Help

This is my second time at this in 6 months.  I pray to stop.  I am sick and tired of wondering how long the buzz will last, and just realizing that i'll have to take more because it's just not enough.  I'm sick of wondering will I be able to get more.  Now other people know i'm on it.  I am so ashamed.  I fill like I can't be around them.  Or I wonder if they think I am worthless.  My mom died one year ago in May from accidental drug intoxication.  She was a RN.  I wonder if they look at me and say what a shame.  I really want to stop.  I need support.  I hope some will come my way.  How long are the wd's?  I haven't had any since yesterday.  I feel like my body is twitching.  Is that normal?  I want to feel better.  Can anyone help with advice?  Please any answers will be greatly appreciated.  Thanks and God Bless.

[tylersblueeyedmama]

First of all, it's ok to be scared! What is your addiction?  How much, when was the last time you took any?  If you can tell me this, then maybe I can help you better!

Let me know,

Kel

[benevolentlaughter]

I just joined this site several hours ago, and right now I'm going through the same thing just about. I'm 26 years old and I've been on Percocet for the past year. Today, I called my doctor to get my bi-weekly refill of 100 pills and he told me he was stopping the medication because the diagnosis from my knee issue/pain I've been having isn't treatable with narcotics.. I started taking the medicine because I was in pain, and now I feel as though I'm taking it just to feel normal everyday.

I posted a "post" several hours ago and still have had no luck here on this website. People seem nice from what I read on pages here, but they seem to helpe ach other and I haven't had any help, being a new person.

How old are you, what are you taking and for how long?

[benevolentlaughter]

Please let us know, hun.. I'm facing the same thing right now.

[merrymaria]

do not be ashamed...this happens to all walks of people...rich, poor, famous, or not...i m so sorry about your mom...please come back and talk...we are here to help...maria

[benevolentlaughter]

We're still here!  <3

[skinderella]

I am about to be in your boat... I plan on quitting next week... Talk to us, Please

[jon709]

I dont think it really matters what it is.  It's the same feeling for all of us.  We hate this kind of life.  We dont want to be drug addicts.  I have stopped taking oxycontin for last time.  I had 8 or 9 days clean then messed up.  I have done this a few times thinking somehow it might be different.  

shaking in normal.  I had a seizure the 3-4 day and it scared the **** out of me.  but I still went back and used.  

love yourself friend and take it day by day.  YOU can make it.  pm me anytime...

jon