Here I am again-Withdrawal

[momofmm]

I never thought I would be stupid enough to do this again.  I was wrong.  I'm on day 2 with no opiates.  hardest part right now......taking care of 3 kids.  Ages - 6, 1 1/2, and 3 1/2 months.  I can't take it anymore.  I just don't think I can do this...

[Baker3336]

I kind of know where your at right now. I'm a stay at home dad, day 16 off the norcos. I was lucky to not have to deal with anything but myself on day 2 and 3 but I had to get right back into my parenting job on day 4. It's tough but your almost there. I'm a little ahead of ya but it's so nice waking up(when I do get sleep) to not think about my next dose. Just stick with it, pretend you have the nastiest flu. What would ya do if ya did have the flu? It sounds like you would have to take care of your kids no matter what. I know lying isn't the best thing to do but maybe you could find someone to help you for a day and just tell them u have the flu. You should be good enough to function in a day or two. Just get through this and every day just keeps gettin a little sunnier if ya know what I mean. Hang in there and good luck.

[momofmm]

thank you guys for the helpful words.  i'm pretty much letting them do whatever they want at this point short of sticking a butter knife in the socket!  the house will get clean when it gets clean.  i just hate having to have my husband cone home to this....again,  he works 16 hours a day and I am a stay at home mom.  that is my job.....im ready for 30 days to be here

[soaddicted]

Well congrats on the 6 months and you had a little set back but you can push thru it. I'm sorry you have no one to help during the day. But you are only a few more days away from being out of the worst wds. And I know your probably so tired taking care of kids and wding. Just keep pushing tho. You know what sobriety feels like so just think of how good you felt.

[rockbottom1970]

I really feel your pain.  Detox is brutal in itself and I couldn't imagine doing it with kids to take care of. Lets try looking at this on a bright side because, no matter what, it seems like you have no choice but to do this since you are having trouble finding help.
First off, you are doing it, I know its probably brutally difficult but you are actually doing it.  
Secondly, this is day 2 for you right?  You're almost at that magical point when things get better, so just hang in there because your almost there.  Day 3 was the turning point for me  Thirdly, you have this forumm that can offer a ton of support and advice to get you through this.  Just keep posting with updates questions advice and I'm sure you'll get some answers.  Good luck and best wishes to you...

KJ

[momofmm]

both are getting to me.  my body hurts and so does my mind.  I was clean for 6 months.  withdrawals were bad but my husband had them stay with family for a week so i just had to deal with me.  that isn't an option this time.  if my family knew they would take my kids forever.

[soaddicted]

Well I care and your very welcome! I know this is so hard but with you not having access that is a good thing tho. Are you feeling sick from the wds or is it more the whole mental issue of it all? That really is the hardest part. I have actually had a few dreams about them since being clean but I don't want that life back. You just have to take it day by day and get in the mind set that your getting clean and how much better life will be. And I know it hurts thinking about your kids and doing it to them but they love you regardless and your going to be an even better mom sober! How long were you clean before?

[momofmm]

no he can't.  i have no access to anymore pills so that's really not an issue.  i look at ymy kids and i can't believe i did this to them again.  thank you for writing back so quickly.  i look at this thing every miniute to see if anybody cares.  thank you

[soaddicted]

Well don't give up please. I know exactly how you feel but that's your mind playing tricks on you so that you will take pills. After a week to 2 weeks you will look back and be so glad you fought it. Can your husband take off a few days to help ya?

[momofmm]

I so feel like im loosing it.  I keep telling myself that I can get through this and then I thin k about how bad I hurt and I just cry. n Then the kids cry and Ijust want to run away.  i kknow that i can't.  i have been driving my husand crazy all day calling and bitching to him.  poor guy.  my house is a mess and i don't want my husband to have to deal with this.  i want to give up

[soaddicted]

Hey there.. I know this is so hard but its so worth it in the end. I'm on day 13 and thank God I stuck it out. I have 3 kids myself so I know its hard. The hardest part is getting yourself mentally ready for it. But waking up everyday and not worrying where your pills are going to come from or always worrying when your going to run out is the best feeling. You can do this! Just stay on here and let us help you please...

[Silleestarfish]

Don't lose hope- where there is a will, there is a way. I went through wd's all last week while caring for a 2 1/2, 4 1/2 and 10 year old. I did have some help in the evening s and a couple of afternoon breaks through the week, but was the one caring for them mostly by myself. It wasn't easy at all, but I did it and you can too. What would you do if you came down with a really bad flu or cold or whatever. Try to think of it in a different light if you can. If it feels hopeless to you, please call a hotline, NA/AA for some support because it is out there. Everyone is here for you and rooting for your recovery. Keep posting.  WIshing you the best- Stephanie

[momofmm]

no friends, no family.  I was taking whatever i could and as much as i could.  mostly oxy

[sudie58]

you can do it, are you sure theres no friend or anyone to help, ?  what have you been on and how much were you taking, we can tell you things to help your withdrawal, keep posting, so we can help, god bless sudie

[momofmm]

I wish it was that easy.  I can't tell anybody because they have all been through this with me before.  Nobody can, would, or is willing to do that.  The last time this happened they took my kids away from me and I can't take that again.

[carson1975]

Hello doll u r in a hard spot for sure do u have any one that can help u with the kids! U can do this I really think it can! But I think u need help! Maybe a close friend or someone best wishes and god bless u

[dwbson]

You need some support. You need to tell someone and ask for help taking care of kids while you do this. That's a lot to take on along with detoxing.