keep posting and I hope you can find a doctor who can diagnose and help you...dont quit looking for one...(: