Hello

[Bkitty2]

I'm still here. I'm sad to report that my 40 and fabulous year was the worst time of my life. Thank God I turned 41 last Sat. I'm ready to try again. I had been really busy working. I had not been feeling well at all since about April. I kept getting breakouts on my inner thighs that I thought was from shaving. I had been suffering these horrible migraines that requires freq trips to urgent care for a shot of Tordal, Zofran and high flow O2. I was put on imitrex but that only made me puke. They just kept happening. On 7/23 I woke up for work and could barely lift my arms. An ingrown hair I had grew to the size of a baseball. I made it to work. I don't know how. Came home and went to urgent care where they sent me to the ER. My WBC count was 30,000. I was also in acute renal failure and that ingrown hair was huge and black! I ended up going for surgery 7/24. On my a$$ of all places! Then it spread to the left side and back I went. Needless to say my poor butt. While in the hospital I was kept very comfortable and drugged up. I don't remember any of it. I yelled at the ICU nurse and I guess I was a real bear. I was in pain I couldn't even go to the bathroom and I was wearing a diaper! My condition deteriorated and my pressure dropped to 60/30. I stayed that way for 3 days. Thankfully the IV antibiotics kicked in. I was sent home 8/1 full of medications. I was on routine dilaudid. My primary told me it was equivalent to pharmaceutical heroin. I stopped taking that day of discharge and had a lot of pain and he started me on cymbalta and neurontin. Can I just say that is the BEST pain management ever. I doubted him and was going to ask for my favorite -perks. I'm so glad I didn't. I have lost over 50lbs in the past month. Blood work is normal. I'm still suffering post sepsis side effects. I have been thinking about all of you here. I miss you. I need you. I have made any meetings. Depression is here.  But I'm aware. I need to regroup. Back to basics. One day at a time. My wounds are healing nicely and fast!!!' I've almost died 2 times in my life. I feel I should have this new outlook on life. I feel guilty that I don't. I return to work Tomm and I'm asking for help and prayers. It's good to see everyone. I'm heading to bed but look forward to catching up to you.

Bkitty

[clean_in_ks]

I missed this somehow, girl.  Good to see your name again!!!

Sorry to read of all the problems you've endured....but really glad to read that you are ready to re-group and get back to basics.

We've missed you for a LONG while....and as you know, we're part of your family too.  Take care and let us know how you are getting on~

[glassguy]

In my prayers!!! Good luck and STAY STRONG :-) :-) :-)

[Loveliveshere]

You are so strong...how do you do it? You had to be in so much pain. When i was taking dilaudid i didnt like them as much as vicodin for some reason. They made me sleep more than what wding off adderall do. Vicodin has always been my biggest downfall :( glad u feel better and i wish i had your strength!

[Bkitty2]

My first day back was a disaster. I had a black cloud following me the whole day however I'm grateful anyways. I had a good week. Not feeling well as to be expected. Just resting as much as I can. Thank you all so much!

[dominosarah]

It was so nice to see your name on here but i am sorry for all the trouble you have had.  Hopefully your day goes well being back to work.  

[VICourageous]

I too am so sorry to hear this.
It seems like some of us have had some hard times and ups and downs since we came clean..BUT we handled it way better then we would of if we were still high or drunk. I am not sure if you remember when I had lost 4 family members and 2 good friends all in and around the same time frame or close. Well I am still Grieving from day to day for one to the other. Then out of the blue I had some test and had 2 blocked arteries that lay over the heart. WOW!! Now that was a BIG wake up call and I now am happy to be alive, even if I have had some hard and hurtful times. I too just had to adjust some other group meetings besides my AA/NA..I need to come back on too..SO just hang tight and I am sure things have got to get better because they just can not get any worse!!!! I sure will send out some BIG Prayers for you both.
Hope to see you on again. lol
Be Safe
Bless

[Sonrissa]

Dear Bkitty, it's so wonderful to hear from you. I'm very sorry you have been going through so much. I hope you heal fast. You have been missed, and I've thought of you often. Sending prayers for healing and comfort. Take care, and I hope you will be around here more. All the best!