HAPPY

Question

I was just wondering if there was anyone out there who has relapsed on pills and is happy about their relapse? It may sound like a dumb question, but for those of us who still think about relapsing, maybe it would help to hear from those who have?

kim715 · Answer

My son has this quote that he wrote down on a post it and keeps it on his computer.I think the name of the person who said it is Curtis Martin and it says "Don't sacrifice what you want most for what you want right now."Words to live by.Peace.

studiogirl · Answer

Ive relapsed plenty and while it may feel good for the moment, it is infintitely harder for me to get off the drugs every time I go back.  There is something so anticlimactic about my relapses.  Like, ok, I get to feel good for a little but then nothing has changed and I am still in the same situation I was in before except now I have to deal with this again.  I dont know maybe thats just me

worried878 · Answer

I used for 4 days after a neck procedure...but i think i coulda went without...i think i used it a an excuse...but anyway...i found that when i took the pills they just didnt do it for me anymore...made me feel down...in a way i am glad i found this out...but many relapse and feel great and continue to use and have to start all over....not recommended to relapse on purpose just to see ..LOL

Decisions · Answer

I wasn't happy about it, except that it felt ok for the first time(s), and then over time the same routine or worse. 
I truly don't see myself ever going back to what I was doing.  Too much pain to get over it.  still in pain d amn it.

untwisting · Answer

I've relapsed several times. It's so easy to make excuses ... oh it'll just be a couple ... I deserve it ... etc. What's helped me most recently is journaling so I can remember how much withdrawal *****, all the work that's just gone down the toilet and how dissappointed I am in myself when I fall off the wagon. It also helps to read the good stuff, the pride I feel in getting another clean day behind me and really trying to remember when I try the self talk s*** that it never is just a couple and I'll have to start all over again. We work too hard getting and staying clean to let it all go for a little buzz that never measures up and always leaving you wanting more. Hang in - and hang on - even if it's minute by minute. You can do it!  And you'll feel so good about it.  God Bless!

122 Tactical Fighter Group · Answer

I have been off about a year - with a relapse or two. You never will get that same old charge from your doc.....and trying to will just make you feel worse....stay where you are - the kids need you -remember?

soreadytodetox · Answer

i have been addicted to snorting percs for over 4 yrs. 20 plus a day habit, all the time i relapsed i was totally sick!!!!!! ill the work to detox& w/ds for over 2 weeks it aint no party thats for sure! i felt like such a weak person yea the high was good but when its all over you have to start all over again from day one! i look at relapsing a little differently now if i was to slip for say just a pill or two for what ever reason it wouldnt be what i call a relapse to me a relapse is were you go for a day or more and right back to the large doses to were i will have to detox myself and go through all the a**kicking withdrawls and the sickness. it just isnt worth it to much pain and no gain. me being a snorter for over 4 yrs. it just take double the time and double the pain to get the stuff out of my system and yes for me it was the hardest thing ive ever done ive tried over 20 times or more tried tapering i just gave my self the allowance but never tapered of enough to help im 38 days clean today but i just bite the bullet and went cold turkey with the help of some other meds till the w/ds were over it takes me about 2 weeks total but i still crave ever day, every single day. ive just taught myself to keep my mind on other things! i just dont think anyone relapses on purpose what would be the sence in that?    sherri

Korley · Answer

I am so glad to hear you say that it wasn't worth the high at all! It's like I really want "that feeling" again, but I know that it will be short lived and probably not worth the consequences. I am glad that you are back!

janshan · Answer

I did Sunday after working so hard to get clean and of course it felt friggin great to be high again but I hated myself and was so disapointed in myself.  Not worth the high at all!  In a second I easily could have been right bck to where I was.  I went through way too much to go back.  I really could not belive that I did it, I thought I was stronger.  Yesterday I thought about it again and I just told myself you have worked too hard this si your last chance to get clean either you do it now or your a drug addict the rest of your life.  Is that what my kids need? Hell no!

FlyFisher100 · Answer

The only experience I have is from hearing from others and in almost all cases, they have done what the above post details, back to their personal hell or worse, but I suppose it depends on the degree of relapse.

GoingToMakeIt · Answer

Those who have posted about their relapses never sound happy about it at all. Usually within days you are right back to where you were or worse! Addiction is not pretty.