Going on Day 11

I just woke up to go to the bathroom.  I had about 5 hours of sleep.  I feel a wee bit groggy right now, but I am sure if I go for a walk and I get to work, I will feel amazing!!!

That is what happened yesterday!!!!

My body doesn't hurt, hardly at all.  My feet will hurt at work from standing, so I sit when I can.

Anyway,  I feel positive that I got that much sleep.  I had to go out on the porch last night and listen to the crickets.  I laid on a bench on the porch and it was so relaxing.  I was afraid I was gonna fall asleep out there!  

For me, I see the closer we get to our Creator and his creation, the faster we get better!!!!  Maybe it will work for you!!!

It's an amazing ride!!!

I hope to my God, that you all stay positive.  Believe in you and something greater than you!!!  I was told to do that for many years and didn't understand it that much.  I think I wasn't ready all those times!  You have to really want it!!!

God Bless!!!!

Grace

[littlebit010101]

I see u have CALMED down....lol....congrats to u for such a positive attitude...ur doing great.....best wishes....

[Innerstrength67]

Your doing awesome! I'm so proud of you. It's about finding a different, healthier way to live life on Life's terms. Your winning this one day at a time. We all have more inner strength than we realize. After the physical subsides we must really figure out why we went down that destructive path. That will come in time.
I wish you light on tour journey.
You are showing everyone here that it's possible to put down the drugs.

[comfortquinn]

Actually, I know why I went down that path!  I had bad social anxiety and my mother is skitzophrenic and a control freak and living with her drove me nuts and when I found a way to numb myself from all the anxiety and her, I thought "WOW!".  My mother wasn't a good example for us kids and my dad was a bad alcoholic that broke so many promises, it made me feel like a piece of you know what.  Anyway, that is in the past.  I am finding peace from within me and loving me now.  I was so confused before.  I think as I get older, I look back at everything I learned.  All my life experiences and finally realize who I am and liking who I am!
I went to a great rehab in Klamath Falls Oregon.  7months and 10days all together.  It was a duel diagnosis place.  They helped so much!  Got me out of my comfort zone and learned how to be me!!!

I hope you are good.  I feel bad that you have the pain you do!  I will pray for you!!!

[Luckytwice]

Good to see you are feeling better!  You'll still have ups and downs, so be expecting that.

How we start life,  the environment we grow up in has a huge effect on our sense of well being, our self esteem, etc. We don't realize this when we are young, and it all gets pushed back into our subconsciousness, where it influences us without our really knowing that it does. It's great that you are able to realize this, as so many people just can't put this all together and get past it to create their sense of well being and self worth.

I love this time of year, especially the night. The stars are absolutely beautiful this tiem of year where i live, I look straight out and am right in the middle of the milky way, and have the northern lights twinkling to the north, The big dipper and little dipper, Orions belt etc. are all bright and easy to see. You really can't help but be in awe of it all, and part of it all at the same time. God does beautiful work.

Anyways, take care and have a great day!  

[comfortquinn]

Thank you so much!  I am on a down right now!  It's good to hear this is normal.  My anxiety is so out of control.  Today is day 13 and I only got 2 and  1/2 hours sleep and around 5 most nights.  Do you think I will ever get 8 hours again?

[Luckytwice]

You will, it just takes time for everything to get back to normal. You can help with the amino acids and vitamins a lot.

Three main ones (taken at lowest dose to start) 5HTP, L-Tyrosine, And L-Glutamine  are what help keep that nasty anxiety under control,

[justsaynotodrugs]

  
    Sounds like your pointed in the right direction.  Keep up the good work of staying clean.  Recovery does GET better. I also got parents that are very controlling they want what they want and the rest goes in the back seat.  But they both come from alcoholic parents. Just keep on keeping on with not using.

[vicki595]

Quinn:  The aforementioned amino acids are fine but not if you're on certain anti depressants.   I don't know if you are so I needed to mention that.

All the best!

[comfortquinn]

Yeah!  I'm not needing any anti-stupid depressants!!!  Thanks for the info!!!!

[comfortquinn]

Thanks for the advice.  Is it best to take all three?