Help, this will be my first night at work sober, any tools to help me?

[joyagain]

Hey everyone, I know I already posted a few minutes ago, but I forgot this one.  I am very nervous about work tonight, although not as nervous about it as I was 2 days ago as I am feeling pretty strong right now.  I know the strong feeling will probably go though and that I could go into despair again.  Anyway just to remind everyone, or maybe I've never told anyone, I am a nurse on my feet all night and currently have a bone spur, and yes it does hurt.  I would also pop a pill when things got tough, or not.....ok lately had not worked unless I had some vicodin, couldn't handle the pressure anymore, and was actually more normal when on the drug.  Seriously more focused, an did very well..go figure.  I am very nervous about the anxiety that will obviously hit me when I am very tired in the middle of the night then my irritable bowel syndrome will insue, and that my friends is like labor pains, the vicodin helped that as well.  My doc recently gave me bentyl after I told her I was addicted to vicodin.  Bentyl for the ibs, but it can make you drowsy, that's all I need.  Any suggestions, thoughts, comments please.  Thanks      Joy

[Princessdaniella]

I am so happy for You that You're getting through this, GOOD on You.
And I think that it is a good thing you were on standby.

[joyagain]

Thanks everyone for posting it looks like I've gotten through the weekend without having to go to work.  I am on standby again tonight for the second night and so far have not been called in.  My stupid heel is really going to be an issue though.  I can't even walk around the block.  Today is day six for me w/o vicodin and I had no depairing feelings or thoughts all day, just felt really good emotionally.

[Beccabeccalynn]

Whether you think you can or think you can't you
are right. As addicts we like to find everything
that's gonna get in our way and hem us up, and they
will if we let them. So I say take your power back and do what you
have to do get thru work sober, be thankful you have a job and that you
Are good at it! Go for it don't dread it.
Becca

[Princessdaniella]

I have to agree with Vikki,
I know that it can be good to get back into the work environment as it is also a distraction and it is good to keep Yourself occupied.
However I have to agree with Vikki it seems as though you have a lot going on and your job is not one of the easiest especially when You're not feeling 100%. I would be waiting it out and resting.
I hope You can get through it and manage it if You do decide to go although I think it is best You wait.
Goodluck

[vicki595]

Maybe you shouldn't go to work until you're 100%.  That's a tough shift to work and you
know you have to be on your toes all the time!  The patients are counting on you to get the absolute best care...
Think it over...it's a huge responsibility...

Vicki