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[lynnalb15]

So I'm on day two of detox from methadone.
Yesterday was pretty bad. Surprisingly. Stomach Hirt like hell and my fiancé left me. So right now in dealing with a lot. The pain of him leaving on top of withdrawals makes me want to just die. I took a norco last night because I couldn't take it anymore. And I'm just now waiting for the hell ahead of me. My life is faing apart in front of my eyes. And I can't do anything about it.

[Nighthawk61]

sorry i posted, i kind of feel like an idiot, most people stay on one thread, because you have followers and you don't want random comments from people that don't know the whole story.. unless you're looking for new people to comment but don't want them to know the whole story? Anyways, good luck

[dominosarah]

Lynn, you can do everything about it.  This insanity you are living can be changed, by you.  You hold the key that will unlock these chains.  None of us like wd but it is the price we pay.  Getting honest with yourself and cutting off all supplies to pills can be changed, by you.  This all lies within you.  When you have had enough you will stop at nothing to get and stay clean.

As for your fiance...let him handle his feelings right now.  He has been thru alot.  He is angry and rightfully so.  This is just as emotional for them as it is for us.  

I hope you make the right decisions here.  You have been on this roller coaster long enough.  It's time for Lynn to shine~~

[bama88]

I'm so sorry to hear this happened.  Remember nothing is permanate. Look at it as a break from each other.

[Sonrissa]

Hi Lynn, I don't know what to say or what advice I can give! Maybe just to stay focussed on your Methadone detox? Set the rest of it aside for now! It will wait for you! You and the baby are at your Mother in Laws right? So, you are safe and both being cared for! For now, that is all that matters! You will deal with the rest of your life after you get through this! One thing at a time! Don't overwhelm yourself! Let yourself feel what you feel! Hug the baby, you and her are all that matters right now! I'm praying for you and for God to give you strength and hope! You and the baby will have a great and happy life! Take care sweetie! So many people are pulling for you!!

[Nighthawk61]

Lynn, I'm sorry that your fiance walked out on you while you're making this monumental change in your life, screw him/her!!!!!!!  Sort of like the drug, they let you down, you don't need people like that in your life.  Get rid of them so you have room in your life for somebody worthwhile, and get rid of the methadone so you can have some things and lots of somebodies in your life that are worthwhile. What you are doing is not watching your life fall apart before your eyes, you're giving birth to a new life!!!!!!!! It won't be long until you're helping somebody out on this site.  You can do it and you know it, down deep, or you wouldn't have even tried. Congratulations on the new life. Like giving birth, after you receive the reward of new life, it's worth the pain of childbirth. Thinking of you. Liz p.s. I know what you're going through.

[ImDONENoMore]

Oh no - I'm sorry lynn.. you are going through a tough time aren't you?

Only tell me - why do you think there isn't anything you can do about this?  What about a meeting?  Or therapy?  Are either of those options something you would consider?  I promise, getting help when we need it only requires taking one step - one tiny little step that could lead to a whole new life.  If you think about everything at the same time, it becomes overwhelming and we end up not able to move - but if you take it one thing at a time, it becomes possible to change.