HOW TO DEAL WITH CONSEQUENCES?

[Vicks628]

WHen i recentlly did pills and almost died, my mom finaly found out what was happening.. we are SOOO close!!! I mean, we live together and work together and do everything together.. but i was doing this behind her back.. and while we are working on our relationship and im trying to earn her trust back, i know her hurt her so bad.. and she has been betrayed her whole life... By EVERYONE, her mother, father, husband.. and I just know i let her down so and I dont know what to do... its the ONLY thing that keeps me from relapsing while at the same time it MAKES me want a pill so bad :( I know I was hurting myself doing what I did, but I never meant to hurt her too and I did :((( she never thought I would do that.. and i dont know how to make it better.. any advice???

[dominosarah]

Just make sure you talk with her.  That is very important.  We still love our children even thru dissapointments.  Just stay away from those pills.  They are very evil and sneaky.  You have alot of living to do and the only way to do it is being clean.  You sound like you have a good head on your shoulders.  Go and give your mom a hug and kiss and tell her you love her.  Stay strong        sara

[Vicks628]

Thank you!! :) She has been supportive but I know shes aching inside and feeling that same old "disappoint" she has her whole life and I just want her to feel better.. I will prove to her it was a mistake and thank g-d its over! and hopefully in time it will just be a bad memory! thank u!!

[dominosarah]

Actions speak louder than words here.  Stay off the pills for you and your mom will see you are no longer doing them anymore. I am glad you didnt die from them and i hope that scared you enough to say thats it.  Your mom is worried about you.  Thats what we do is worry!!!!  Keep the lines of communication open with your mom and talk to her about this if you can.  Im sure she will be a great support system for you also.  Let us know how it is going.  Stay strong          sara